Kid Flash: 'A drop of poison.'

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KidFxJinx. Kid Flash knows that Jinx loves him, and he isn't exactly happy about it. He's worried that hearts will be crushed and tears will be pouring. But when he tells the sorceress how he feels about her emotions, she assures him other wise. And Wally West finally discovers how sweet a drop of poison can be.

I don't really understand how I began to like her so much. She and the HIVE five...well, actually its six...they were trying to get away with stealing everything in sight. And they figured they could since the Teen Titans were out of town. But I came to stop their party...which I did. Then I noticed her. She really is quite lovely when she's mad. Her eyes and fists glow a light pink, her lips curve into a scowl; but she sends bad luck my way. She said good luck was never an option for her. For that reason and because I really care about her, I don't give her a hard time about it. She can't help it.

She does seem to have control over her curse. Plenty of it I guess. I don't think I give her enough credit. But it still makes me kind of nervous about what I say. She does have one of the shortest tempers I've ever seen. The last time I got her mad she blew a sandwich up in my face. I couldn't get the tomato juice's smell out of my hair for two days! But I guess it didn't matter that much. She never did apologize, but that's okay. She's done a lot to make up for all the mistakes she's made before. I really admire her for what she did a while ago; she became a hero. Every hero in the world was helping to beat the Brotherhood of Evil, and I stopped by every place I figured she might go. I found her after about five minutes...only because I have super speed. Anyway, she agreed to give up crime, and come with me. She was a big help. I gave her a rose to thank her.

The first time I left her a rose was just because I thought it would be funny. Now whenever I leave her one, its something totally different. Since she gave up the HIVE five and had no where else to go, I told her she could come with me wherever I go. She helps me fight criminals now. She seems to enjoy it. I think she likes it better than being the one going into jail. I don't think she ever really wanted to be a criminal. Maybe she thought she had no other purpose and nowhere else to go, so she went with the HIVE. But she seems really happy now. We don't need any more criminals anyway. Besides, Jinx makes a great addition to the hero's side.

But as much as I like having her around, I'm starting to wish she wasn't. Lately I notice that she seems to look at me more than just a fellow hero or even a friend. I was just fine with being her friend. I'm not completely fine with how she acts around me now. I think at some point...I'm not really sure when...but she decided to stop thinking of me like a pest or a pain. She started to talk to me with less of an attitude and even a hint of respect. She stopped grimacing at me every time something stupid came out of my mouth. She stopped letting me talk to other girls without her standing next to me. She's not afraid to show jealousy or become extremely angry at whoever might knock me onto the ground when we're in battle. She's protective of me, and I hate it. I think she fell in love with me...and I wish she hadn't.

Jinx could have picked anyone else in the world. Anyone but me. Who'd want someone as crazy and immature as me? Jinx does apparently. I don't really understand what she see's in me. I'm not anything special. I'm just Wally West. Better known as Kid Flash, but still just Wally. I wish I could just give her back her heart and never take it again, but I don't think she'll take it back anytime soon. I feel so guilty being the one that she wants. She deserves someone better than me. Like I said, I'm just Wally. Nothing more. It's not that I don't like Jinx. Truthfully, I've never felt so much for any other person I've ever met. But I don't think I can handle having her wrapped around my finger like she is. I can't handle having her love in my possession. I can't handle being in love. I gave her roses to be funny or nice or whatever I was trying to do. I think the roses gave her the wrong idea about me. I do admit I have a small crush on her, but now, I feel like I'm being crushed under her affections.

I always see her reaching out to me, but I shift away. I won't let her reach me. As much as I want her, I can't let her want me anymore. I don't know why I'm trying to prevent this. I don't think its the bad luck. I don't think its her temper. I don't think its her past. I think its me. I'm worried that if allow myself to have her heart, that I'll make a mistake and it will crumble into dust. You hear that you should always take a chance. I'm not listening. Not when it comes to hurting her. I never want to do that. Under all of her hard layers, she's delicate and soft. I don't want to reach that layer and break it.

I run my hand through my red hair with a sigh. I lean back onto the wall and stare at the floor. I wonder why I can't just except the fact that she cares and let it leave me alone. But the thought continues to come back and haunt me. I wish it would stop. Now I hear her heels clapping against the hard cement, and I can smell her perfume drifting toward me. I wish it didn't smell so sweet. All I can do is breath it in.

"Um...Flash?" her voice calls me. Her footsteps have stopped as she sits down next to me. I turn to face her slowly.

"Yeah?" I say.

"Um...what are you doing?" she questions.

"Nothing I guess." I reply.

"Oh." Jinx breaths softly. "Then would you like to hang out or something?"

My heart skips and my throat tightens. "Uh...maybe some other time."

"Oh. Okay." she sighs with disappointment drowning her voice. "Sorry."

She places a hand on my shoulder; causing a shiver to travel down my spine. I stare at her strangely and she snatches it off and hides it behind her back. It almost stings to have her touch leave me. "So, you're not mad...right?" I shake my head. She forces a small smile. "Good. I don't mean to make you mad anyway...most of the time."

I don't mean to hurt her. But I'm getting the impression that I already have. I wish she would stop caring about me so much. She's playing too close to fire. And if she doesn't stop, she's going to get burned. I can't keep letting myself fall for her. All it does is hurt us even more. I feel like she's playing games with my emotions. I'm not letting her win, but I keep feeling like she is winning. It's almost like she's a puppet, waiting for me to play with her strings. I'm not going to. She is a person, not a toy. It's like she's begging me for attention that I'm never going to give. I don't exactly know why I'm resisting her. But all I want to do is take this problem off of my chest and give her back her love that doesn't deserve to be wasted on me. It will kill me inside knowing that she won't love me, but I'm willing to take that chance. I admit that I do love Jinx dearly, but as long as she loves me, its just flirting with disaster. I'm afraid that if I go down, she'll go down with me. And I'm not really romantic anyway. But I can't just say 'Jinx, I can't love you because I'm not a romantic person and I don't want to break your heart.' Actually, maybe that would work, just in a nicer way. I kind of feel like Jinx is a sweet poison that I can't stop drinking. I keep trying to rid of her affections toward me, but she resists, and for some reason I keep drinking in more. I hate myself for it, but it seems the more she resists, the fonder and more attached I become. I still don't understand why she loves me. And honestly, I'm not really sure why I love her either. Maybe its her cat-like eyes. They're surprisingly beautiful and captivating. Or maybe its the smug grins she gets on her face. I find them kind of amusing actually. Maybe its the way she talks. Her voice never cracks and is smooth and assuring. But whatever it is, it has me.

"Wally? Wally!"

I break out of my thoughts and listen to her every word. "Yeah, Jinx?"

She rolls her eyes with annoyance. "Did you hear a word I said?"

"Um...yes?" I lie.

"Alright. What did I say?"

"Uh...maybe you could repeat it and then I would remember." I suggest.

"You are so immature." she growls. "What I said was, why do you keep trying to stay away from me as much as possible?"

"Do not." I grunt.

"Yes you do. Quit playing innocent, will you!" she snaps. "Why are you trying to avoid me? Did I do something wrong?"

'You're in love with me...that's why.' I think coldly. Then I speak out-loud. "No, you didn't do anything wrong."

"Then why won't look at or annoy me anymore?"

My throat tightens and no words will spill out of my mouth. I mean what am I supposed to say? I can't just tell her that I don't want her to love me anymore. Deep down all I want is her love, but then I know that I'd be responsible for her feelings. I don't think I can handle that responsibility. If I drop them they'll shatter and I won't be able to put them back together. I can't just keep this girl's heart with a clear conscience. But the more I try to let go of her, the deeper I fall in love with her. Its like I'm under some kind of spell that I can't break. I just don't understand what's happening to me. But whatever it is, I can't get rid of it.

"Because, I...I'm afraid that... I'll hurt you." I admit slowly.

"Just by looking at me?" she scoffs. "Even you aren't that ugly."

"Wait, you don't like me like me?"

"Well, actually I do. But you don't like me that way, so I'm kind of giving up here."

I got what I wanted. Her feelings are leaving me and I don't have to worry about breaking her heart anymore. So why do I feel so horrible? "Jinx," I begin.

"Yeah?"

"I actually do."

"You...you do?"

"But I never wanted to get involved and then hurt you, so I kind of tried to get rid of my crush." I mumble. "I just don't want to break your heart."

"Don't worry about that. My heart has been broken before. It doesn't really bother me anymore. I can live with it." she smiles warmly. "But I don't really like living with all of my feelings bottled up inside. And since you feel the same, maybe we can give it a chance?" she offers.

Suddenly, everything I've felt is gone. She's offering me to be with her. She's saying that her heart isn't going to be shattered. And we just told each other how we feel, so now I'm going to take the advice I've been told, and take a chance.

I didn't think I could change my set mind so quickly, but I guess I can. I never really thought I'd be so selfish as to take her heart like this, but I guess I am. And surely I'm not going to refuse the kiss she's planting on my lips. I'm probably taking a risk by pulling her a little bit closer to me. But I don't really understand why.

I don't understand why I'm so happy having her in my arms and why I'm giving into her. I don't get why I was so lucky to catch her eye either. Maybe it was because I'm the only person who understands her, well...besides herself anyway. I know I've lost my mind, but I don't really care anymore. I'll find it again at some point. Just not now. There's something about her kiss that makes me wonder. I don't really think it's sweet poison. I don't even think it's even poison. I just think it's sweet.

But its only a drop of poison.

And I'm not afraid of little bad luck.

Author's note: Well, okay. This is my first Kid FlashxJinx story. And yeah I did it from Kid Flash's POV...even though I'm a girl. Anyway I know that Kid Flash is too serious and they are both out of character, but everyone has a serious side...right? Um..hope you like this chapter and if so please review. Thanks! Oh, and many more chapters to come! Stay tuned!

Until yet another very short next chapter,

PWG