DO NOT OWN NARUTO, JUST MY PLOT, IF I MAKE ONE HEEHEE


UNTIL THEN…WAIT FOR ME…

CHAPTER ONE: SHATTERED HEART

Time seemed to stop whenever I was with my one true love. All I ever wanted was to feel love and kindness, warmth and happiness, whenever I was with him.

"Ano, I wish we could stay like this forever." I smiled, slowly pulling away from my secret boyfriend. His smile soften as he ran his thumb across my bottom lip. We were the epitome of secret lovers. He swore it was more like Romeo and Juliet, that if anybody found out about us, that there will be trouble especially from my side of the family. He leaned down to my face his eyelashes gently caressed my pale cheeks. His eyes captured my own and I shivered. He smirked. I have not seen him for the past couple of weeks, he always stated he was busy, but on this night, the night we first got together, he made time to finally make it up to me. I was so delighted, to hear his voice, see his face, feel his touch.

On this day, I wore a light pink sleeveless frilly baby doll dress that went just above my knees, it had cute dark pink ribbons on the front bosom and I wore pale pink flats with it. My makeup was light, only wearing sheer lip gloss, a little mascara and my long Indigo dark hair was waved in loose curls, while my bangs were straight. He loved it when I wore pink. Made him feel, like he was dating a model so he said. I smiled with glee at that thought.

"Do you know how beautiful you are?" he whispered, sounding sad as hands roamed throughout my body, his left had deeply tangled in my long indigo locks, his right hand pausing briefly at my left breast before squeezing it. A soft mew emitted from my mouth. As long as I can remember we only did little things to arouse one another, but never did we actually made love.

I smiled softly ."Tonight…I..."

"Shush," he interrupted me, placing a finger to my lips.

Tonight, I wanted to finally give myself to him. I pictured his ecstatic face as we begin our first night of becoming one.

"I will…I will miss these," he whispered across my lips, before stealing them for a chaste kiss. Too wrapped in these feelings, I dismissed his comment and gave it my all.

After we finished those few shared moments of tenderness, we held each other while another day was making a grand exit and nighttime was getting her wish granted to make an earlier appearance.

I snuggled close to him, breathing in his unique scent and soap. Thinking of ways to never make this moment end. I was so immerse in my own wishful thinking that I almost missed the words uttered from my so called lover.

"Goodbye Hinata…"

"Nani?" I question, laughing a nervous laugh, holding him tight in a warm embrace.

I didn't understand, what did he mean?

"Gomen." He stiffen and swiftly pushed me away from him.

Daring to look at him with heavy eyelashes, I catch a glimpse of his side profile, the sun was setting illuminating a soft shadow of himself. I move to the dark shade, foolishly believing that that one simple act will keep him there chained to me. His blond locks blew in the coming air. He was looking the other way.

Today, was our third month anniversary of being a couple.

He looked troubled almost… sadden, placing a hand over his mouth, a light flush glided among his cheeks. He signed, exhaling a deep breath he held, his eyes locked onto my own pearly-white and with an instant glance, I felt all his determination, his courage, through that one single look.

"Hina-chan, I want to … I want to break up….I don't love you…I never did… and….no matter how hard I…" he clenched his fist, suddenly anger, turning fully away from me. "No matter how hard I try to force myself….I can't…I can't love you… I can't love you Hina…I cannot erase these other feeling I still carry deep down for someone else. I don't...I don't want to lie to you or to myself anymore.. I don't wanna hurt you any longer than I should Hina-chan. I'm sorry." he abruptly turned to me pain in his eyes.

His hurtful confession played over and over in the back of my mind.

My face startled from shock, my voice trapped within my throat. Warm wetness, gently slipping through wide unbelieving eyes. My hair whipped around my face, as if fanning the heat I felt emerging from my skin.

He continued, "I thought that day you confessed to me about your feelings, I was happy that someone, finally like me. And then I was gonna go into a whole speech of I'm so flattered…." a dry laugh escaped his lips and he fumbled to press on. "Hina, I would have decline you politely that day, but when I saw how cute your face looked all flushed and how beautiful you have become, after many months of not seeing you…I became selfish…And for that moment, I decided If I couldn't have the original, I'll accept the substitution. My perverse reasoning got the better of me and because of my loneliness and hurt I felt deep down ever time I was rejected by the actual person I truly wanted. Over time, I compared your feelings, as like mine, unrequited love…but this time I thought people like us…people like me and Hinata can find happiness if we stick together. I hoped in time my feeling for the other person will disappear when I'm with you, that hopefully you being by my side will help me forget about her. That in the end, I will fall for you Hinata Hyuga, but in reality making you swear to a secret relationship with me was selfish, it only helped me put my priorities first, that nobody on the outside can figure out that we were seeing each other and I can continue to purse my true feelings… without feeling guilty." he ended covering his face in shame.

Hearing these words, was like a knife to my heart. How could he say or do such hurtful things? But as silly and naïve as I was… I still loved him. I felt I could simply overlook what he had said and done…just forgive him, Is that what he wanted, forgiveness?

With a soft voice I replied as best as I could believing the words I hoped desperately would convince even myself.

"I..I don't mind… if N-Naruto-kun does not loves me.. I I on-only want Naru-kun to stay by my side… I will be happy no matter what…. Tonight I wanted to give myself to Uzamaki-kun…" He looked at me with surprise in his eyes, as I played with the dark pink ribbon bow on the front of my dress.

I sniffled, "So that Naru-kun cam be just as happy as I am whenever I'm with him," turning to him with crystal tears, I gave him what I thought he wanted to hear. "So Naruto-kun could do as he please…even if he wishes to love some other woman, because I lov-..."

"STOP IT, DON'T SAY THAT!!!" he added letting out a growl of frustration, making me flinch. "How can you say that even after all I said! Are you that much of a BAKA! Hinata just this past three weeks, I finally got up the nerve to ask her out….without you knowing… without thinking of you….doesn't that make you angry. I don't want to do that to you," he cried desperately, gabbing onto my shoulders, gently shaking me, shaking me out of my reasoning.

I meekly responded hurt, " And she must have turned you down…or you wouldn't have come back to me…right Naruto-kun?" I looked at him with hope in my eyes, as he stopped, letting me go, pulling his warmth away from me.

"Hina-chan?" he eyed me his blue eyes that I loved seeing so much seemed somewhat distant, "She said YES. The girl I finally loved, said YES."

My heart froze.

"That's okay….. I don't mind sharing Naruto-kun at all." I whispered, although my mind screamed that what I spewed out was nonsense, no girl in their right mind would share their boyfriend.

He made a disgusted face.

"Hinata! that's not the point, these past few weeks, I have been seeing her, we grew closer then anything before, and there were nights in which we seek out each other's comfort, to make matters clear Hinata we slept together a couple of times already."

A deep sob wracked my body and I couldn't help but fall to my knees. Placing a hand over my mouth, just enough, please Kami, just enough, so he wouldn't hear my sobs. It was too late sob after sob encased my body. My face flushed from embarrassment or anger, I couldn't tell. Right now, I just wanted to go home. Tears leaked from my eyes.

Naruto-kun lost his virginity to someone else….

I heard his voice begin again. This time softer, like he was remorseful.

"I didn't want to hurt you anymore nor did I wanted you to find out about this Hina-chan, from anyone else. That's why I confess to you alone, before anything between us could go any further… your statements earlier was so very foolish and stupid. It upset me. I don't want you to have to cling on me to me anymore. You have to forget about me. I don't want to be portrayed as a selfish person, taking advantage of you while with another woman, because Hinata I am deeply in love with her. Can you understand that Hina-chan?"

I nodded weakly keeping my head low.

Yes, I can understand what it feels like to finally get the person you love, you BAKA, I am after all a sixteen year old girl in love myself, I weakly noted in my head.

"…Hinata?" He kneeled beside me, pushing a long lock of my hair behind my ear. "Please stop crying? I know you will find someone better than me, like Kiba-san… I have seen the way he eyes you a lot lately."

Somehow that one statement angered me, How can he calmly say such things? Kiba can be quite affectionate at times, but I never encouraged him any further because of you Baka. I shook that feeling away.

"Hinata, Gomen… you do know I will always treasure these moments we had, ne I hope we can still be friends?

I slowly moved my face to him, and quietly nodded.

You are so stupid Hinata forgiving him so easily, for hurting you like this.

"Good, I'm…I'm glad you understand Hinata-chan." he smiled, wiping the tears off my face. "You know you really are beautiful. I'm sure some lucky guy will be happy to have you as his…" he meekly whispered.

I could only stare at the floor.

"Now let's get you home before it really gets dark."

"Hai," I weakly nodded as he pulled me up to my feet.

"Boy you are really light Hinata, you better start eating better so you can gain a little more weight, not like Sakura-ch.." he stopped all together, blushing himself from the mention of that person's name. Clearing his throat he continued, he shyly added "Well, Sakura-chan is a lot heavier than you are Hina-chan."

My heart ached, so I lost to the cherry blossom girl… Haruno, yet I couldn't bring myself to hate her she probably didn't know we were dating…or hate Naruto for that fact, I shyly thought stealing a quick glance at him.

His face radiated relief.

We walked a path that we both knew by heart, a secret meeting place where I would come to meet Naruto, well not anymore.

This was the most hurtful break-up I ever first experience, because I didn't even fight back or defend my feelings.

I turned away from him, "Umm, Naru-Uzamaki-kun, I can managed from here." I lied.

"Oh, Honto?" he replied.

"Hai." I choked placing a hand over my mouth.

"Oh then I guess this is really Goodbye, Hina-chan.. I mean this relationship we had…I mean we will always be friends ne." he stuttered, sheepishly placing a hand behind his head.

We stared at each other for a couple of minutes, before he decided to move on. "Ano, see you around." he waved, reluctantly turning around he headed towards his home…

I stood a couple of minutes more watching his backside, as more tears escaped my eyes.

He turned around, too far to notice my tears, he shouted "Hinata-chan, let's not act like a strangers around each other okay. Remember I will always care for you."

I clutched my heart and nodded for the third time that night.

He quickly spun around and whistled an old melody I use to hum, whenever I was around him.

Who knew, that was the last time I was ever going to get the chance to speak to him face to face.

Eyes burning, furiously I wiped at them away, looking down.

I will no longer have those bright deep blue cerulean eyes to myself, that always took my breath away when he walked into a room. His soft blond hair that tickled my face whenever he leaned down to kiss my pale pink lips. His rough tanned skin, will no longer caress my own.

He was walking away from my life….

My first crush…

Walking away from me forever…..

My first Love…

Leaving Me……

Behind………

I should have known better though….

Because throughout this entire relationship he never once said "I LOVE YOU."

At that moment I wish LOVE came with a manual.

I felt my HEART SHATTER….

I was rendered HELPLESS….

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Hello everybody it's me wind light,

Just writing another fanfic. Only this time around I'm trying a different way. Gosh?! what is up with Naruto breaking up with a cute girl like Hinata.

That pink headed hoe must have brainwashed him, but yeah anyways I guess I will not make Sakura an evil person-yet-, because in the first place she didn't know Naruto and Hinata were dating since he made it a secret.

Sasuke will likely appear in the third chapter, I will put kind of a twist to his charisma and character, so be patient. Chapter 2 is on the way….

So if you like it review so that it can motivated me to write other chapters, Oh, if you request any scenes you want me to write review and I will try to incorporate something like that.

I will be featuring songs in this fanfic I don't know when, but if you like the lyrics, review and I can email you the song. So yeah review. Please.

Oh this will be a total SASUKExHINATA FANFIC ALL THE WAY-no interuptions, I think, well we will see.

TITLE MIGHT CHANGE IF I THINK OF SOMETHING ELSE.