Author's note: hi, this is my Fanfiction pre-quell for Javert's star. its a past to Alyssandra.
i do not own anything except for Alyssandra, the anonymous woman, the bar people, Alyssandra's brother and the story line.
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Alyssandra POV
I had been Javert's best friend since birth, she could tell when he was hiding something. And at the moment he was hiding something from her. He rarely acted this way but when he did she always helped him through it. Lately Javert had been spending a lot of time in the forest, and he never invited me to come with him anymore.
Javert and I had always gone with each other everywhere and even now at the age of 20 we were still like two peas in a pod.
I had always loved Javert but no matter what i said or how hard i tried he never seemed to notice or care. Javert had always flirted with the other women in the village but those relationships never got past the point of Javert saying something stupid and the girl being offended which was about 10 minutes. Even though they never lasted each relationship struck me to the bone and I learnt never to get my hopes up but I couldn't help it.
One day I decided to follow him into the woods to see what he was up to. But oh god I wished I hadn't.
Javert walked into the clearing where he embraced a good looking young woman with a kiss. I watched as he lent down on one knee and pulled a ring box. My heart broke and I swear you could hear it. I ran from the forest as fast as I could, tears running down my face. As I ran home it started raining. I fell into a heap on the wet pavement.
"On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me
In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever
And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us
I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers
I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
Without me
His world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known
I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own" I sang until my lungs hurt and tears ran down my face.
