I wish...

The first entry.

I... like someone. They don't know that, though. No one does. I'm good at hiding my feelings. They once asked me if I feel light-headed around someone. Like, I can't feel my legs and I'm about to fall. I said, "Yeah, I guess I do." I do. I'm just smooth enough to hide it.

I wish there was no struggle, they're already dating someone. Is it bad to wish that they would break up? I wish they'd know I'm always there for them. I want to be able to protect them. We don't have all our classes together. The one class we don't have together, they got hurt. I almost punched the one who hurt them.

I wish it was easy, but they I'm just one of the many choices. I'm not a possibility. I am the background character to their main show. I am not seen all the time, but I wouldn't have a purpose without them.

I wish my day dreams were true. The dreams where I'm their savior, their hero, their crush. But the chance of that happening? 0.01%. Perhaps even less. The day we switched seats and I was moved away from them was one of the worst days ever. Sure, I may have been sitting next to the most annoying kid in the class. But, it was worth it to be able to just see their face every now and then. Yet, he annoyed them too, so I guess it's okay. I see laugh every now and then.

I wish I was there, I am there. I wish they knew.