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~358/2 Days Spoilers if you haven't played it yet. (Because some people still haven't :P) Listen to the song 'Who Knew' By P!nk While reading if you can~
I = Roxas
You/he = Axel
She = Xion
~"Maybe…maybe we really do have hearts,"
Demyx~
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I wanted it to last forever,
Us being together
Me and my two best friends
The sunsets
The Clock Tower
The Sea-salt Ice cream
He knew better
But still…
"We'll be together as long as we have our memories"
At the time I thought he was just being corny
So I forgot the conversation
And went on with my life
But then….
"I…I feel like I know you but…I can't remember"
I remembered that day on the clock tower
And his answer
And it made me wonder…
It made me wonder if he knew this would happen
If he knew that…
If he knew then why?
I decided to find my own answers
"You get on their bad side and they'll destroy you!"
Maybe being destroyed would have been better than this
My…friend… (?)
...She (?) is dead, things can never go back to the way they were,
Why should we even try to pick up our broken pieces?
It'd be easier to just leave
And begin anew
"That's not true! …I would…
And I swore a silent oath when I left
I swore I'd never forget you
That I'd cherish your memory
Until we met again
But then…
I forgot again
"Man, talk about blank with a capital B"
I should've realized…
Realized that the echoing feeling in my chest…
…It was my memories of our time together
When you visited me…
I thought about it for days
It plagued my mind
It haunted my dreams
"C'mon don't you remember me? It's me, you know…Axel!"
I wish I could remember
But I gave up your memory for answers
If I could still call you 'friend'
I would give up everything!
If I knew this was going to happen…
But I should've seen…
"Roxas. Alright. Fight, fight, fight!"
I should've seen your hidden message when you were telling me to fight,
Fight for my memories,
Fight for my existence
Fight for my true friend
But I didn't.
And I went on with my fake existence
"Oh so you really do remember me this time! Well I'm SO FLATTERED!But it's too late!"
If…
If you knew
If you told me…
If you trusted me with the real truth
If you never lied to me
If you stopped me
If you came with me
If you never let me forget
Then maybe it wouldn't have been to late…
"I-I wanted to see Roxas, he…he was the only one I liked. He made me feel…Like I had a heart…"
I never wanted this…
I never wanted you to die for me
I never wanted to kill her…
I never wanted to actually leave…
I never wanted to forget
I never wanted to lose my existence
I never wanted any of this!
But that's what happened…
"Well, that's what happens when you put your entire being into an attack..."
But maybe…
…Maybe…
Maybe things could have been different…
Maybe we'd still be eating ice cream on that clock tower
Maybe we'd still be laughing at the different ways to anagram the other Nobodies names
Maybe we'd still be making fun of Xemnas and Saïx
Maybe I'd still be mad at you for pushing me off the tower
Maybe you'd still be laughing at how you pushed me off the tower
Maybe we'd still be staring at the sunset
Maybe we'd still be watching that little tram car going back and forth
Maybe we'd still be watching those kids play
Maybe I'd still be asking you questions about the Organization
Maybe we'd still be talking about our missions
Maybe she would still be staring at her feet
Maybe you'd still be rubbing the back of your head
Maybe I'd still be staring at the sunset smiling.
Maybe I'd still trust you
Maybe…
Maybe sometime in the future we'll meet again in a pleasant memory…
But now…
"Let's meet again in the next life,"
Now we don't have mouths to eat with, and the ice cream is melted
Now everyone else is gone and there's nothing left to laugh at
Now Xemnas and Saïx aren't fit to be laughed at
Now I'm mad at you for worse reasons than pushing me off the tower
Now it's not so funny anymore
Now the sunsets are never the same
Now the tram car has reached its final destination
Now the kids aren't playing, and we never saw them again
Now I don't have to ask you questions
Now there are no more missions
Now she's gone…or she never really existed
Now you don't have to rub the back of your head, since there's nothing left for you to worry about
Now I can't smile
And I can barely remember her
Now…I don't think I can ever trust you again…
"Silly, just because you have a next life…"
All that only brought up the question
You knew all along that this would happen…didn't you?
And I think you knew we wouldn't be 'together forever'…
I think you knew that no matter how beautiful a sunset is it always has to set
Didn't you?
If you knew then why'd you have to keep leading us on so much?
If you knew then why did you keep rubbing salt in the wound?
If you knew we could never go back then why…?
Why did you keep trying to make things better?
Why did you keep trying to get me to come back?
Why did you make us think everything would be fine?
Did you know?
Because I think you knew…
You did know…didn't you?
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A/N: Oh god…*Goes cry in emo-corner* …anyway…T^T all the italics were quotes from the game…though I kinda tweaked some of them a bit…. Oh and the two question marks when he was talking about Xion about her being his friend and a "she". They were there because he doubted himself…since he didn't even remember her and all that…. And…the underlined line was my favorite line :D and the first quote about the memories and all that got me thinking about this in the first place :3
Also thought about when I was listening to 'Who Knew by P!nk' and then 'Reach by Eyes Set to Kill' and 'Make It Stop (September's Children) by Rise Against' …Reach and Make it Stop are some fricking awesome songs btw…you should listen to them…Just sayin' (: Hope you enjoyed this little thing that I used to procrastinate from updating my other fics XD
Also thank you to Akuroku luvr…for being awesome and for actually encouraging me to get started on CoaM…sure it's just an outline…but an outline is the spine of a fic correct? :D
Rambleramblerambleramble
:D
Also sorry no Akuroku or implied Akuroku…or implied anything for that matter…
:3
Though maybe you can see it…if you squint…I can't though…): …The "F" word kinda got rid of the pairings I think... _o (F word = Friends) XD
…One more thing…
DISGAEA 4! I WILL OWN YOU! :D:D:D:D:D …
…that is all…. (EEeeeeeeEEeEEEEEeeee I can't wait for it to come out! :D:D:D:D)
