Description: My original version of Joey and Pacey getting together, set after season four.
Disclaimer: I do not own the show or its characters besides Scott and Will, the storyline is all mine too.
Author's Note: If the is read and reviewed, I will update it.
Chapter #1
(Pacey's pov)
" You ever been in love Pacey?", questions Scott after grabbing himself a beer. Tossing me one he sits back down on the couch. That is a left field question if I have ever heard one. What made him ask me this? Why is it any of Scott's business whether I have been or not? Sure I might have been once. But that was a long time ago. Nothing ever came of it either. The girl never knew how I felt. Then again I never exactly voiced how I felt towards her. How could I have? Said girl was one miss Josephine Potter. Fairly certain had I ever made my feelings for her known I would have been rejected without so much as a second thought. I had it bad for her growing up. Never got my chance with her though and it kills me to this day.
" What kind of a question is that Scott?", I ask with a raised eyebrow in his direction. We were sitting here watching the game and not talking. He came out of no where with that one. Joey is not someone that I care to talk about currently. All I will ever be to her is a friend and nothing more. This fact hurts to think about. Sometimes I wonder if she would have slapped me for kissing her. There were so many times when I came close but then remembered she was way out of my league. What would a girl like Joey ever want with guy like me? It is not as though I could have ever made her happy. She was hung up on Dawson briefly, it never amounted to anything though. Last I heard Potter was seeing some guy and happy. Even if I wanted to make my feelings for her known, I know that she would never feel the same way. Why put myself out there only to be rejected? It would only cause me unwanted heart ache.
" I was just wondering is all.", remarks Scott with a sigh and shrug of his shoulders. Something tells me there is more to it then that. Could Scott harbor feelings for a girl that otherwise has no clue he exists? If this is the case then I feel for him. I have been exactly where Scott is. For years I struggled with wanting to tell Joey how I felt and not knowing if I should or not. I finally realized it was better that I said nothing. Why ruin a friendship? The last thing I would want is to put myself out there, be rejected and have there be a tension between the two of us. Joey means the world to me. If all I ever am to her is a friend? I guess that it is better then nothing.
" Is there a girl that you have it bad for Scott?", I ponder when curiosity finally gets the best of me. My question seems to catch him off guard and I watch as he nods. Wow, whoever this girl is she sure did a number on Scott. One look and it is easy to tell how badly he wants to be with her. I know all too well what that is like. It is not a fun feeling at all. Guess him and I are both the sort of guys who never wind up getting the girl in the end. He should just be honest with whoever this girl is and put himself out there. That is one thing I was never able to do with Potter and I regret it to this day. Not knowing if she could have ever felt the same is worse then getting rejected. I have learned to deal with rejection fairly well. Still, it would have crushed me if I told Jo I was in love with her and she told me the feeling was not mutual.
With a slow nod of his head, Scott sets down his empty beer," So bad Pacey. This girl is with someone who does not know how to treat her right too. They fight and he makes her cry constantly. I am always the one she seeks out when he hurts her. I have slowly been falling for her and it is killing me that she is none the wiser."
Letting out a tired breath, I let out a defeated sigh," It hurts, doesn't it man?"
" Like hell.", acknowledges Scott with a frustrated shake of his head. Poor guy, I know what he is going through. I was once in his position. Joey learned to seek me out whenever things weren't going exactly how she had hoped in a relationship. I would comfort her and find ways to cheer Jo up or make her laugh. There have been more then a few times that Joey has come to me upset and heart broke because some guy was stupid enough to be careless with her heart. All I could ever do was hold her while she cried. Sometimes she would fall asleep in my arms with tears in her eyes. For the life of me I will never understand why any guy would be stupid enough to want to hurt Joey. The girl is amazing. If I ever had a chance to try and make her happy, I would do my damnedest to never break her heart.
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(meanwhile; Joey's pov)
" No Will, it is over. I mean it. I am so done with all of your lies and empty promises.", I exclaim in anger and frustration. I'm so done with him. All Will does is hurt me, why I have put up with it for so long is beyond me. For a while I was convinced that Will was the one I wanted to be with. Now I am not so sure anymore. He seems to think spending time with his friends drinking and partying is more important then spending time with me. What is worse is that he completely forgot that today was our six month anniversary. All I wanted was to surprise him with a dinner that I had cooked. When he never showed though I had become upset. I am so done with Will. Nothing he can say is going to change my mind. I broke up with him and am not taking him back either. Why the hell should I? He obviously does not care about me the same way I do him. Why am I going to let him break my heart. I deserve a guy that is going to treat me right. Whether or not said guy exists is completely beyond me.
" Come on Joey, don't you think that you're overreacting?", points out Will before slipping his arms around my waist. Is he being serious right now? No I am not overreacting! Will did not even know that today was our sixth month anniversary. I had everything all planned out. Hell, I cooked dinner and bought wine. I spent all day getting everything ready and he never showed up. Where did Will decide to go instead? Out with his friends to get piss drunk. I am just so done with him. I am not going to let him treat me like this anymore, I deserve better. When he didn't show, I packed what little things I had at our place and have no intentions of going back there with him. Will had his chance with me and he ruined it.
" No, I don't. Do you even know what today was? We have been together for six months Will. I had this entire night planned and it was going to be special. You ruined it though by never showing up! I'm sorry but I can't be with someone who doesn't love me the way I love them. It is over.", I dead pan without so much as a second thought. Knowing that he has screwed up, Will curses to himself. His arms instinctively wrap around my waist and I no sooner give him a gentle shove away. It is not going to work this time Will. You do not get to stomp on my heart and then act as though nothing is wrong. I am not going to deal with your crap anymore. I deserve a guy that is going to treat me the way I deserve to be treated. It is more then obvious that you are not that guy nor could you ever be.
" Joey, please. I'm sorry, I really am.", pleads Will while taking my hand in his. I don't care. You can beg and plead all you want it is not going to change anything. If your friends are more important then our relationship then I don't need to be with you. One day I am going to find a guy that will go out of his way to spend time with me. This guy is apparently not you. It is a real shame too, tonight was going to be special. God, to think that I almost wanted Will to be my first time. What the hell was I thinking? Thank God I came to my senses before I wasted one of the most memorable nights of my life on the likes of him.
Dropping my hand from his light hold on it, I give a saddened shake of my head," No, I'm sorry Will. It is over."
Following after me in a panic, Will touches a gentle hand to my waist," Please don't go? I love you Joey."
" I love you too Will, but that is not going to work this time I'm sorry.", I remark with a bitter shake of my head. Without so much as another word, I turn and leave. Not exactly sure where I am going to go but I am not staying here. I'll find a place to stay for tonight and then look for a place of my own starting tomorrow. Shouldn't be too hard to find another apartment. My only regret is giving up my old one to stay with Will. If I hadn't I wouldn't be about to stay God knows where tonight. All I want to do is find a place to spend the night, wash up, put pajamas on and cry myself to sleep. Leaving Will is not what I wanted but I can not let him treat me the way he does. Not when I know that I deserve better.
...Spending the last hour or so driving around in the pouring rain, I eventually find myself outside of Scott's place. It has been so long since I last saw him. Climbing out of my car, I stand in the pouring rain staring at his apartment door. I am not ever sure if he is home. Not sure how I found myself here, lately whenever something is bothering me I seem to seek out Scott. His apartment lights are on but this does not mean he is home. Last I remember he mentioned having an old friend move in as a roommate. For all I know he might be out. Here I am though nearly soaked to the bone standing outside of his apartment. Not sure why I have not knocked on the door yet.
Really hope that Scott is around and it is not just his roommate. I really need him right about now. There was a time when I would always go to Pacey with my problems but after graduation I moved to Boston to go to Worthington and Witter and I all but lost touch. Soon after I met Scott and he has been my best friend since. It is great knowing that I can come to him with just about anything and he will listen to me. Scott is sort of great like that. Pacey was too to be honest, if ever something were bothering me Pacey knew without me ever needing to say anything. He would go out of his way to make sure that I was alright. There were actually quite a few times I fell asleep in Witter's arms with tears in my eyes.
To be honest I sort of miss spending time with Pacey, he always knew how to make me smile without ever trying. It is one of the things I loved most about him. Last time I saw him was probably around Christmas, it has definitely been a while. If Pacey were here he would know exactly what to say to get me smiling. Right now I don't feel like smiling though, I just broke things off with Will. I am so tired of his crap, he is always choosing his friends over spending time with me. Tonight he didn't even realize that it was our sixth month anniversary. I had the whole night planned out too, I had made a nice dinner and I had wanted him to be my first time. Thank God that I did not waste something so special on the likes of Will. He doesn't deserve to be my first. Scott will figure out a way to cheer me up, he always does. That's why I'm here standing outside his apartment in the pouring rain like some kind of an idiot. I don't know why I haven't knocked yet, it's not as though Scott won't be happy to see me. …
