1. You're Not Alone
Carlos has never been happier, he loved Robert and he was happy that he was his boyfriend. As Carlos walked to the Palm woods park, to meet Robert he saw James.
"Hey, Carlitos." James called.
"Hey, Jamez." Carlos responded
"So do you want to do something? I'm bored."
"Right now?"
"Well duh…"
"I can't I have to meet up with Robert. Sorry."
James smile faded quickly when he heard Roberts name. He really didn't like him and didn't trust him. But what he hated the most, that Robert had Carlos. James always had a crush on Carlos, but never was brave enough to tell him. James hasn't even told anybody that he was gay. James fell in love with Carlos even more when Carlos told James that he was gay. But Carlos didn't want anybody to know. Even now that Carlos was with Robert he hadn't told anyone, Carlos wasn't ready to come out. So he told James to keep it a secret. Robert knew that Carlos wasn't ready to come out, but he wanted to be out publicly out with Carlos.
"It's okay." James replied.
"Maybe later, okay?" Said Carlos.
"Okay. Bye."
"Bye, Jamez." Said Carlos and kept walking towards the park. When he saw Robert sitting in the same bench where he first met Robert he smiled. Robert saw Carlos and smiled back.
"Hey." Carlos said.
"Hey." Robert responded.
Robert went up to Carlos and hugged him, when Robert tried Carlos, Carlos pulled away.
"What?" asked Robert.
"Not in public please." Carlos whispered.
"Carlos, when are we going to be able to be out in public?"
"I don't know when I'm ready."
"You've been saying that for a while now. We have been going out for three months. You told James, why can't we tell everyone else?"
"I just don't think I can deal with it yet. I don't want to be laughed at."
"So you think being with me is embarrassing?"
"NO! I didn't mean it like that."
"I know you didn't. But I'm getting tired of being a secret."
"I need time, Robert."
"I have given you enough time, and I don't think I can handle one more day of us being a secret."
"What does that mean then?" Carlos asked.
"It means we need to tell people. Today!"
"I can't Robert." Carlos felt the tears building up in his eyes.
"Then I think I can't be with you no more. I want someone that is not afraid to let people know who they are. I'm sorry Carlos." As Robert said that he walked away.
"Robert!" Carlos managed to get out between the tears, but Robert didn't look back.
Carlos sat in the bench where he first met Robert, and know lost him. He stayed in the bench for a few minutes, and then he started walking to the Palm woods. Somehow he made it to 2J. When he opened the doors James was sitting playing Bio-Hazard Battle Blast five.
"Hey Carlitos, wanna play." James asked.
Before James could say anything else, Carlos went crying to their room. James was confused he had just seen Carlos happy a few minutes ago. He was debating if to go to Carlos or leave him alone. After a few minutes he decided to see what had happened.
When he entered their room Carlos was on his bed crying. His eyes were all puffy and red. When Carlos saw James walk in he tried to wipe the tears.
"Hey, James." Carlos said.
"What happened?" James asked Carlos "I just saw you exited to see Robert." He said. "Robert… Robert what the fuck did that idiot do! I swear to God if that boy hurt you I…"
"He dumped me!" Carlos interrupted.
"What? Why?" James didn't want to show it but he was a bit happy, he could finally have a chance with Carlos.
"He said that he was sick and tired of being a secret, and then he broke up with me."
Carlos said barely audible.
"Well he's an idiot; he just missed out in something wonderful." James said as he hugged Carlos.
"You don't have to pretend like you care. I know you've never liked Robert."
"I'm not pretending, I would never leave you alone in a moment like this, I will always be here for you no matter what comes around the corner. When I'm here you don't have to worry no more."
Carlos hugged James. James felt the warmth of Carlos and when he had to let go he wished for a few more minutes in Carlos's embrace.
"And you're right I never liked Robert and now for better reason." James gave Carlos a smile as he said that.
"James. I really loved him." Carlos said.
"I know you did."
"Why did he do it? Didn't he love me enough to stay with me until I was ready?"
"I'm sure he loved you very much. I know how you feel."
"I'm sorry James; I really don't think you know what I'm going through. You don't have a secret that you are afraid to tell anyone about because if you do people will judge you."
James thought that maybe right now would be a perfect time to tell Carlos that he knew exactly how he felt because he was gay too. James was still thinking, when he finally decides what to do he didn't notice that he had been thinking for a really long time, and Carlos was just staring at him confused. Carlos started to stand up and get out of the room when James pulled him down back to the bed.
"What?" Carlos said still confused.
"Carlos, I know exactly how you feel." James said.
"NO YOU DON'T!"
"YES I DO….. I'm gay too, Carlos."
When James said that, Carlos's eyes went wide.
"What? No you're not."
"Yes I am. I was just afraid of telling anybody. I didn't want to be judge."
"Why didn't you tell me? I told you." Carlos said.
"I don't know. It's just that…"
"You didn't trust me. Didn't you?" Carlos interrupted.
"It's not that. I just…" before he could finish Carlos stormed out of their room. "Carlos, wait." James called after Carlos.
