I need him, You must Understand

Chapter one

Summary: What if, during his marriage, Aaron Hotchner had gotten David Rossi pregnant? What if they'd had a daughter that Haley had agreed to adopt and raise? What if David was forbidden from visiting the child or even seeing her? What if he had to pretend to be "Uncle Dave"? And what if, when Haley died, Aaron starts up a relationship with Spencer Reid? How would David Rossi act, when he discovers Aaron got Spencer pregnant? This is the imagining of that obsession.

David Rossi, legendary ladies man, was having an affair. David Rossi was in love. David Rossi was...pregnant.

He'd been having an affair for the past year with his married colleague, Aaron Hotchner, and had inevitably fallen for the other agent. What's worse was it was plain for all to see. When they were in the bullpen, when they were on a case, even just the way they went off to the bathroom for a quickie. David had fallen head over heels for Aaron.

So when he woke up on a case, next to Aaron as always, and immediately ran to the toilet to puke he was happy that he might be pregnant, that Aaron might finally be ready to leave Haley and come out properly as bisexual. He hadn't factored in that Aaron didn't love him as he loved Aaron.

The day came and he got into Aaron's car. "Aaron, we need to tell Haley about us...now..." Aaron stared at Dave.

"Why? Why, ruin a good thing now?" Aaron took Dave's face in his hands, "What's changed that you want to tell Haley now?" He was concerned, Dave knew what he about to tell him but he still got sick to the pit of his stomach. It just dawned on him Aaron might not feel the same way.

"Remember the case where I spent most of the time emptying my stomach in our room? Usually in the morning?" Aaron nodded, he'd always assumed it was from food poisoning. "Well, uh, we're having a baby..." Dave's smile disappeared as Aaron's hands were removed from his face and onto the steering wheel as he started the car. "Where are we going Aaron."

His eyes shining with unshed tears Dave waited for Aaron's reply. "Planned Parenthood." was the only two words to come out of Aaron's mouth. He looked furious.

Dave knew it was probably not for that but he asked anyway: "to confirm my pregnancy before we tell Haley?"

Aaron scoffed "No, to abort before Haley finds out." With that Dave's heart sank like a stone, Aaron didn't love him back and didn't want their child.

"Aaron , stop the car and let me out." Dave said, more forcefully than he'd ever said anything in his life, "I'm not asking, I'm telling you I want out of this car."

As soon as Aaron stopped the car Dave jumped out and didn't even notice that he was getting wet from the Virginia rain. Thankfully it hid his tears.

So this was his life now, trying to hide his growing belly from his colleagues and from Aaron, but at home he let loose. he held his little Bambino in his hands, felt them kick and toned to experience this with Aaron.

In the eighth month of his pregnancy he witnessed perhaps the biggest fight any of them had seen Haley and Aaron have, in unit chief Burgess' office. He'd been called in and Haley started to scream at him, he knew then that Aaron had told her. If Burgess hadn't have been there he can only imagine what Haley would have done.

In the end Haley said that David couldn't very well raise a baby and be an FBI agent, and he had to concede that fact, what she suggested floored him; let her adopt the baby and Aaron will acknowledge them as his own child. Defeated Dave nods. He knows it's for the best, but if that's true then why is his heart aching?

Finally on the 7th of November 1989 at 11 am David Rossi goes into labour. Since there's no birth canal it was always a c-section for him, but as he's about to go in Aaron and Haley arrive and seen Aaron's face makes him more determined than ever to have their child.

And so a daughter is born, and before Dave can see her they whisk her away, side she's being adopted there's no need to let him see her, but they don't understand that Dave's loved her from the moment he found out he was pregnant with her. "May I see her?" He asks one of the nurses, groggily. "To say goodbye?"

She looks to the doctor and nods, fetching the little bundle and carrying it over to Dave. He takes her gratefully and gently strokes her face, "Well, Bambina, it's our first and last day together. But don't worry: papa's putting you in Daddy's arms, You'e going to live with daddy..." at that point his emotions overwhelmed him and he started crying.

While he recovered from his surgery Haley and Aaron came and took the baby home with them.