Hey Tohru-kun...

Okay, okay, don't laugh. I feel so embarassed to say all of this where everyone can read my bullshit but since you insist, I'll be honest with you and yeah.

Okay here it goes. I really do care about you. Thanks for those great memories and for being inhumanly nice towards me. I know all of my words must have scared you off or hurt you at times but you kept coming back. No one did that for me so I really appreciated...no I mean thank you for that.

I'm sorry for being such an ass to you so many times and being what I hated most. A punk, a kid pretending to be cool and always wanting a fight with Yuki or Haru (that is if he ever becomes 'black', of course). It's nearly...you can read my mind or something because you always insist on making me feel better even if my words lie to you about not wanting to see you or wanting to be by myself for a while.

It makes me wonder why people like you should have such a hard life. This sounds so embarassing but I am err.

Grateful.

Yeah, that's the word and you always watched over me when I was sick and when I was embarassed and scared. You ignored the fact I am a monster beneath and I have to admit to you that I was scared to death that you'd leave me after you saw the true 'me'. There's even some of me left that I'm so scared to show you incase if you abandon me.

But you'd never do that, right?

I thought you would, honestly. Like Kana and Rin. Rin, that girl, thought she knew what she was doing by challenging Akito for the sake of us all. Or perhaps be like Kana who abandoned Hatori and wanted to forget. Or be like Momiji's mother who wanted to forget as well.

Well, so you're not Rin Sohma or Kana Sohma so please if there is anything that would drive you to the extent...

Please don't give up on us. If you do, not on me. I have too much to repay to you and giving up on me would only make me madder about it since I'll have to think about how much I have to repay you in such little time.

I was surprised when you were willing to love Akito like you loved us. That is something Kana, Momiji's mother, nor Rin had done. But I wished you loved...

What the hell am I saying?

Yeah, thank you for caring even if I was an outcast of the damned Zodiac. That's it. Right?

---The Cat

Kyou Sohma