Told by King Sombra
Being a ABDL, I have often had conflicting emotions over my desire to be a baby & act & dress like one.
Having been married (once) & having gone thru several relationships since getting divorced; I have had varying results with the amount of acceptance of my ABDL desires, by the women Whom i have had relationships with.
Finally, I got up the courage to go to a professional therapist, and discuss my ABDL desires.
Fortunately, I was able to find one who is very open-minded & liberal; & nonjudgmental.
I felt that I could never discuss this with a male, thus I chose a female therapist.
I also look at her as being a "mommy."
After going over my personal history; I explained my ABDL desires, and asked if "regression therapy" could help me to come to terms with my desires.
My therapist was eager to learn about my emotions & and reasoning for being a ABDL; thus had me going thru the "regression therapy" for several sessions.
This started with our entering detailed discussions about my ABDL feelings; followed by her telling me to act as if I am going back into my "babyhood", & acting like a baby.
Each session starts with my describing some of my actual childhood experiences.
I was a chronic bedwetter into my teens; & my mother gave me no choice but to wear a cloth diaper & plastic pants every night.
This was in the 1950's & 19060's; before disposables became available.
She punished me, to shame me into stopping my bedwetting (to no avail), by changing me (even when I was a teen), & making me go out to the backyard clothesline (during warm sunny weather) & hang up my diapers and plastic pants (which had been washed in the clothes washing machine).
She made me go outside while wearing nothing but my diaper & plastic pants.
My mother also had me wear nothing but my diaper & plastic pants, while around the house, before & after school; as well as all thru the morning on weekends, & every evening for 2 hours before bedtime.
I have 2 sisters (who often teased me about my being in diapers).
My dad went along with my mother's insistence that I wear diapers around the house; since I was still a bedwetter.
Each of my therapy sessions is started by a discussion of my childhood & teen diaper wearing experiences; followed by my removing my pants, & wearing only a t-shirt, and socks, & a cloth diaper & plastic pants; while sitting on the floor of her office.
She has me bring a pacifier & baby toys (I.e. rattle, yellow duck, play blocks); and play with them, while I suck on my pacifier, as she directs me to crawl around, or to play with a specific toy.
During my most recent session, she changed my diaper & rubbed baby powder on me (she had told me during the previous session to drink a lot of fluid before coming in, & to bring a bottle of baby milk, for the session).
She surprised me by telling me that she wants me to come to her home & have further "unofficial " sessions, on a twice per week basis.
If I do not, she said she could have me "commited" to a mental institution; thus I must comply, by coming to her private home regression therapy sessions.
