Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. I do not own "Papa if you can hear me".
Author's Note: Okay so be glad I didn't put this emo moment in my In A Father's Eyes story. But yeah, it was floating in my head and needed to be out. I made myself cry…Hope you fair a bit better than I did.
Borken
Jasper clenched the flannel fabric of Carlisle's favorite sweater to his chest as actual tears managed to race down the vampire's cheeks. His teeth bared as he screamed out. A soft song could be heard playing in the background from the club he was behind.
Jasper held the bloody shredded fabric as close to him as he possibly could and cried his heart out where he sat on the cold moist ground as the song played.
Chill
for a second, just hear my pain
If you've lost any
loved ones you'll feel what I'm saying
I Ope it's
peaceful, down there were they lay 'em When
someone you loved, who put you up from the start
Built
you up and made you into who you are
Who always
believed, saying that you'll be a star
Then all of
a sudden they just passed
Jasper couldn't stop the pain
that wrenched through him as he listened to the song. The blood of
his father washing away in the rain yet still stained his own
clothes. If only he had gotten there sooner.
So
much to say, I wish I coulda said bye
The only time
I'll talk to him is when I look into the sky
He already missed him...
All I wanna say is: Papa
if you can hear me... !
I regret every bad thing
that I saaaid
Please forgive me if you hear me...
Never knew how much I loved ya till you was dead...
! Papa if you can hear me...
If
only youuu, knew what you went and done(you went and left me)
Please
forgive me if you hear me...
See all I know is, I'm
proud to be your Son
Papa if you can hear me...
It's like you sacrificed your life
For
the love of success and a life full of stress
I'm
vexed cuz First they love you, second they hate
you
They talked about you, when they tried to play
you
Behind your back they were tryin to betray you
I never had a chance to repay you
For
the things you done for me
Put me on the right
path, kept me from steering left
Yeah we had a
right laugh
Jasper bashed his hands into the pavement,
tears still falling, as the chorus played out again. He couldn't take
the pain. There had been so much left unsaid. He had just confessed
of his love. "Why..." He ground out between his sobs. "You
promised we would be together...." He fisted his hands into the
ground, fingers cracking the pavement. He turned his head up to the
weeping sky and belted. "YOU SAID WE WOULD BE TOGETHER FOREVER!"
Jasper, still clutching the fabric, reached over and grabbed at a
rusted jagged pipe. "I can't...I can't be without you..."
He whispered to the pipe and to the sweater and to the blood
splattered ground. With a whispered, 'I love you...' He plunged the
pipe deep with in his chest, wrenching in pain. Blood rolled down
from the inside of the pipe and dripped from its open end. Drop by
drop, Jasper's blood swirled with Carlisle's in the puddle formed by
the rain. Soon, they would be together again. Soon.
END
