Jeans Point of view.
Marco? How long has it been since i found you.. In that Titan infested town. All alone and ice cold.
You didn't deserve to die that way Marco.
If anyone deserved to die that day it was me..
I have been sitting in my bunk for what seems like days now. I haven't eaten. I haven't talked to anyone.
We cremated your body the other day. It was a mass burning and I couldn't tell which body was yours anymore. Were you there? I heard your voice and.. And..
Marco? Remember when you helped me fix my maneuver gear? The clasp was jammed and you worked on it all night to fix it.
Remember when we snuck into the cafeteria and took some sweets from the cabinets? And then the rest of that night we just.. Talked?
Marco..? Your face is starting to fade from my memory.. I don't want to forget you.. I need to remember.. What color was your hair again? It was a dark brown right Marco? Right..? Marco...?
Hey Marco.. We beat them. We beat the Titans today. Eren closed the hole in the gate. Were you here with us? Cheering us on?
Whenever I'm alone.. Are you there with me? I never really feel alone because you're there.. But.. I'm lonely.. Does that make sense?
Marco.. I went to that place today.. Remember? You told me to wait there for you.. You told me you would be right back. You left and you brought me back a small flower.
"Here! It reminded me of your eyes Jean!"
I'm right here. I'm waiting for you. I still have that little flower... Marco.. Where are you? You're late.. No.. No you're not late.. You're gone. You're gone Marco and I cant bring you back. Why couldn't i have been there? So you weren't alone in your final moments on this earth?
Marco you were too precious and too gentle for this planet. I wish you were still here.. I cant do this alone..
Marco.. I've been crying for the past few hours now.. Its been a year since.. Since..
I wish it was me. Why did it have to be you Marco? Are you here with me? The pain in my heart is building up..
I feel as though I'm going to burst.. My tears are pooling on the ground now. Everyone in the Survey Corps looks at me as if I was a madman..
Have I gone mad Marco? All I can think about these days is your smiling face.. Though it's fading from my memory I still have it forever etched in my dreams.
I had that nightmare again tonight.. The one where i watch you get... When i had nightmares at the Academy you would stay up with me all night until i thought i was okay.. And if i didn't feel okay you would sleep there with me. Marco.. Can i tell you a secret?
A lot of times when I said I wasn't okay.. I really was.. I just wanted to be near you.
Marco.. I'm sorry.. If there is an afterlife then I'm coming.. I couldn't.. I wasn't strong enough..
I was eaten Marco. I'm inside a titan's stomach.. Its really hot in here Marco.. Where are you? I cant see you.
I'm coming Marco. I'm almost there, we are going to see each other again Marco. We can finally be happy again. We can joke around like we used to.
We are going to meet up in a better place now Marco.
I'm coming.. Ill see you soon..
I love you.. Marco Bodt..
