A/N: This is the first fic I've ever bothered to upload. Constructive criticism is welcomed. I am looking for a beta reader so if your interested PM me. I am also open to ideas. I plan on making this a chapter fic.
Loki absolutely loathed going to parties. He hated everything from the loud music to his idiotic intoxicated peers. Point being made as one of the meathead jocks jumped off the upstairs balcony and onto a pile of all the cushions and pillows from the living room furniture.
So why was he here you ask? Well Thor of course. Said blonde was currently amongst the group of jocks drunkenly cheering on the the one who jumped. Loki would leave but he was sure that if he did Thor wouldn't be able to find his way home. So, albeit reluctantly, he stayed and waited in one of the quieter spots till he could convince Thor it was time to go home.
It was nearing 2a.m and Thor showed no signs of slowing down, so he went to find something to drink that wasn't spiked or just plain water. He was handed some punch and was promised it wasn't spiked. Upon drinking it he didn't taste any alcohol and thus determined it was okay.
About 15 minutes later he was proven wrong. So very very wrong. He felt like he was on fire, his vision was blurred and he had a slight tremble throughout his body that made it feel like he was vibrating. On the other hand he felt happier than he had since he was just a child. He felt at peace. He was no longer tired and felt like he couldn't even sleep if he tried.
There may not have been alcohol in that punch but there sure as hell was something in there. He decided to go get Thor and go home while he was still lucid enough to do so.
He found Thor outside with a beer in hand standing alone, thank heavens. Once Thor saw him he rushed over immediately, realizing something was wrong, and asked what happened. Loki tried to tell him but judging by the way Thor was looking at him he was sure he wasn't making any sense.
"Okay lets just get you home." luckily for him Thor chose this moment to not be an imbecile.
They started to walk home, they only live a few blocks away, but it soon became apparent that Loki couldn't walk straight so Thor ended up carrying him most of the way. Even bridal style when Loki started getting dizzy from the fireman position.
They had made it home without any incidents and were climbing the stairs to their rooms when Loki tripped and fell. He was too busy laughing to help himself so Thor had to drag him up off the ground.
"You're lucky Mother and Father aren't here or else we'd be grounded for eternity."
Loki stopped laughing long enough to reply but before he could something came over him. He doesn't know what, just assumes its whatever was in the punch, and acts on impulse before his brain can catch up and stop him. Even if there was a moment where he was lucid the minute he looks into Thor's blue eyes its gone and in that moment nothing else matters so he does it. He leans forward and kisses him and it is oh so very delicious. Its like drinking water after a 5 mile run through the woods. He's even sure that Thor is kissing him back.
But then his brain catches up to his actions and he pulls away quickly. Before anyone can ask any questions he feels nauseous and runs to the bathroom, stumbling over nothing, barely able to make it before he pukes.
He spends the rest of the night in there, part of it under the cool spray of the shower to cool off, with Thor sitting outside to make sure he's okay.
He doesn't leave until well after day break when he hears Thor's snores ensuring he doesn't have to face him.
Not too long after he hears their parents come home and feels a little bad for leaving him out there, especially when mother finds him and starts to question him but Thor played it off saying that they went out with a couple of friends, Loki got sick, and he fell asleep making sure he was okay. He'd be lying if he said he wasn't a little proud of the blonde considering how bad of a liar he was.
Throughout the day Mother would come in and check up on him. He felt better after a few hours of sleep but he kept pretending to be sick so he wouldn't have to see Thor.
It wasn't until a week later that Thor was able to get Loki alone. He had just gotten out of the shower and their parents had already left for work.
"We need to talk." Thor demanded.
"No we really don't." Loki tried walking around him but the blonde just blocked him.
"Loki please."
"Look you big oaf I just got out of the shower and I am still in my robe, this can wait until after I'm dressed."
"No it can't you're just using that as a means of escape then you're going to go right back to ignoring me."
"I promise I won't." the younger male tries to leave again, but the older one stops him, again.
"Loki."
"Fine." he huffs out annoyed "Talk."
"Lets start with what happened to you at the party."
"I drank some punch that I was assured had no alcohol in it but they didn't tell me about the drugs. It was my fault. Is that all?"
"No. Who gave you the punch?"
"I don't know and it doesn't matter, like I said its my fault anyways. Can I go now?"
"It is not your fault. Its whoever gave you the punch's fault. You obviously didn't want to get drunk so why would you want to get high? They should have known that. And you know we have more to talk about."
"They were probably too drunk or high themselves to function properly: and I definitely don't want to talk about that."
Thor let out a frustrated sigh and decided to drop the first topic. "Okay. Fine. But we need to talk about the kiss, and how you haven't even looked me in the eyes since then. Not even during this entire conversation." Loki didn't say anything he simply clenched his jaw and bored into the ground. "Loki please just help me understand" Thor's voice sounded desperate and defeated so Loki used that to his advantage.
"It was just the drugs. I'm fairly certain it was ecstasy." he practically whispered finally making it past Thor making it to his room but Thor put his hand on the door stopping him from closing it.
"Bullshit."
And for the first time in almost a week Loki looked him in the eyes. "Excuse me?" he asked.
Thor looked like he was going to say something but instead he just reached forward and grabbed Loki, one hand on the back of his neck, the other on his waist, and kissed him.
Loki wanted to pull away. He wanted to protest they were brothers. He wanted to slap him. He wanted more. For it to never stop. To not be brothers. For this to not be so very very wrong.
When they finally pulled apart they both just stood there in close proximity simply looking at each other trying read each others emotions. Loki was the first to speak. "Why?"
Thor sighed and went to sit down on the bed Loki following him.
"It started when I was dating Sif. She would always get mad when I would invite you to places with us and whatnot then one day, the day we broke up, we got in a huge fight about it and she said it was like I was in love with you. I knew she was just saying it because she was angry but it got me thinking. The more I thought about it the more I... I just... I don't know. It just made it true I guess? No. It didn't make it true. It made me realize it was true."
Loki wanted to say something meaningful back but for once he was at a loss for words. So instead he asked "How did you know I felt the same?"
"Honestly? I didn't. I just took a chance." Loki rolled his eyes and fell back onto the bed and Thor chuckled a little before he realizing something. "Wait, how long have you felt this way?"
Loki glanced at Thor from his position on the bed before going back to staring at a spot on the ceiling. "I don't know. It wasn't really prominent until that night, and I wasn't sure until just a few minutes ago."
Thor huffed comically and laid down next to Loki. "Well now what are we going to do."
"Try not to commit incest?"
"How 'bout we just play it day by day." Thor offered skeptically.
Loki simply smirked a forced a little air out through his nose as a reply. This was going to be difficult.
A/N: Again please tell me what you think, and i am desperate for a beta reader so please PM me even if its a recommendation to someone else. Thank you for reading. i will try to upload regularly but without encouragement, even if from just one person, i might lose motivation. Now take your imaginary internet desserts do as i say. Please. :}
