NCIS:

TIRED OF LOVING HER FROM THE SIDELINES...

DISCLAIMER:

NCIS and characters do not belong to me.

SUMMARY:

Abby and McGee have a night together, a few days later she is telling him about someone knew. Tired of loving her from the sidelines he leaves...

That was eleven years ago.

CHAPTER 1: THE DECISION THAT CHANGED EVERYTHING...

TIM'S P.O.V.

I can't believe how long it's been since I moved away...eleven years.

FLASHBACK ELVEN YEARS EARLIER *

It was a cold, rainy night and I was working on my book.

Hearing a knock at the door I opened it and there stood Abby.

"Hey, Timmy," Abby said.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"I just wanted to come spend a little time with you." She had told me.

"Abs, I was trying to write..." I began and her face fell.

"Okay, I'll just..."

I didn't let her finish, but pulled her in the door. "Do you want something to drink?" I offered as she sat down on the couch.

So I had gotten each of us a drink and I don't know what happened, but we started talking about when we had dated years ago.

Then without thinking I kissed her and she wrapped her arms around my neck, pulling me as close as she could.

Though I tried to pull away, I couldn't and wondered if this had been her plan. After a few minutes I did pull away.

"What are you doing here?" I repeated and knowing the reason she had given me was a lie.

"I went to meet someone tonight, but when I got there. All I could do was think of you, so I turned around and ended up here." Abby explained with a shrug.

That was the last thing I remember...

Until the next morning, when I woke up with Abby in my arms, I couldn't believe it and tried to remember what had happened.

We had a little to drink, but we were still sober enough to think.

A few days went by and she never said a word about it, when I tried to talk about it...

She would either turn up her music at work or just ignore me.

Then one day we were at our computers in her lab.

"I met someone and he asked me out." Abby said out of the blue.

I felt like I had been punched...

Was she trying to hurt me on purpose?

That was the last straw I couldn't do it anymore.

I was tired of being the best friend and loving her from the sidelines. Tired of telling her time and again how much I was in love with her, only to have her shoot me down every time.

So I went to ask for a transfer and left.

Weeks went by and turned into months.

I tried to forget Abby and what she had meant to me, but she was always on my mind.

*END FLASHBACK

Everyone kept in contact with me...everyone except Abby.

Ducky and Gibbs called, while Ziva and Tony e-mailed.

After a while though I stopped hearing from Gibbs, Ducky, Ziva and Tony.

I began to miss them and the one place I had at one point called home, but Abby was there.

Abby was the reason I had left and I didn't think I could face her again.

She could still kill me and leave no forensic evidence.

How could I have walked away from my best friend and the only women I ever really loved? I did and still do love her more than anything or anyone in this world.

I am still trying to understand what happened that night and the few days before I left.

Now it's been eleven years and I had to go home. I should have done it sooner, but I had gotten to the point eleven years ago where I was tired of being used by Abby.

What would we say when we saw it each other again...after such a long time?

I stayed in contact with my sister, Sarah and she had come to visit me a few times. She said she had seen Abby and the others a few times. From what she told me about Abby, it seemed as though Abby had moved on.

A few years ago I had been there in DC for Sarah's wedding, though no one from NCIS knew I was there.

Then a year and a half went by and Sarah brought my nephew...Charles Alexander Wilson...for me to meet

I know a lot of things had changed, because when I requested my return to NCIS I found out Tony was now team leader. Gibbs had retired about three years ago and so had Ducky.

How would everyone react to seeing me? How much has changed? I guess I'll find out on Monday.

Today was Friday so I had three days before I have to face her...Abby. At the same time I would face Tony and Ziva.

I still remember back to all the good times Abby and I had, but it hurts to.

Because no matter what we did we were always...Flirting, Joking around and just liked picking on each other.

That all changed eleven years ago, when I couldn't stand it anymore.