A/N: This is my first FanFic so please be gentle with me. I also am warning everyone that these chapters are very short. Only about 5 or 6 hundred words each. I posted the first 3 chapters. I'll try and update every week after this. Please review and let me know what you think please! Thank you!
Jenn

I Sadly own nothing. :( This is all the amazing work of Stephenie Meyer


Chapter 1

Another day. Another day, and I'm still alone. I can't believe I was stupid enough to ever believe it could last forever.

"It will be as if I never existed."

How could he ever be dumb enough to believe that? Now that I think about it he must think I really am a pathetic human if he thinks it would be that easy. But like I always said...I knew it had to be too good to be true.
I finally pulled myself out of my small bed and took in my messy room. I was just finally coming out of the worst of my pain. It still hurt to think of him, but I was forcing myself to keep going. For Charlie. For Jake. And to be quite honest for myself. I pulled random clothes from my dresser and headed downstairs. I threw down some cereal and marched out to my rusty old truck. It was just about the only thing that was sturdy in my life. That and Jake.

Jake was my own personal sunshine. He picked me up, sewed me together and never put me back down. I loved him in so many ways. I just knew that I would never be able to love him THAT way. Sure I think about it. I think about it alot. I just wouldn't want to fool him or myself into thinking it could be anywhere near what me and...him...had. It was a short drive to La Push where I knew Jake would be waiting for me. Rain or shine he always was. Something was different about today though. I wasn't sure what, but I could feel it.

I pulled into the driveway and Jake was no where to be found. My hear immediately fell. What was wrong? What was going on here? I whipped my head around searching for my sunshine. For the giant smile to be spread across his face. The one thing that kept me feeling alive. I searched and searched. And Jake was no where to be found. I finally got out of the truck to knock on the door. I leaned to jump out of the truck when I felt my knees go out from underneath me. I was going to fall flat on my face into gravel.

Right before I could get acquainted with Jakes driveway, warm strong arms caught me. I was dazed and started to thrash until I realized who it was. Jake. My personal oxygen source himself. I stopped fighting him and threw my arms around his waist. It had been a few days since I saw Jake last. And I could have sworn he grew. Again. He was well over six foot. I felt like a doll next to him.
He hugged me back tight. I loved my time with Jake. It made me feel almost normal again. Almost.

"Hey Bells!"

"Jake! Oh, I've missed you!"

"It's only been three days Bella."

"Oh...well...yeah."

"You can be so odd sometimes."

I had to frown at that. Not because it was offending, but because it was true. I knew that what I had gone through didn't only hurt me, but it hurt Jake as well. And I tried really hard not to let him see me at my worst. It didn't always work that way. But I did try. And he never seemed to mind. Jake was so simple to be around that it was almost comical. He never judged me and he never pushed me to talk about things I didn't want to.

Sometimes it almost seemed he could read my mind. He knew things about me I had never told anyone. And at times he would even finish my sentences. It always made me smile when I would notice things like that. I was so lucky to have someone like Jake in my life. And I would never let him go.