--(FoRgEt)--
She's running and she can't remember why. Something's wrong. (but what? BUT WHAT?)
She can't remember.
She can't breathe and she can't remember as she runs into her room, slams the door and falls back upon it. She can't breathe because she's been running but something made her run home and she can't remember.
She fights to regain her composure. To breathe again normally. (Deep, slow breaths. In, out, in, out, in, out.)
Maybe she'll remember. (Remember WHAT?)
It was something important.
And finally she can breathe again. But she doesn't move away from the door. Still she leans back upon it, not doing anything. Just listening as the pounding in her ears slowly goes away and everything becomes silent. She just stands there, just breathing, just trying to remember. (Remember WHAT?)
But the silence is loud (it's SO loud). It's too loud and she can't hear herself think because of how loud it is.
Wait - she remembers something now and suddenly she wants to scream. Scream to scare away the memory that rises and begins to play itself over and over in her mind.
Her Sasuke-kun and Naruto. In an empty classroom at the academy. She didn't mean to watch through the little window in the door, but she couldn't move away. And it's too late because the image is burned into her mind.
It was her Sasuke-kun and Naruto.
Kissing.
Groaning.
Moaning,
Touching.
Fucking.
She's frozen at the door. She can hear everything and she doesn't want to. (then why doesn't she move? why is she still there?)
She doesn't want to see this. She doesn't want to see Naruto bent over that desk and Sasuke behind him. (then WHY is she still THERE?)
She can't move and as she watches, a wave of emotions wash over her.
Anger.
Why did Sasuke pick NARUTO over her?)
Hate.
(Naruto ALWAYS gets in the way.)
Jealousy.
(That should be her, not Naruto.)
Envy.
(Naruto's lucky.)
And now she wishes she ran away sooner as she leans upon her door while this memory circles and circles her mind as if it's taunting her. (NARUTO AND SASUKE. NARUTO AND SASUKE. IT'LL ALWAYS BE NARUTO AND SASUKE.)
And she finds that she just can't handle any of this. Not her angry emotions, not this memory, none of it.
She closes her eyes tight to stop seeing the memory and covers her ears to stop hearing the taunting voices in her head. (NARUTO AND SASUKE. NARUTO AND SASUKE. IT'LL ALWAYS BE NARUTO AND SASUKE.)
But nothing works. She can still see it, still hear it.
So she screams.
And screams.
And screams.
And somewhere during all this screaming she remembers what she forgot. What was oh so very important.
She never wanted to remember.
Bah, I wrote this at, like, one in the morning. I hate insomnia. I don't even know where this came from or why it's angsty. As for the story itself, I guess it can be any girl you want it to be, though I think I had Sakura in my head at the time. But any girl fits. -shrug-
Oh - if you happen to read my other story I should have chapter one up sometime soon. It's done, but I want to go back and see if I can add stuff to make it a bit longer. I'll probably post it tomorrow. :)
