To My Dearest Love,

you know not of my longing nor the sorrow that I lock so deep inside my cold heart. The part that hurts the most is the sad truth. The fact that you know full well that you feel the same way about me. Wether you like it or not there is no denying your heart as there is no denying mine! You want me as much as I want you. You want to hear my voice and see my face as much as I want to share the pain you lock so deep inside! At least I am trying to make things rasier on us. At least I am honest to myself about the way I feel for you! I do not try to run away from what is killing my soul so deep inside. All you do is run and hide from the emotions that you should embrace. You hide in petty lies and decete. If hiding is all you wish to do then drag me down no longer. My heart cannot bear the sorrow of not being with you. I know that is what you want so forgive my heart for hoping and forgive my mind for thinking. It is just better to forget that terrible emotion that was once between our hearts. After all love is only in your head as well as mine. It is better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all but... perhaps... in our case, it would have been better to have never loved at all. I am sure that you agree with this. Alas, we did fall in love and now our hearts must pay for our sins. I know not how to make it all better but at least I am trying to find a way to solve this delema that has caused us so much pain.

Though Life Forbids

Love Always

Botan