Hey Guys! I'm sorry I haven't updated in forever. But I've done some editing and stuff so here is the newly edited Prologue of Ticking Time Bomb. I don't have internet at my beach house so I will not be able to post anything until sometime next week. I've made some minor changes here, but the next chapter will have way more. Sorry for the wait, enjoy!
"Rewind to the first time that I felt it coming, I knew it would not last, And Rewind to the first time that I felt it coming, Make it quick, make it painless." - Rewind by Paramore
Prologue
Hayley
If you had told me years ago, before I had fans, before I was in a band, all the stupid stuff I would have to go through to reach happiness, I would've thought you were insane.
If you had told me, I would be in a band with four of my best friends; I would've said that nothing ever lasts. Everything that I had gone through taught me that. And fans? Please, I would've never imagined to even have fans. I always knew I wanted to be in a band, but it always seemed out of reach. And when the chance came, I grabbed hold of it and held on for dear life.
I thought my band would be close and open with each other. I thought we would talk about what bothered us and what needed to change. I thought that was what was happening. I guess I didn't know what was going on behind the scenes, even though I was there. Fixing the problems never happened. We kept adding insult to injury; not a good combo. Then the perfection behind a band with the best fans in the world fell apart. The shame behind it all is that the fans watched one of go insane and the other fall apart.
If I had known our band was going to be a ticking time bomb, I would've searched for a way to diffuse it, but the ticking was silent and it exploded before I even knew what was going on.
I never thought that someone I called a friend would hurt me, and almost kill me. I never knew I was also hurting one of the closest people to me in the process. I never knew how easily trust is lost. I never knew that I would get to a point where I felt like things were getting better, then watch it all crash on top of me. I didn't know the power depression can have on a person.
I couldn't have imagined such anger radiating from one person. I never understood the insanity behind a grudge; vow to never let one moment go. I never thought that someone would keep score of all the mistakes I made. I never knew that they would use them all against me. I couldn't ever understand that people never change (even though I always preached it); and that someone I thought I knew could turn almost evil. And to know that he was always that way, we were just too ignorant to see it; it was hidden behind a carefully composed mask.
I always knew love never existed, but I never knew hate made the world go round; I was told that love's job. And that pain is just a normal part of life that never seems to go away.
I learned that even though some people want to break you down, there are others who want to keep you together; and that some days those people are the only ones who keep you going.
This band is all I have and I will never let it go, no matter what happens.
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