Chapter One-
Flashback: How it all started…
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters, J.K Rowling does.
Pairing: R. Lupin and N. Tonks
Summary: Tonks needs to learn that love doesn't take seconds to bloom. Lupin on the other hand needs to learn to express his feelings and to not be afraid to love. Will both of them help each other learn to love or will their friendship shatter to pieces?
On a rainy morning, a pretty pink-colored-hair woman sat at the windowsill of her house thinking over last night events. "It's not my fault. No it isn't. I have every right to be mad at him. Every right to put him through hell like he did to me… I hate him. I hate everything about him..." thought a tear smeared face Tonks to herself. Remus Lupin. The man she thought she loved now hates him with true passion. Tonks wondered, what if she never expressed her true feelings to Lupin, or at least not tell him…what if? Sighing, Tonks knew she couldn't turn time back, well she could, but there would be no use because she would always have that feeling with her.
Flash back two weeks ago
"Man I love the great outdoors! Just seeing such nice scenery with the sun setting makes me so happy!" said Lupin cheerfully.
"Really? It's just a sun… there's nothing that special about it, sure it makes our day bright and everything happy…but…" trailed off Tonks.
"But…? What do you mean? I'd rather have the sun then the moon for all I care! At least the sun doesn't turn me into a werewolf every month!" Lupin said starting to get a little annoyed. Wow this is stupid…
"I'm sorry…it's just that, I don't know I never feel happy anymore, it's like something is missing," said Tonks quietly YOU YOU'RE THE THAT'S ONE MISSING!... Gosh if only I could tell you…then my life would be perfect!
"What do you mean missing? You have everything! A house, money, friends- What more do you need?" asked Lupin now looking a little curious.
"Never mind…there's something missing in my life and I'd rather not talk about it!" said Tonks who was now walking away.
Geez, I swear this girl can be so dramatic at times "Wait! I'm sorry if I angered you… tell me what's wrong, what's missing in your life? If you want ill even try to get it or find it or whatever for you so that you'd be happy! said Lupin.
"No you can't get it, you can't find it! And it's not worth telling you anyway!" cried Tonks now trying to get away from Lupin.
"Oh my gosh! This was supposed to be a good day for me, why are you being like this! You know it's not everyday I am in a good mood! Just tell me what's wrong. And what do you mean I can't find and it's not worth telling me? I'm your damn friend! Is trust something that I lack of? If not then you can tell me!" said Lupin starting to really get ticked off.
"No… you don't lack trust…"
"Then why can't you tell me?" said Lupin lowering his voice this time.
"You want to know? YOU really want to know? You really want to know what's missing in my life?" asked Tonks having a fed-up look on her face.
"YES! Just tell me! What do you want me to kneel down and say 'Please oh gracious Tonks the best witch ever! Please tell me your secret and what you really want!' " said Lupin trying to lighten up the mood.
"FINE! YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW?"
"Calm down! Don't shout!"
Ignoring him she went on and shouted, "THE ONE THING THAT'S MISSING IN MY LIFE IS YOU! HAPPY? YOU!"
"W-What….?"
"You heard me! Every time I'm with you, I always want to cherish that moment. Every time you're not with me, I can't stop thinking about you! I don't know why but that's just how it is!" shouted Tonks.
Lupin just stood there bewildered, as if he just saw a full moon.
"Well…say something? I told you everything, don't you think it's right that you say something in return?" said Tonks.
"No…"
"No? What do you mean "no"? What, now your going to start copying me when I didn't want to tell you what I was feeling?" said Tonks sounding aggravated.
"No…Tonks, it's just not right…I am to old for you, poor, and most of all dangerous! It wouldn't be right if we were together. Besides I can't say I feel the same towards you" said Lupin WHAT ARE YOU DOING YOU STUPID WIZARD! TELL HER! TELL HER EVERYTHING!
"…I knew it wasn't worth it… don't ever talk to me again, consider this the end of our friendship!" cried Tonks running away in tears. God I'm so stupid…Why! Why did I give in and tell him? Sure he's handsome and all, his voice so soothing…DAMNIT!
"I'm sorry…" whispered Lupin to himself.
Well that's it for Chapter one, read and review please! (By the way this is my first story)
