My heart soars

Yet it won't grasp

That longing feeling

That it still feels

I want to cry out

Yet no words fall

I can't see it anymore

That light that was once there

I want to hear it again

I want to see it again

But I still feel it now

Please don't disappear...

When I cry out your name

Will you listen?

And please come back

Because I

Would still grasp your hand

Even with

The blood that stains it

Will your heart be nurtured?

Or will it run wild?

Please come back

'Because I'm left here crying

Stranded on my island

Of sorrows

Please don't kill him



And please listen

No matter how much I cry

You won't come back

But I feel you will

Even though it's impossible

I'll believe those words you spoke to me

And walk ahead without you

Slowly healing

Please don't

Go far away

To that other world

Where destruction reeks

My lonely feathers

Return once more

Full of those forgotten chains

That is slowly turning to dust

I want to wake up

Yet I can't wake up

Please wake me up

To this unwanted dream

The dream of wings...

When looking in a mirror

It's like looking at yourself

But when we face each other

We strain our eyes

And look closer



I want to know

What's it like to be loved?

I want to know

What's it like to be alive?

When I dream

The pain slowly releases

When I run

I feel the wind

As it releases me from my sorrow

I don't remember it

I just think

And feel the brush of your hand

Against my hand

Innocence is forgotten

Childhood is the memento

To this endless run

But I feel broken inside

Like the shards of a mirror

That shattered my reflection

My poor soul

Broken for more than 7 years

Because you're not here anymore

When I feel your hand

I feel warm

Not normal

But knowing you were there for me



But now you're not

You lay now in my memories

When you showed me how to run

And I showed you how to smile

Smile once more

Because I want to smile with you forever

'Till twilight

And until the sun rises

And falls into the abyss

I can't hear your soft voice

Say my name anymore

I can't see you smile anymore

I now lay broken

With only a few pieces left

Was this HISTUZEN?

And why did it fall upon me?

I want to hear it once more

I want to see it again

In this forgotten memory

That won't fade away

I want to feel it again

I now know I won't

So I'll be strong

And fight this

Because I now know

It won't end



I want to laugh

Though I know I can't

I want to smile

A real smile

That will last forever

I want to hope

But I know I can't

So give me something to hope on

And something to dream on

And maybe

I'll find my own dream...

Hear my voice crying

I want to know

Your there

Somewhere in my heart

I want to smile

But I know I can't

Will you smile one more time?

Because I know I can't

So smile

And say somewhere

Somewhere deep inside

Your heart still cares

Because I won't be able

To hear your kind voice

Echoing my name softly



So listen to the windswept cries

That flow your way

My sorrow won't linger

My pain won't suffer

I will be whole

But not completely

I wonder

What did I do

To deserve this torturous grasp

That's kills me slowly

To the very edge

My forgotten memories

Mend my soul

Until they break free from my grasp

And turn my soul

From the darkness

My endless pain

Save me from tomorrow

This dream that pulls

At my remaining hope

Harmony save my soul

For it breaks

Like the great strong feathers

That scattered the worlds

Oh my beloved

Break your chains



Free of the bind that controls you

And maybe

Live on

The mirrored life

Of the one we were meant

To live for

Bafflement save you

Because I'm already broken

My heart is forever left

In the dust my love

Left behind

The pain will go away

If I will it away

"Even if we are creations,

We are the same

If those two keep on living

It won't end

I...love...y..."

My last words

Please save me