Disclaimer: Don't own any of the characters, yada, yada, yada. Yes this is cheesy I know…I wrote this…I don't know…A long time ago. Without caffeine, and half asleep.
Tayn uinhym,
Sometime in the Evening
Here I lay, I feel like I'm dying. I feel like a chocobo having its spirit slowly broken. How could he have said those things, you know? Was he an Al-Bhed hater or something? No of course not…That'd mean his friend's wife…no…not an Al-Bhed hater. All I know, the more I'd open up to him the more he had shut me out. What did I ever do? I'm a good person, you know? What did anyone ever do? Did he even have feelings? Or was he protecting us from the heartache? When he wanted to call out, and scream and cry, did he restrain himself so we didn't get too attached? So when he left me…us…we'd hate him? His plan didn't work, I just missed him more. I had all the open doors, but I was too scared to walk through, you know? But now that I think about it, what did I have to lose? Why did I stop myself? Pops always said, let love go, and if it comes back, its true love. I never followed that…I never let go…But still he never came back. I go to the farplane constantly now. Though he's just a memory, I can yell at him, but I miss those witty remarks from that weathered face. I'm going to visit him again tonight, alone. To yell, to cry, to tell him how much I love him. Auron why'd you leave me here…alone, when you just started to come out of your shell? I love you, you know. No wait, no you don't, but tonight…you will. Yes tonight, you will.
Tayn uinhym,
After I visited Auron
Oh…this is bad…bad…bad…bad! Oh but it's soooo good too! I went to see Auron today. I saw him floating there, lifelessly…as always. I told him how I felt. I told him I loved him so much, and that I wanted to cry it out on Mt. Gagazet, you know. But then I apologized and told him I had to get going. I left the farplane, and stood right outside of that yucky gook. Oh I felt so bad for just leaving, and I ran back inside. I thought about him, but he didn't come. I kept thinking, and thinking, and thinking about his beautiful face. He didn't come. Was it something I said? He's alive…somewhere! If he's not at the farplane….he's somewhere…out there. He heard my every thought…could it be love that brings one back? Then what about Tidus…oh he never was at the farplane. You know, I just kept thinking and thinking, and hoping to see his face. But he never showed…and I miss him…But he's alive? Right? Oh Journal, tell me he's alive! I will go find him. But will he laugh at me like he…
[The writing gets sloppy near the end, and picks up completely different.]
Du so taynacd Rikku, fru pnuikrd sa pylg,
Sometime after your visit…and at the Inn in Guadosalam.
I don't know how long I was there…but you visiting me every single day…it brought me so much joy. You expressed to me everything that I felt for you…feel for you. When I was at the farplane that day when I met you, when I said "Look at me" kept playing through my head. To see your beautiful eyes, to hear your angelic voice. Oh Rikku, why would I laugh? Why would I laugh at you? You've grown so much, in the passed…I don't know. But you've grown. Write not any more tales of sadness. For now I'm back.
Auron
Author's Notes:
Du so taynacd rikku, fru pnuikrd sa pylg means in english To my dearest Rikku, who brought me back
Tayn unihym means Dear Journal.
