Together Alone
Disclaimer- I don't own Code Geass
Warning- contains spoilers and fluff
Side Notes- It's told in first person point of view. The name of who the story is being told by is put above the part of the story that they are telling. Also, I know some of the characters are out of character but hey, it's a fanfiction so I can make them do whatever I want xD
-+Lelouch
I sat in a field of flowers. My hands picked flowers and pulled each petal off automatically so I didn't even have to think about what I was doing. My thoughts were elsewhere…
I was alone.
Was this the peace I had always wished for? …The reward for fighting so hard? Nunnally, C.C., Suzaku … everyone I ever cared for was gone. My heart was shattered beyond repair.
Suddenly, I realized that I was crying. The tears were just pouring from my eyes. I tried to blink them away but they kept coming, blurring my vision. I ripped the entire flower from its stem and tried to wipe my face dry with my arms but failed once again.
No… I hadn't wanted this… I didn't fight for this… I didn't sacrifice lives for this! I didn't risk everything to just be alone!
.. darkness swallowed me, the beautiful flowers around me dicsinigrate into a black nothingness. My arm reached for a hand that wasn't there. I opened my mouth to call for help but found my voice was trapped in my throat.
I fell.
I awoke to find myself in bed. My hands gripped the sheets tightly as the feeling of falling slowly went away. My heart pounded in my chest and I was taking in heavy breaths. A bead of sweat rolled down the side of my face, mixing in with my tears.
When I had finally convinced myself that I wasn't falling anymore, my hands released the sheets. I propped myself up and pressed one of my hands against my face, covering my Geass. This had been the third time this week I had had the same dream. I glanced at the clock; it said it was only three in the morning.
I was too shaken up to go back to sleep, to afraid that I might have the dream again. I swung my legs out of the bed and headed for the shower. I didn't bother turning on a light. I reached in and turned the knobs so that warm water came pouring out of the shower head. I stripped off my boxers and stepped into the water.
I tried to focus on other things, like what Zero should do next and what tests I, Lelouch, had today, but everything always returned to my dream.
"Why alone?" My voice quivered as I tilted my head back into the water. It was the main thing that wasn't explained in my dream. I had reached my goal of creating a new world. I no longer had to be Zero. …
"But I was alone. What had happened to my beloved sister? Where was the witch? There was no way I could have won if they weren't there… Not even one member of the Black Knights was there either."
My knees shook as I wondered why I was falling at the end of the dream. I pressed my hand against the cold tile to hold myself up. "It was only after the feeling of being alone rushed over me that I was thrown into darkness. Could it be that-?"
My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of the bathroom door squeaking. I stood there holding my breath. It wasn't possible that Rolo had been awake, was it? And if he was, what had he heard? I shut the water off and a towel over my shoulders as I slipped into my boxers. I stepped quietly through the hall until I reached Rolos room. I listened for any signs that he might be awake before pushing the door open slowly.
He was in bed, breathing softly. I let out a breath and started to close the door.
"Nii-san"
I froze.
"Nii-san… what's wrong?" Rolo sat up in bed. I turned back and smiled lightly. "It's nothing Rolo. Go back to sleep."
He stared at me with worry. "Yes, nii-san…"
I hated it when he called me his brother. He wasn't my brother and could never replace my sister. I watched him lay back down, his eyes staying locked on me before slowly closing.
Rolo was just an expendable tool and could be nothing more.
Morning came slowly. I watched the sun rise from the window of my bedroom. Small chatter and other such noises came to life as students began their normal routines. I hesitated in getting dressed. Could I just pretend to be sick today? Pretending everything was alright was putting a heavy stress on me… I was getting tired of acting all the time… Perhaps if I just played sick and spent the day alone, I could rid myself of the nightmares.
But no, Rolo would insist on staying by my side… and the student council was sure to stop by as much as possible so I wouldn't have a moment to myself at all.
A knock came from my door. It was sure to be Rolo so I slipped into my uniform and answered the door.
"Did you manage to get back to sleep last night?" He asked me. I gave a slight nod as I buttoned up my shirt and grabbed my bag.
"That's good…" He stared down at the floor as if something was on his mind. I headed out the door and he followed like an obedient dog.
"I didn't mean to wake you." I said. Even if I hated him, I had to keep him on my side.
"It's alright." He answered, "I didn't mind at all."
We parted after breakfast, but I promised him we would spend lunch together like always.
-+Rolo
I heard a small sob coming from Lelouchs room. I had never seen him cry, so the sound was strange and foreign to me. It wasn't unusual for me to wake up at night and head to Lelouchs room. Being around him gave me comfort and a feeling of purpose.
My hand rose to knock on the door but stopped when I heard the sound of him gasping for air like he had just taken a long run. He sat in bed for a while and I stood there, listening.
Finally, he got out of the bed and walked straight at me. I rushed away, and hid while he headed for the bathroom. Without thinking, I followed.
I could hear the shower turn on. Why was he taking a shower at three in the morning? I blinked; a shower seemed like a normal action compared to my snooping.
I opened the door and slipped my head inside, listening to the water rush against his skin. I closed my eyes, wishing I could comfort him in some way.
"Why alone?" His voice was shaky and so unlike the normal Lelouch. "But I was alone." I opened my mouth wishing to tell him that I would never leave him, that he would never be alone.
"What had happened to my beloved sister? Where was the witch? There was no way I could have won if they weren't there…"
My eyes flew open. I forced my mouth shut and bit my lip. Beloved sister… I looked away from the shower. Beloved sister… I couldn't hear the rest of what he was saying…
… I always knew Lelouch never loved me like he always acted like he did… but living in our small lie… it made me happy. … I would do anything for him if it meant we could stay together…
The door made a loud squeak from the pressure of me leaning against it. I shut the door quickly, knowing Lelouch would have heard it. I headed quickly back to my room and got back into bed. Sure enough, a moment later, Lelouch opened the door. I kept my eyes shut. If he knew I had been spying on him, would he be mad? … but I couldn't just sit by and watch him suffer… even if it seemed to involve his real sister.
"Nii-san" I said quickly as he was about to shut the door. "Nii-san, what's wrong?" I asked, sitting up. There was no way he would talk to me… he wouldn't open himself up so easily to me… but I had to make sure he knew I cared… He turned and gave me that crooked fake smile of his.
"It's nothing Rolo, go back to sleep." He said. I stared at him for a moment, wishing I could some how get myself to force him to talk to me… but I needed to obey him…
"Yes, nii-san." I laid back down and reluctantly closed my eyes. What was I doing wrong…? Why was it he looked at me with such fake eyes? … why was it he loved her instead of me? …
Good night nii-san…
To be continued...
