What happened to me?
678, 679, 680, 681, 682.
That's it. 682 barbs on the fence.
682 barbs on the fence in the middle of the biggest city in the world, a world that doesn't know that there is a city bigger than China. Than New York. Than all of them combined.
And coincidentally, the bigger the city, the smaller it makes you feel.
So imagine how I feel.
Sitting here in this ridiculous Juvenile Correctional camp in this ridiculous city called Triama is supposed to make you realise your ridiculous wrongs. But all I can think about is the world's wrongs.
All I did was kill a man.
The world killed millions of souls.
But that's okay right? The world is allowed to do whatever it pleases; right? That's what everyone allows. They all just surrender their worthless souls and give it willingly to the world. Not me. I will live how I want, when I want, and how I want. Oh, I forgot to tell you I'm always a little ray of sunshine.
I would tell you about myself, but let's all be honest with each other; no one cares about me. Not even my mother. Not even my father. Frankly, I didn't care about them either. He was the type of dad who would go to parties every weekend, get drunk, and make another child. He always thought I cared about how many women he slept with. He used to explain it to me in his stupid letters, he was too "busy" too come and see me in person. He even had the nerve to tell me that I had 38 other siblings.
Yeah, it always made me feel special. And loved. And cared about.
There is that word I hate. Care. I haven't had many people say that to me. That they care about me. And the ones who did broke my tiny, fragile heart.
So I made a decision.
I decided that no one could hurt me if I didn't let them in. I distanced myself from everyone I knew. From everyone I didn't know. From everyone who cared. I trained, I pushed myself past the limits. I grew strong, and I can look after myself. I don't need parents. I don't need a friend. I don't need anyone anymore.
And that makes me feel invincible.
My name is Annabeth, and a lot has changed.
What the hell happened to me?
