Breakaway

I'd made the decision to move to forks with Charlie on my own. Besides who was I to hold my mother back. It wasn't that big of a move, I had no real friends here in Phoenix. The separation from my mother would be the hardest part, but with her emails and phone calls I could get by. Perhaps Forks would bring a new and exciting chapter to my life…I doubted it.

"Bye Mom," I said hugging her. "I'll miss you so much!"

"Oh, by Bella," she said, sobbing into my shoulder. "Come home whenever you want!"

I nodded thinking of going home to the empty home, knowing that Renee would not be there. She was planning on moving around a lot the next year with Phil, her new husband, minor league baseball player extraordinaire. I turned away from my mom to head through the gates, not wanting to break down in front of her.

"Grew up in a small town," I sang to myself, setting my things down in the security bin. "And when the rain would fall down, I'd just stare out my window. Dreaming of what could be and if I'd end up happy, I would pray…"

I took my bags after I walked through the detection device and made my way to my gate. The song that flooded my mind still begged to be free.

"Trying hard to reach out, but when I tried to speak out, felt like no one could hear me," I thought of how hard I had tried to fit in at Phoenix, always managing to fail miserably. My mother couldn't understand why I couldn't get many girlfriends. "Wanted to belong here, but something felt so wrong here. So I prayed, I could break away."

I reached my gate and stared out the window at the planes taking off and landing, my singing grew louder.

"I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly. I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky," I wanted more than anything for everything to turn out alright in Forks. I'd do anything to make sure I wasn't a burden to my mom. This move was so out of character for me, I usually didn't take risks. Perhaps it'd become a habit…most likely it wouldn't. "Make a wish, take a chance, make a change, and break away. Out of the darkness and into the sun, but I won't forget all the ones that I love. I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change and break away."

I thought of the terrible gloom awaiting me, and my thoughts turned to places that my mother would be visiting. Southern California, Florida, New Mexico, and Texas. All beautiful and warm places…yet I had doomed myself to the rain and mist of Washington.



"Wanna feel the warm breeze, sleep under a palm tree, feel the rush of the ocean," I really did wish I could go with my mother, but school and my mother's desire to be alone with Phil made it impossible. "Get onboard a fast train, travel on a jet plane, far away and break away…"

But I was doing this for my mom. For her I would make the best of it, I would thrive in the environment that she couldn't stand, just for her. "I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly. I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky. Make a wish, take a chance, make a change, and break away. I jumped up when I realized my plane was boarding.

"Out of the darkness and into the sun. But I won't forget all the ones that I love. I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change, and break away."

I thought of my future as the plane rose higher and higher into the heavens. My last thought before drifting off to sleep was of my mother.

I awoke all too soon to the captains message that we would me landing soon. I pulled on my parka and gazed down onto the minuscule buildings bellow.

"Buildings with a hundred floors, swinging with revolving doors, maybe I don't know where they'll take me. Gotta keep movin' on, movin' on. Fly away and Break away." I slowly made my way off the plane, and greeted Charlie. He hugged my tightly, and I returned the hug. I was genuinely pleased to see my dad.

"I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly. Through it's not easy to tell you goodbye. Take a risk, take a chance, make a change, and break away." We got into the cruiser, and drove to Forks, mainly in silence. I leaned my forehead against the window, staring at the all too green terrain around me. "Out of the darkness and into the sun, but I won't forget the place I come from."

"Bells, I got you a homecoming present," Charlie said, interrupting my train of thought. I was shocked that Charlie had gone through the trouble of getting me a gift, even more so that he hadn't just handed it to me. Charlie had always been a man of few words.

"Really?" I said, amazed. "What is it?"

"Well, it's a truck," Charlie said, embarrassed.

"Thanks dad," I said. At least now I didn't have to spend my limited funds on a car…though gas would be a different issue.

We finally pulled into my father's tiny house. I insisted on carrying my bags to my room, and he allowed me to unpack on my own. I slowly moved around my tiny room, placing things in their place. Finally I finished, and sat in a rocking chair next to my window.

I didn't know what tomorrow would bring, but I had a feeling it wouldn't be good. Tears streamed down my face as I wondered what I had just done. The windows, with rain splashing against them, matched my mood. But this was for my mom, and I wouldn't…couldn't let her down.



"I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly. Though it's not easy to tell you good bye." My thoughts of my mother made me miss her terribly. So I grabbed the phone and dialed her number, she wasn't home. I left a message on her machine, telling her I made it here safely and was already having a lot of fun. I told her that I missed her and loved her, but couldn't get out anymore before my emotion took over. I hung up the phone and drew my arms around my knees, rocking myself in the chair and staring out the window.

"Take a risk, take a chance, make a change and break away. Out of the darkness and into the sun, but I won't forget the place I come from. I gotta take a risk, take a change, make a change, and break away."

I rocked myself over and over again, trying to soothe myself. "Break away…"

Finally, my mind calmed and I felt myself drift to sleep.

"Break away…"