"The essential things in life are seen not with the eyes but with the heart, because love is the most powerfullest thing in the earth".

~ UNKNOWN

I could still remember those bright brown eyes. The ones that sunk into my soul and made my belly do flip flops . I still remember the electrifying smile that melted my insides over and over again. His beach blonde hair though was what I loved most. Anyone who knew Austin Moon would know that his eyes weren't the only thing that told stories. That soft tuff of hair that laid silently on the top of his head told feelings and emotions. Based on how many times he ran his hand through his hair you could tell if he was angry or frustrated or gleaming with joy.

I think Austin was running away from life. Running from change. He knew that one day the world was going to destroy him no matter how many times he saved it.

He ran away from the anything that was going to affect his ending because he knew that it was coming soon. He ran away from the idea of love but he failed because he had finally realized that love is the of thing that you can't run away from no matter how hard you try.

I didn't understand at the time why he had to run. Why he had to ruin his fairy tail ending because he was afraid. What he was afraid of though, I had no idea. It was only when he lost the race was when I realized that he was running away from me. He was running to his end and he didn't want to ruin mine or Dez's. But when you love someone you'll do anything to be with them.

Sometimes I wonder why life would do such a cruel thing and take away the one thing that meant the whole world to me . Austin Monica Moon was my first love/ my fiance/ and a father. He was my beggining and my end but like they say " All good things come to an end".

But If I say that our love wasn't worth the heart break, then i'd be lying. I would relive our whole love story all over again and I wouldn't change a thing. Even if it does mean watching him die in my arms all over again.

If I could say one thing about Austin, I would say that he's loyal. Whenever he makes a promise he would keep it. I remember demanding him to promise me that he'd die at a old age but he just shook his head and jabbed a finger toward my belly and said " I promise i'll be there when you go to labor. I'll let you squeeze my hand as hard as you want. Even if you break it, you can keep squeeezing it until our bondle of joy is laying in your arms".

He kept his promise .

If I could say one thing that Austin sucked at , I would say running. He was never good at running no matter how hard he tried. They say that your weaknesses can kill you and it did. He wasn't fast enough to reach the finish line and on December 24 2014 , Austin Monica Moon plunged out of existence.

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The sound of laughter filled the air as I bit back a smile. Having Austin smile was like christmas all over again.

" I'm serious Austin"! I shouted causing Austin to roll over in a fit of giggles. Whenever I got angry , wich was rarely, Austin would think that it's the most funniest thing in the world.

"Oh no! Run everyone ! She's so mad that she might spray pepper spray in our eyes"!

There was a roar of laughter heard around the cafeteria. I only shook my head in dissaproval and walked away from the laughing boy that I used to be so proud to call my boyfriend. Quickly, He grabbed my arm while using his free hand to wipe the imaginary tears from his eyes.

His laughter died down once he saw the serious look plastered on my face.

" Ok Als what were you saying? You said something about dancing"? There was a slight grin on his lips as he watched me huff out a breath of annoyance.

" I was asking you when your going to ask me to prom? I mean you don't have to but you know since we're a couple and all , I thought it would be nice to go together".

Austin's eyes grew wide. It was quit adorable but of course I didn't tell him that. I was as nevourse as I could be anyway . I could feel Austin's eyes roaming around my face. There was a look of confusion and shock written all over his features. My eyes instantly found it's way to the ground. I shouldn't have even mentioned prom. Austin wasn't too big on dances.

Ever since he was in middle school, He hated the idea of prom or any other social event that contained or encouraged slow dances. He thought that the idea of dancing slow was completetely stupid. His idea of a good prom was hanging out with your date and friends and then pulling a prank on the teachers.

" Do you want to go, Alls"? He asked, His brown eyes absorbing mine.

In that moment I had no idea what to say. I could have said yes and dragged him along to something that he doesn't want to do or say no and end up playing " Black ops" with him and his friends.

Ok so here's the deal with him and his friends. Austin is kinda the alpha in their friendship. Whatever he says go. If he ends up not going to prom his friends won't go either even if they had the hottest dates in the school. His group consist of many people but my favorite is Dez. He dosen't look up to Austin like the rest of his friends. He's only there to put Austin in his place. That's probably why him and Dez are such good friends . Austin loves challenges.

" I u-uh .." I was instantly cut off by Aaron Mitchell one of Austin's wolfs in the wolf pac. ( See what I did right there) Austin's eyes tore off of me and onto the screaming idiot at the end of the table. He was standing on the top of the table with a football in his hand.

" Go long"! He shrieked causing a loadful of students to look at the flying football that was heading directly at me.

I was never good at football so I had no idea how to retrieve the ball. I was pretty smart when it came to alot of things but sports is not one of them.

In just 5 seconds, I watched as the brown ball came spiraling towards my face. I tried to retrieve the ball but my hands were frozen solid to my sides. I just sat there hoping as the ball came closer that Austin was going to save me from my humiliation and pain but he didn't.

He just watched me with his mouth hanging wide open. If we were under any other circumstances, I would've laughed at the way his mouth formed and o shape but these weren't any other circumstances.

As the ball hit my face, I felt a wave of pain wash over me , instead of crying like I really wanted to do , I just kept a scowl on my face. I glared at the scared idiot that had thrown the ball and then at the shocked blonde before running out of the cafeteria and in to the nurses office.

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The nurse ended up putting a bag of ice on my swollen eye and then telling me to rest in one of her blue twin sized beds. I slept on that bed for the rest of the day and to be honest my face felt way better. That's when I heard a knock on the door followed by the sound of a door opening. I looked up to see Austin with roses in his hand and a sheepish smile on his lips.

" Sup Ally cat". He handed me the flowers before silently asking the nurse to leave. She only nodded before trotting down the hallway.

" I thought you had practice today". I said with a frown attached to my lips. Did Austin think that coming here with flowers was going to erase what he was supposed to do?

" I already went. You were sleeping for a while". He grabbed a light blue chair from the corner of the room and scooted it towards my bed.

That really got me mad. I should have been his top priority. I'm not trying to be selfish or anything but I always made sure he was the first one on my list. No matter the situation.

When he had the flue and he wasn't feeling very well ,instead of going home to help my mom cook dinner, I went straight to Walgreens to get him medicine not without stopping at Walmart to get supplies for the perfect soup.

It just got me mad that football was always his top priority and it always had been and lets not forget that the whole reason i'm in pain is because a giant football was launched at my face.

I turned my head away from him with anger written all over my face. He just sighed in annoyance which got me really mad. He was annoyed with me?

" Ally I'm really trying here! I brought you flowers and came to check on you. What more do you want from me"!

His voice was rising and his brows were furrowed in frusturation. I could tell because that always happened when his voice rose. I turned to face him with tears streaming down my face. I felt like an idiot for crying but he's done this way too many times and we've gone through this more times than we should have.

" Austin, I'm super tired of this. I'm tired of just being your second choice. I'm of tired of doing this over and over again. In a relationship you not suposed to doubt your boyfriend but lately i've been doing just that"! The tears on my face were coming down harder as I watched Austin put his hand through his hair.

" What do you want from me Ally ! Just tell me"! His brown orbs were staring hard in my eyes and his hand never left his hair.

" I want to know that I can trust you Austin! Everytime I do , you let me down and then you apologize and it goes over again and again. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one that's putting the effort in this relationship. I ju-just want t-to trust y-you".

I said that last part in a whisper and broke down in tears. I really wanted our relationship to work. Austin quickly grabbed my arm and pulled me into his lap.

" Look Ally , I'm sorry okay. I'm not used to this type of thing. I just wanted to have a career that pays good when we have a family. You always come first Ally. You come first in my heart and mind and anywhere else. I was being stupid . I don't know why I didn't get that ball. I was just being stupid okay."

He wrapped his arm around my waist and wiped the tears off of my cheeks. Sighing I relaxed in his arms and played with his knuckles until I realized that his sweet sweet knuckles were red. That could only mean one thing, Austin had puched someone . But who?

" Austin"? I asked . Austin just kept his face burried in my shoulders.

"Hmm"

" Did you hit someone today"? That question was enough to send his head flying upward.

" Just Aaron". He replied briefly before burrying his head in to my neck.

" Austin, Violence is not the answer. Think of Ghandi. He could've led th-". A large hand covered my mouth . I whipped around and glared at Austin.

" Ally I know what Ghandi did. I'm not stupid".

" That's not what you said in that little speech of yours". I said with a smirk plastered on my face. He looked at me with a shocked expression. He chuckled before muttering something about how I hang out with him way too much. We sat there in silence before he spoke again.

" I'm not gonna apologize for hitting him. He hit you and you don't deserve that. I'm not going to apologize for not wanting you to get hurt. I'm not going to apologize for giving him what he deserves because then i'd be lying to you and I promised i'll stay honest. Plus if I had to hit him , you know the saying " What goes around comes back around".

He had a huge smile growing on his face as I kissed his cheeks. He was the best boyfriend a girl could ever ask for and that was saying something.

He got up and tightened his grip around my waist and whispered " let's go home". We both didn't know what home meant because we both live with our parents but when he said it , it felt right. Because as long as we were together, we could face the world.

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