Title: I've Managed to Live This Long
Author: Shuxyuki
Summary: Yuki's remembering his past with Shuichi. Its one of those -regretting what you didn't do- fics. In a way, its kind of a dark fic.
Notes/Comments: This is written in a Yuki POV. This chapter has a long title… Yuki's a little OOC-ish; I made him too nice.
Chapter One - I Can Still Remember, Even When It's Been So Long
Its been three years. Three years since I had first laid my eyes on him. We were right here; on this very street. I can still slightly remember what it looked like. Even now, I wish time would stop at that moment, but we both know that'll never happen. I wish I knew then what I knew now, if I did, then maybe you would still be here to celebrate the upcoming holidays with me. You always said you wanted to spend Christmas alone with me, and the past few years my family has tagged along with us. This year would have been your year.
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The street lights had just been shut off and I was nearing the end of my late-night stroll. I had a deadline coming up and I wasn't even close to being ready. The stress of it all was starting to get to me, so I took a walk to get away from it. But there you were; you had a somber expression on your face. The light of the moon made it seem as if you were glowing. And I could tell that it was fare that let us meet. It was almost magical.
You were sitting alone on a wooden park bench. It looked like you wanted someone to talk to, so I sat down next to you. When I sat down, you looked at me with your big, teary, purple eyes. I sighed and blew the smoke from my cigarette out of my mouth, then extinguished it. The next thing I knew, you had your face buried in my chest and you were crying. Even though I didn't know you or the reason you were crying, I felt as if it was my job to rid you of your sadness and make you smile. I wrapped my arms around you and your crying started to stop.
"What's wrong, why are you crying?" I said. As soon as I spoke my first word, you looked up at me and sniffled.
"I-I just don't know what to do anymore… I can't take it…" When you spoke, you're voice sounded so sweet. Even though it was chilly outside on the park bench, just hearing your voice made me feel warm inside. "I-I-I was going to… To… Kill myself." I was surprised to hear that. You didn't look like the type who wanted to die. Then you raised your sleeve and revealed to me the scars that you had inflicted on yourself. All I could do was look at your arm in bewilderment. (A/N: Whoot! I used a big word! Thank you, thesaurus!)
You embraced me gently. "Thank you… Thank you for caring about me." You smiled slightly.
"You're welcome." I smiled back at the boy in my arms. "By the way, what is your name?" I asked.
"Shuichi. Shuichi Shindou. Who are you? You look like someone I've seen before." I could tell by his name and his pink hair that he was the lead singer in the band, Bad Luck. I had heard them a few times, my brother-in-law made me listen to their CD. They were pretty good.
"Eiri Yuki." I said somewhat coldly.
End of Chapter One.
So, what'd ya think? Sorry it was short. (My parents made me get off the computer…) The next chapter will be longer… I hope.
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-shuxyuki
