Why?
'I'm sorry, Shikamaru…'
"No! Temari, look out!"
'Good bye…'
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Dear Shikamaru-kun…
I thought you cared about me… apparently not. You're all over that other girl. Does she even like you like that? Of course she does; who wouldn't? Besides, you've been friends for the longest of time. Since childhood, I've heard. If I weren't here, then maybe the two of you would be seeing each other. But that doesn't matter. Why? Because I am here. And you're mine. All mine. Or… you were supposed to be.
I can't help that I'm stronger than her, in more ways than one. Physically, I am way stronger than that blonde bimbo. I mean, what can she do that I can't? And mentally? I am way smarter than her as well. Emotionally? I haven't cried since I was four… When my mother died… But, that doesn't mean I'm incapable of it. I can be hurt, Shikamaru. But it hurts the most when it's you that's causing the pain.
I thought my life was complete when I found you. I was walking on air, with no care in the world. I thought about you all the time. Hoped you were okay. Begged to Kami that you didn't die. If I had known you would betray me like that, I wouldn't have hoped so much for your survival. Probably would have just let life take its course. Now that I know, I think it may have been the best.
But, no. I had to go and love you, Shikamaru. Your dark chocolate brown eyes. Your long, brown hair you kept in that ridiculously styled pineapple ponytail. Hell, I even love how you are the laziest person that I'll ever know. I just love everything about you, even though it pains me to say it. I love you. I'm in love with you.
Sadly, I'm not so sure you love me. Though you say it all the time, I'm sure you don't mean it. How can you when you're always with her? Whenever you're not with me, you seek out her company. I get it, she's a weaker person. She needs someone to be there for her. I know, I know. But you know what hurts the most? I need someone to be there for me, too, and you don't even see it. I didn't think I had to say it in order for you to notice it.
As you read this, I will be dead. Lost in the afterlife because you weren't smart enough to see me hurting. I'm writing this on the day that I was assigned the mission with you, Ino, Kankuro, and a whole bunch of other people I don't know, and I swear to let an enemy take my life… before I ended up taking my own…
I'm sorry… My dear Shikamaru…
