July 28
That little ringing buzzing good-for-nothin' phone in your hands
The directions to the party
That's just started with that cover band
That old school radio station
Let's just drive until it's faded
Girl, let's lose it, tonight
Tonight, was the night of one of the biggest parties I was waiting for. I had gotten the early shift at work and had gotten all my homework done for school. I had the perfect outfit that was picked out by my best friend Becca. I raced home and showered quickly and changed and start on my makeup and hair. My hair being naturally curly made it easy seeing as I didn't have the time or energy to curly it myself. I finish my makeup and throw my cowboy boots on as my phone vibrates. I take it off the counter and notice that it's from Becca telling me she's already at the Blue Bank Resort. I grab my hat and keys and run out the door, locking it and I hope into my truck. I put the keys in as the truck roars to life.
'Cause when you do that thing right there
Flipping your hair, baby, I swear
I make my way out of the neighborhood and down the road away from town. I happen to always lose my thoughts as I drive (because who doesn't?). I slow down and pull into the parking lot of Blue Bank Resort and spot Becca's jeep. I pull in next to it and turn it off opening my door and grabbing my hat and hopping out. I close and lock the door putting my hat on and she hops out of her jeep with two other girls. We all say hey to each other and start moving to the door as the music blares from the inside.
`I don't think you know what you're doing to me
You got my heart skip-skipping a beat
You're not close enough so that space between
You and me, let's lose it
The way you're dancing, swaying to the music
Girl, that body and how you move it
Every time you cross my mind
Girl, I lose it
Yeah, I lose it
Yeah, I lose it
After finding a clear table, we grab some food and a few drinks and sit down while there are others around us getting up and dancing and doing shots. This was my life. I'm a 23-year-old college student attending the University of Tennessee at Martin who worked and had fun on the side. Occasionally going home to Jackson, Tennessee. I felt someone nudge my arm and I turn to Becca who was at my right.
"Londyn, I was asking if you were ready for this?" she says giggling.
I couldn't help but roll my eyes at her and she hits my arm and we both start laughing. We finished out food and decided that there's no time like the present to get more drinks and go dance.
Let's start with them Luke Caseys
Baby, kick 'em to the floorboard
And bobby pins holding your hair up
Girl, you don't need 'em no more
That dress hanging off your shoulder
As you move a little closer
Yeah, let's lose it tonight, yeah, girl
As time moved on and more and more people entered the dance floor it became crowded. You and your friends backed out and got some more drinks. I take a sip as Kane Brown comes blaring through the speakers and my eyes light up. I grabbed Becca's hand and raced back to the dance floor. Being all of 5'2 I was able to weave us closer to the center and we start dancing together. Bodies are writhing against one another as the bass thumps wildly. Becca grabs my wrist and pulls me closer to her catching my attention.
I don't think you know what you're doing to me
You got my heart skip-skipping a beat
You're not close enough so that space between
You and me, let's lose it
The way you're dancing, swaying to the music
Girl, that body and how you move it
Every time you cross my mind
Girl, I lose it
Yeah, I lose it
Yeah, I lose it
She points and I turn noticing two guys making their way through the crowd. They are gorgeous! I feel my heart flutter slightly as they come up to me and Becca. We exchange quick glances and smile at them both warmly. I look at the one in front of me. He's got on a black cowboy hat and bright green eyes. He's taller than me which is great because guys taller than me is a weakness always. He was wearing dark blue denims and a blue plaid shirt. He smiles at me and takes my hand spinning me around and leans me back against him as we start to dance in time with the song. The crowd starts to move away from us slightly as he takes my hand again and spinning me back to him pulling me against his chest. We continue to dance in circles.
'Cause when you do that thing right there
Flipping your hair, baby, I swear
The song ends and my eyes met his as we both separate panting and look around as people start to clap. I wave and go back through the crowd to the table. I laugh and plop down in the chair. Becca and the other two come back to the table setting down drinks and they smile at me.
"That was amazing Londyn! I didn't know you knew how to dance like that at all," she pauses looking over my shoulder and back at me with her eyebrow raised. "Here comes company."
I cock my head to the side and turn as the guy from earlier comes walking up to our table.
"Hey ladies," He turns and looks at me. "may we talk for a moment."
I don't think you know what you're doing to me
You got my heart skip-skipping a beat
You're not close enough so that space between
You and me, let's lose it
The way you're dancing, swaying to the music
Girl, that body and how you move it
Every time you cross my mind
Girl, I lose it
Yeah, I lose it
Yeah, I lose it
I nod and stand up and walk with him over to the bar my head already buzzing from the drinks and dancing and lack of food. He turns and smiles at me warmly and I can't help but smile back. "I'm Derek."
"I'm Londyn. Pleased to meet you." I say laughing softly.
"Beautiful name. You're an incredible dancer."
I smile and nod. "I've been dancing for a while. Thank you." He leans in a little closer and I smell his cologne and notice it smells like a deep wooded forest.
"I was thinking maybe we could leave and either go back to my place or yours."
I looked at him blankly and smile politely and lean back a little bit. "I'm sorry. I can't. I have school and work in the morning. It was fun to dance with you though." I say smiling as I turn away and take a step. He grabs my arm and spins me back around.
"Can I get your number and we could do this some other time?" I noticed his arm starting to close tightly around mine.
I wince slightly and look up and notice there was a flash of something that I didn't recognize, "I'm sorry but no thanks." At the point of rejection, he grips my arm harder. I try and pull away, but he won't let go. "Let go of me!" I try to pull away again and the bar tender comes up in front of us.
"Is there a problem here?" He asks eyeing both of us and his eyes going to my wrist where his hand is. He reluctantly lets go. And I quickly turn away and go back to the table. Becca sees me and stands up as concern flashes over her face. I look at my phone and it blinks 11:30pm.
"Londyn are you ok?"
I nod slightly and look around slightly and can't find that guy. "I'm going to head home I think."
They all nod and I bide my farewell and run out the doors and to my truck unlocking the door and slamming it closed locking it quickly and putting the key into the ignition and turning it on. I sit there for a minute and breathe deeply and then back out of my spot and head off back home. I get to the driveway and turn off the truck and hop out closing and locking my truck. I go to the back door and fumble with my keys opening the door closing it and locking it behind me. I walk into the kitchen setting down my keys and hat and go to the bathroom to get ready for bed. I walk into my room and turn on the tv. I change into sweats and t shirt and lay down plugging in my phone and setting my alarm. I turn on Yu Yu Hakusho which is one of my favorite animes ever. I watch as the Dark tournament starts smiling at Yusuke sleeping and Kurama and Hiei start. I fall asleep soon after.
Yeah, I lose it
Yeah, I lose it
I jolt awake and look around wildly. It's quiet and I breathe out deeply thinking to myself about the nightmare I just had. I check my phone and it blinks 2:32 am. I lay back to calm my breathing and my wildly bleeding heart. The dream was just of me dying and that stupid falling feeling you get sometimes. I hear a creak which causes me to freeze. I slowly look over to the left where my door is and look up to see a black figure standing next to my bed. I look up to the figures face shrouded in black. I quickly start to scramble as the figure reaches out quickly grabbing my throat and slamming me back on the bed.
"You will not say a fucking word. Got it?!" He says and I instantly recognize the voice.
"Derek...?" I whisper softly not daring to move. I glance down slightly and see the glint of something metal. Oh god... he's going to kill me because I turned him down... no please.
He rips off his hood and face mask smirking as rage flashes in his eyes. "You shouldn't have turned me down Londyn. You should have come back with me. Then I wouldn't have to kill you..." He picks up the gun and sets it against my temple. I look deep into his eyes.
I can't believe this is happening to me. I've always been good and only wanted to go out and dance...
He cocks the gun... Tears start to fall as I start to choke, my vision starting to blur...
God... please no... My mother and father... my sisters and brothers... God help me...
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..."
And just like that... My life was gone, and I float deep into the black abyss. Girl, I lose it Yeah, I lose it I guess I was the one that lost this time...
