A/N: Alrighty! I've started work on my third fic, The Forest From the Trees. I go on vacation in a week, unfortunately, and I will be working like MAD to get this entire thing posted before I leave.
I hope.
This entire fic is dedicated to Sussiekitten, because she is, without a doubt, amazing and an inspiration.
This fic has not been beta'd, unfortunately- I don't have the time for such a luxury. If you see mistakes, let me know.
Flashback
"Speech"
/Thought/
The story herein earns me no money, nor do I own anything but the plot. It alternates points of view, starting with Dax, UNLESS OTHERWISE INDICATED. It will contain Yaoi- that means Guyxguy action. It shall also contain the mentions of yuri- that means chickxchick. If this offends, STFU!
Flames will be used to heat my house, cause I'm freezing! Not really.
ON WITH IT!
I was depressed, more so than I had ever been in my entire life.
I've saved the world three times over; I discovered I'm a member of the precursors, a virtual god; I've got more power than you could shake a stick at!
Hell, I'm not even orange and fuzzy anymore!!
I've learned to shoot a handgun, and I'm a pretty good shot.
Actually, this one time, I was practicing and Jak got in the way…Let's just say he had trouble sitting down for a little while after that.
Though for a different reason that I wished it to be…
Which brings me back to my depressed state.
Despite all these things, I still don't have the one thing I want the most, more than anything in the world.
Jak.
Yep. I'm crazy about everybody's favorite hero, the big, studly, greenish-blonde object of my ottsel lurv.
I guess I realized I loved him a little before he woke up in the Baron's Prison-y, fortress thing of doom.
Heh, the first time I told anyone it was Tess.
Boy, that was a fun conversation…
"Daxxie? What's wrong, 'Orange Lightning'? You haven't been acting like yourself!". The buxom blond knew me better than anyone else, huh.
I sighed, debating whether or not I should tell her and face her wrath, or not tell her and face her wrath.
I opted to tell her now and get it over with.
"Tess, I think…I think…" I trailed off, swallowed hard, and making sure there was no one in the bar, lowered my voice a little and spoke. I knew that this decision would probably change the course of my life, and her reaction could range from fan girl to calling me all sorts of names.
"T-Tess, I'm in love w-with Jak", I stuttered, nervous and hyper aware of everything around me.
She looked at me for a second, shocked, then squealed and clapped.
"Oh. My. GOD! You're kidding, right?" She said, extremely eager. Now she had someone to go shopping with, I guess.
"Do I look like I'm kidding?" I seethed, immediately regretting it. The look of hurt in her eyes was unmistakable. I walked over and wrapped her in a big hug.
"I'm sorry, Tess. I'm just stressed over him. You're ok with this, though?!" I questioned, completely and totally confused as to why she wasn't bawling and in tears.
"Oh, you silly! Of course I am! How can I not be, you're my best friend!" She grinned, and I knew I had been forgiven.
"Besides", she whispered, "What right have I to be mad? I'm in a relationship with Rainn". At this she giggled, and it was my turn to be shocked.
"Wait, what?!" I asked after a minute of recovery. "When? How?…where?" I was totally dumbstruck by this.
"Well, two months after our last race in Kras City, Rainn admitted she liked me. I said what the hell, I'll try in, and, well, here we are, at the Naughty Ottsel". She giggled again. "You ok, Daxxie?" she asked, noticing my shock.
I closed my mouth, which dropped open during our conversation, and nodded. I felt so much better after having told her, and I knew she wouldn't betray me.
I guess during my memory, I must have started crying, cause I now had tears streaming down my face.
"Dax??" asked my knight in not-so-shining armor. He was standing right behind me, his hand about to touch my shoulder.
"Something wrong, buddy?" He was genuinely concerned for me, but I just couldn't take looking at his face.
So I ran.
