Title: Keep It Together (1/?)
Author:
Morgan
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Disclaimer: These characters aren't mine
and I'm just borrowing them for a while.
Summary: I'm not
good at the whole summary thing...something's up with Jessie but she
won't tell anyone what it is?
Author's Note: This is my
first ever fan fic - I've never attempted writing one. So, I
apologize in advance if it totally sucks. But I would really love
some feedback as to whether or not you guys want me to continue this
story. thanks
"What are you thinking?" Jessie inquired of her Billie.
Katie hesitated before she answered. Jessie grew concerned, but before she could say anything else, Katie interrupted her thoughts.
"I love you" Katie stated while staring directly into Jessie's eyes.
Jessie's worry left right away, and she felt like she could fly.
"I am so in love with you" Jessie replied as she leaned in and kissed the love of her life.
But that was two months ago. Jessie hadn't spoken to Katie in nearly a month, and it'd been the worst month ever. She knew it was her fault, but she still tried to convincer herself that it was for the best. She lied there on her bed in the attic staring at the ceiling when she heard her name being yelled.
"Jessie!"
Grace started to get annoyed, and yelled again as she walked up the stairs to Jessie's room.
"Jess!" she yelled again.
"What?" Jessie finally answered back.
Grace came into her room, and stared at her pitiful stepsister. They'd actually grown pretty close now, and this was another attempt by Grace to get Jessie out of the house.
"Hey brat" Grace said jokingly "Zoe, you, and me are going to get out for dinner since mom and Rick are going out by themselves, and well, your cooking skills kinda suck...What are you in the mood for?"
Jessie thought about it for a second and answered "How about Friday's?"
Grace was surprised by the lack of argument coming from Jessie, but decided not to look a gift horse in the mouth.
"Sound fine to me - I know Zoe likes it, too." Grace said as she eyed Jessie's hair and face. Then she added, "Why don't you wash up and get ready and we'll go when you come downstairs? I bet it's pretty busy since it's Saturday night"
Jessie ignored the obvious attack at her lack of grooming and said fine.
She jumped into the shower and let the cool water run down her face. The water had a mesmerizing effect on her. She heard a man's voice "no one will know and love you like I do" Jessie snapped out of it and washed her hair. She got out of the shower and was almost finished blow drying her hair when she just started crying uncontrollably.
"Jess!" Yelled Zoe "You almost ready? I'm starved!"
Jess calmed herself "Yeah, Zoe, just give me one second" Jessie stared at her reflection in the mirror and said to herself. "No. I can keep it together." Jessie ran up to her room and threw on a pair of low ride jeans, some heals, a cute shirt, and added a little make up.
Just as she was walking down the stairs Grace started to call "Jes.."
But she was interrupted by Jessie "I'm here - I'm here!"
"Great" Said Zoe "Let's go" but then Zoe paused and stared at Jessie "Hey, you look awesome Jessie"
"Yeah you do" Grace agreed then added only half serious "except for my hair clip"
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As the girls finished ordering their food Jessie asked Zoe about school and that filled up the conversation for a while as Zoe explained about her horrible teacher who didn't understand why dissecting frogs was wrong. Just as Jessie was going to ask a follow up question they were interrupted.
"Hey Jessie" A boy said to them and Jessie soon recognized him as Josh from her homeroom.
"Oh, hey" she replied "It's Josh, right?"
"Yeah": he answered obviously please that she remembered his name.
Jessie realized that Grace and Zoe hadn't said anything since this dark haired blue eyed boy interrupted them.
"Oh" Jessie continued "This is Zoe and you probably recognize Grace from school"
"Yeah, hey" he said to both of them and they replied the same.
Josh looked at a group of his friends who were ready to head out the door. "Well, it seems like my friends are getting impatient, but, um..." he looked extremely nervous but finally managed to ask "I was wondering if you would go out with me tomorrow? To a movie or a hockey game or wherever" He said obviously embarrassed and anxious for her answer.
Jessie thought quickly of Katie, and how much she missed her and couldn't stop thinking about her.
Jessie suddenly answered "Yeah, I'd love to" as she wrote her number on a napkin and handed it to him.
"Great" Josh answered excitedly "I'll call you later and we'll decide where to go"
"OK, see ya"
"Bye"
Zoe couldn't contain herself any longer. "That is so cool!" She's said "He's a hottie and hockey sounds like fun"
Jessie didn't agree about the hockey, but she looked at Grace who had a sort of look of shock on her face. "Well, if this is what Jessie needs, then I'm happy for her" Grace thought to herself.
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Josh had called and they'd decided on going for a picnic in the park tomorrow afternoon. Jessie thought it was such a cute idea, and definitely much better than a hockey game.
Josh rang the doorbell at exactly 1PM. He was greeted by Lily and house full of chaos as Eli, Zoe, and Grace were playing Monopoly and Rick was in the backyard working on something.
Grace ran to get Jessie "Jessie!" she yelled "Josh is here!"
Jessie walked downstairs with her hair half up/half down and with a few stray curls falling around her face framing it. She wore a very cure white blouse and a jean skirt with some sandals.
"Thanks Grace" Jessie told her sister "See ya later"
"Have Fun!" Grace said with a smile playing at the corners of her mouth.
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Josh had brought a picnic basket, lunch, and a CD player.
They ate and chatted about everything from school to the her JV soccer team. They both liked soccer. Jessie didn't recognize the music playing, but she found herself enjoying it. It fir the mood of the day perfectly. She was just commenting on what a gorgeous day it was when Josh slowly leaned in and kissed her.
It was very sweet and they broke apart soon after.
"Sorry" Josh mumbled shyly.
"No, it's OK" Jessie assured replied and kissed him.
They went on chatting until late in the afternoon finally leaving after they watched the sunset.
It had been a great day, and Jessie tried to convince herself that it was perfect.
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The next day in school Jessie felt different. She walked into homeroom, and she saw that Josh was saving a seat for her. She hesitated in the doorway, but finally sat down next to him.
"This is right" she thought to herself trying to ignore the nagging feeling of guilt she'd had since the night before. "Katie isn't mine anymore" Jess thought desperately wishing she could forget the feeling gave her.
Later that afternoon as Jessie was getting changed in the locker room she saw two girls headed her way.
"Hey Jessie" One of them called to her "I saw you yesterday in the park looking very cozy with Josh Summers"
This got the attention of everyone left in the locker room and Jessie felt like she wanted to die. She knew Katie would be here any minute for varsity practice and she's wanted to get out early.
"Uh" Jessie stammered
Suddenly she was surrounded by a group of people laughing happily and demanding to know more from her.
"So" The same girl continued "How good of a kisser is he? Looked pretty good to me"
Jessie turned bright red, and as she finished pulling on her sock and shoe she looked up and saw two bright emerald green eyes staring back at her.
Jessie was stunned -- Katie had heard everything.
Katie fled the locker room out onto the field as Jessie finally made her way though the crowd of noisy girls who had gone back to getting ready.
"Katie! Wait!" Jessie yelled as long legged beauty started to run laps around the field. Jessie finally caught up with her. They both stopped and looked at each other trying to regain their normal breathing.
Jessie looked at the taller girl and saw the effort it was taking her to fight back her tears.
"Katie, I... " Jessie started softly trying to keep it together
Katie looked at her and blurted out "Jess, I miss you"
Katie then added quickly "And I can't stop thinking about you - God, I wish I could but..."She stopped talking and looked down at her feet.
That was the last thing Jessie had expected her to say. She thought she would be angry or yell at her or something...Jessie wished that's what would have happened - maybe that would've been easier than answering this honest confession.
"I'm sorry" Jessie said trying with all her might not to scream that she loved and missed her, too.
"Katie" Jessie started again " I do miss your friendship. I'm so sorry that you're hurting, that's the last thing I want, but it really is for the best - I'm sure."
Katie looked like someone had slapped her in the face "My friendship?" Katie thought bitterly.
"Jessie, please, just talk to me" Katie pleaded with her "Why won't you tell me what's really going on?"
"I have" Jessie managed to answer. Before Katie could saying anything else Jessie ran off the field. She ran passed a group of girls who were obviously coming to start practice.
Grace saw Jessie run past them and yelled after her, but her sister kept running. Grace followed her back into the now empty locker room.
"Jessie! Stop!" Grace yelled as her sister looked ready to bolt"
Jessie paused and looked at Grace with tears in her eyes.
Grace grew more concerned
"What's wrong?" She demanded "What happened?"
"Nothing" Jessie answered "I just want to get out of here"
Grace thought about her team out on the field practicing and looked at her little sister who was obviously in pain.
"Okay" Grace answered" Just give me a second to throw on my clothes and I'll take you anywhere you want to go"
Jess nodded silently.
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I guess TBC if anyone thinks I should...
