I will never ever tell Eric that I like him, I mean like like him. Of course some of my logic is because I don't want to end up murdered or teased till kingdom come. Trust me I am fully aware of this fact and know with perfect clarity that he's a completely twisted cruel person. Yet I still love him and can't help from torturing myself by joining in on his harebrain schemes for world domination.
No, the real reason I can't tell him is because he is like an onion. It makes you cry but yet it can make you happy in its special way. Then it has layers of protection to keep you from the center. Finally it's so fragile.
You might think 'Hey' Eric Cartman isn't like an onion but that just means you don't know the real Eric Cartman. Heck I don't even know the true Eric Cartman but I've gotten close. Like Kenny I'm probably on the twenty second to last layer, which is saying something in it's self.
Eric is defiantly messed up in the head but the problem is can you blame him. With all his problems you could probably fill a book. He will deny it even on the brink of death but really underneath his tough exterior is a completely scared, messed up, psychotic, self- conscious child.
This child lashes out at anyone who approaches it or even thinks to cause harm. This child doesn't seem to understand how to interact with others or deal with problems and pain it experiences daily. Due to this I think that's why Eric hates all these different ethnic groups. But I also think he hates himself.
I know he hates the fact that he's part ginger but I also think he hates being gay. I think he knows in the back of his mind that he is but has locked it up deep inside and denies it by picking on other homosexuals. Maybe part of why he does it is because with all the other crap he has to deal with he can't handle anything else. Heck I think he'd hide the other things if he could.
So you see even though I like him I can never tell him because it would shatter the semi-normal crappy world he's constructed to protect himself in. It would probably destroy him even more than he already is. So unless he sets himself free from his layers of bonds, I will stay the friend who helps clean up his mess. By picking up the shattered pieces, while I help protect him from himself, cause like an onion he's been rotting himself from the inside.
This is something I found my self writeing after reading Ghosts anouther top notch cutters fanfic. that fanfic really got me thinking about how messed up and confused Eric probably is so this came about. I highly recamend you take a look at Ghosts. Thanks for reading! :)
