Sirius Black. He is known all over the school for his good looks and charm. Every girl wants him and every guy wants to be him. I am no exception. Every time I look at him I get butterflies in my stomach and weak in the knees. The way his hair falls into his eyes, his smile, everything about him is wonderful. Yet I could never have him. I mean, there isn't a girlfriend stopping me, it's just the fact that he would never date a girl like me. I'm not skinny like the girls he dates, but I'm not fat. And I'm not especially gorgeous. I'm sure my best friend, Lily Evans, would beg to differ, but she's got half the guys at school drooling after her, including one of my other best friends, James Potter.
He's been after her for three years, yet I don't think he seems to get it into his head that she doesn't like him. Don't get me wrong, he's a great guy, one of the best, but he's very persistent, in an annoying way. I've known him since we were five (as well as Sirius), and he like a brother to me, which is why he doesn't know about my infatuation with Sirius. The only problem is that Lily is my best friend; my only friend except for James and his friends, which includes Sirius, Remus Lupin and Peter Pettigrew. Peter, well, I don't really talk to him seeing as he really freaks me out. Remus on the other hand, is a really sweet guy. He is very quiet, but very nice and funny, unlike James and Sirius, who are loud and annoying a lot of the time.
Anyways, with James constantly chasing Lily, it's really hard for me to choose sides. Of course I never have, I talk to the both of them, but it is getting very tiring. Hopefully this year she'll get over herself and actually go out with him. It IS our last year. It'll all turn out well, I know.
"Kanika, are you ready? You have to leave in five minutes!" I heard my mother yell from downstairs with her Spanish accent.
My mother is Spanish, as you can tell, but my father in Indian, hence my name. Both my parents are pureblood, but my mother thinks more of it than my father. She's one of those people, like Sirius's mother, who believe that muggles are dirt and of course she supports Lord Voldemort. I don't agree with her seeing as my best friend is a muggle, and I don't think my father or my brothers do either. Both my brothers are older and in Auror training. They're so lucky not to be in the wrath of my mother.
"I'm coming!" I yelled downstairs in response.
It was taking me forever to hurriedly pack my stuff into my trunk and take it downstairs. I forgot to pack everything last night so I threw most of it in this morning. I quickly levitated my things downstairs where my mother was standing at the bottom glaring at me.
"What?" I asked looking her straight in the eyes.
"Kani, I don't want you talking to that boy in your year."
"Which one?" I snorted
"Sirius Black, or any of his friends for that matter. He is a blood traitor and doesn't deserve to be talking to someone like you," she said confidently.
"Ma, I'm not going to stop talking to my friends."
"Well, they are all exactly like him. A no good muggle loving scum bag," she spat. I could feel my face getting warm and tears forming in my eyes, but I wasn't going to cry in front of her. I quickly gathered my things and took them to the car, where my father was waiting to drive me to the train station. As we drove, I could feel his gaze upon me.
"Dad, I'm fine," I said unstably.
"I know you're not," he replied in his soft, mellow voice.
"Dad, she can't tell me what to do. I'm of age now, and practically on my own. After this year I'm gone. She can't tell me who my friends are or aren't. She just … " I didn't know how to express my anger without upsetting my father, which I didn't really feel like doing at the moment.
"Kanika, you know your mother's beliefs are her own. I don't want you to listen to her, I know they are your friends," he said. I gave him a small smile," Plus I know how you feel about that Sirius boy."
He gave me a small smirk, while I blushed a deep crimson.
When we arrived at the station, my father and I rushed to Platform 9 ¾. I said a quick good bye and ran very fast through the barrier. A little too fast. I fell down, wondering what bone I had broken, when I heard another voice.
"Bloody hell Rai," said a deep, husky voice. I knew who it was right away.
"I'm sorry Sirius. I went too fast through the barrier," I said as I got up to my feet.
"No worries. I just came here to look for you. The train is going to leave any minute know and Lily was getting worried," he said as he grabbed my things and led me onto the train.
As we were getting to the compartment, I couldn't help but wonder why Sirius hadn't cracked any of his wise jokes. Was there something wrong with him? 'I hope he's okay', I thought to myself.
Sirius led me into the compartment where everyone as seated.
"Kani, I haven't seen you all summer! How are you?" I heard a squeal. I knew it was Lily as I was engulfed into an enormous hug.
"Hey Lily! My summer was okay. How was yours?" I asked with a smile. It felt great to be back with my friends.
"Just peachy. I spent very waking moment getting ready for Petunia's stupid wedding, and then I got here and was stuck in this compartment for half an hour with these imbeciles," Lily said pressing a smile.
"Where's James?" I asked.
"Right here," he said behind me, scaring the living daylight out of me.
"Jaime, you bastard, you scared me," I said as I turned around and gave him a hug. All he did in reply was give that famous crooked grin.
"Well, I'm off to the Heads' compartment," Lily said as she stood up and walked out. It was no surprise, seeing as she is a great overachiever.
"Same here," James said as he quickly left, as if he were trying to avoid something. I froze. What did he just say?
"Shocking, I know," Sirius said," James is Head Boy."
"Are you kidding me? What did Lily say? Why didn't I know about this?" I asked as I sat down next to Sirius, across from Peter and Remus.
"They started talking during the summer, and Lily said she's be friends with him. James sat at his desk all summer sending letters back and forth to her," Remus explained.
"It was bloody annoying," Sirius said shaking his head. I laughed in response.
In the time that Lily and James were gone, Remus, Sirius and I talked about our summers and much more. I've known about Remus' condition since fifth year, and about the other three being animagi since last year, so they told me about all of their adventures. Sirius seemed very aloof during the conversation about our vacations. I'm going to have to ask James about that.
"Hey, Kani, can I talk to you?" James asked once he and Lily returned.
"Sure," I answered as I walked out knowing exactly what we would be discussing, Lily.
"James, why didn't you tell me about you and Lily becoming friends over the summer?" I asked once we were in the hallway.
"I didn't bring you here to discuss Lily."
"Still, you could tell me, " I said crossing my arms over my chest.
"Later."
"Then what?" I asked impatiently.
"I know," he said with a smirk.
"What do you know?" I asked cautiously.
"I know who you like," he said as if he had been transported back to second year.
"Oh really? And how did this come about?"
"Well, I happened to be thinking one night," I snorted," and it dawned on me how you go out of your way to be noticed by Siri-"
I covered his mouth with me hand.
"James, please don't tell anyone. Lily is the only other person who knows, and I plan to keep it that way," I plead.
"Well, someone else knows," he said ruffling his hair.
"Who?" I asked with my eyes wide
"Remus. He figured it out and asked me about it after I figured it out," James said.
"Well, make sure he doesn't ell. I don't need half the school beating me down because of it," I said referring to the female population of Hogwarts.
"Don't worry, I won't. Just be careful okay?" he said looking me straight in the eyes. I raised my eyebrow.
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"I know Sirius is my best friend, but he can do some really stupid things. I just don't want you to get hurt," he said softly.
"Aw, thanks James. I promise I won't," I said as I gave him a hug," So, what is this I hear about you being Head Boy?"
"I have no clue what Dumbledore was thinking," he said laughing at my brilliant subject change.
"I'm happy you did though. You are still Quidditch captain right?" I asked eagerly. I couldn't wait to start the new season. I played chaser, and I had been practicing all summer with my dad and brother Shawn when he was home.
"Yeah. You are playing this year right?' he asked me quizzically. I shot him death glares.
"Of course I am. I've been training all summer with my dad and Shawn. I'm so ready," I said enthusiastically.
"Well, it's good to see someone excited," he laughed.
"What do you mean? Are you not excited?"
"I am, its just … never mind. We should go back, we'll be there soon," he said as he walked back towards the compartment door. I knew this had something to do with Sirius and I was going to figure out exactly what it was.
It had been a week into school and we were already swamped with homework. The teachers had told us they were going to be tough in order to prepare us for NEWTS. Lily, Remus and I are in all the same classes, while James and Sirius are in all but our arithmancy class. The copious amount of homework is going to get even worse when quidditch season starts, I can feel it.
"Hey Lily, what are you doing?" I said as I sat down next to Lily in the library.
"Hey. I'm trying to figure out this problem, but I just can't get it," she said as she ran her hand through her hair. She only did that when she was frustrated.
"Let me see it," I said as I took the arithmancy problem out of her hands. I quickly scanned over the problem she was working on," Oh, here, let me show you."
Arithmancy is my best subject, so I quickly explained to her how to do the problem.
"Thanks Kani," she said as she went back to her homework.
"Hey, Lily, what made you finally become friends with James?" I whispered.
"Kani, why are you whispering?" she asked with a smile.
"I have no idea," I smiled back.
"Well, I'm not sure. He wrote me over the summer and told me that he was sorry for constantly annoying me, and that he hoped I would forgive him. He seemed really sincere, so I forgave him. He then sent me another letter, which I informed him was annoying, and he asked if we could be friends, and I said yes," she said. She didn't look up from her books once.
"Really?" I spoke matter of factly.
"Yes, why?"
"No reason," I said as I looked down at the table.
"Kani, what is it?" she asked trying to look me straight in the eyes.
"I think you like him," I said looking her straight back with a huge grin on my face.
"Oh really. Now what make you think that?" she replied in a cold tone.
"Well, every time you guys leave for patrolling you always have a huge smile plastered on your face. Then, when we're in class sometimes, I see you looking in his direction. And you're always talking to him during meal times."
"So, that means that I'm just trying to be friendly," she spoke shaking her head.
"Yeah, then explain why you're always staring at him. ALWAYS. There is never a time when you two are in the same room and you are not staring at him," I challenged her.
"Well, I ..." she didn't answer me. All she did was turn a deep red," Fine, I do like him. I mean, yeah, we've only been on friendly terms for a couple months, but in that time I've learned a lot about him, and I like it. It's not my fault."
I squealed with delight. I jumped out of my chair and hugged her so tightly it is a miracle that she didn't die.
"Please quiet down!" demanded the librarian. I didn't want to listen, I was so overjoyed.
"Lily, why didn't you tell me?"
"What are you talking about? I just did," she said started to pack up her belongings.
"No, I had to pry it out of you," I said as I stood up putting my hand on my hip.
"Well, now you finally know," she said with a smile. I just shook my head. That was Lily for you. Just so simple and general, never giving you more than you ask for.
"Hey Lily, lover boy is over there trying to figure out how to get your attention without pissing you off. I suggest you go over there before he makes a bloody wanker of himself," Sirius said, as he stood next to the table we were seated at.
"Well, I think he already has," I said as I pointed over to James. James was hiding behind a bookshelf pretending to read a book, and looking over at the table very indiscreetly. This made us all laugh.
"I'll go talk to him," Lily said as she picked up her belongings and walked over to James.
"He's hopeless," I said as I shook my head and Sirius sat down.
"Not as hopeless as her," he said pointing towards Lily. I looked over and saw her giggling at his every word. It was sickening.
"You are correct," I said disgustedly," So, Sirius, what brings you to the Library?"
"James and his hopelessness. And I'm bored," he said.
"Really? Well, that makes two of us," I sighed.
"Yeah," he said as he stared off into nowhere.
"Sirius are you okay?"
"Yeah, why wouldn't I?" he said defensively.
"I don't know. You just seem really away, like something's on your mind. You've been like that since the train. I just wasn't sure-"
"Yeah, you weren't sure. That's what you should pay attention to. Just mind your own business," he sad as he raised his voice and left. I could feel tears welling up in my eyes. Everyone in the library had turned their heads to see what all the commotion was about, even Lily and James. I quickly stood up and ran off.
A/N: Okay, so a new story. This one is a little different that the rest, seeing as it's a Sirius/OC story. Anyways, this one doesn't have much of Peter in it, just this chapter, and maybe a couple of others. Please review!
