Disclaimer: I don't own them. Unfortunately the tools over at ABC do. No infringement intended.
Author's Note: Just a one shot, but I do have another story in the works. Hopefully I will get the first chapter posted later today.
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I know I owe you an apology and an explanation, but I also know that you don't want either. See, I was wrong—I do know you, Callie. I probably know you better than I know myself, but that's just not enough.
What I said to you were words of hurt and anger. Not at you in particular, but the entire situation. I didn't need for you to agree with me or understand what I was feeling, but I did need you to be on my side, to just be there for me. I needed us to be a real team, solid in our relationship. I realize now, that would have never happened.
We are at two different places in life. I am ready for it all. I am ready for forever with someone and as much as I wanted that someone to be you, I had to be honest with myself—its not what you wanted. I couldn't keep being second best in your life; Second best to Seattle Grace, second best to Izzie Stevens of all people and second best to Mark Sloan.
I am not sure where life will take me. I am thinking about a move to Mass Gen. A friend of mine is chief there. It would be a new beginning for me. A chance to leave the pain of Seattle behind, but then again Seattle is what I know. I just don't know what to do.
Maybe someday our paths will cross again and maybe that time we will get it right. I don't know, but one thing I do know—with everything I had, I loved you. No I am wrong again…with everything I have, I still love you.
I wish you well Callie,
Erica
