AN: This is the Sequel to my other story called I'm Not Giving Up On You. I suggest you read that one first to keep up with the story. Now I give you:
What Do We Do Now?
Chapter 1 – Saturday Morning
Kensi pov
I woke up and I felt the sunlight hitting my face. Slowly I opened my eyes and I quickly realized I was not in my bedroom and neither was I alone. I felt the tight grip around my waist and then I looked down, beneath warm blankets and soft sheets, I couldn't hold back the gasp the escaped my lips when I saw what my outfit was: I was on my birth suit.
I looked over my shoulder carefully to find a very sleepy Deeks twitching his nose, his scars didn't look so bad with the smile he had on his face. Once again I looked at the window and started remembering last night.
I kissed him and caught him off guard right after pouring my heart out so I apologized. But he grabbed me when I started walking away and made me look at him so he could tell me I didn't have to be sorry. And out of nowhere he kissed me…with all his power and passion and…it simply happened.
I have to admit though, it was better than any dream either of us could've ever had. It was…magical, lovely…crazy mostly!
All the time I was worried with his injuries but he kept reassuring me he was fine. So we made love. We made the most careful and honest love I've ever made.
But now I was panicking because I didn't know what the hell we were supposed to do now! Four kisses throughout all these years were enough for a night like this one to happen but… What are we going to do now? I needed some time to figure it out…
Yeah… That's it! It's Saturday, maybe 10 in the morning, if I go now I'll still have the whole weekend to figure my entangled thoughts out. First I just need to-, I thought but when I started thinking about getting away and tried to let go of Deeks' grip he only tightened it.
"Sunshine…" He called me in a whisper. I froze and started to freak out, in a blink of an eye I was sitting in his bed wrapped up in the sheet looking at the ground in front of me. Deeks must have sensed how afraid I was because a second after he was standing right next to me with an arm around my shoulders trying to help me out but I could feel he was almost as freaked out as I was. "Kens I…" It was all he managed to say.
I got up completely naked and grabbed all my clothes before running to bathroom and locking the door behind me. Then I leaned against the door and let myself slide until I was sitting on the floor with my face buried in my hands. What the hell did we do?, I kept thinking to myself.
On the other side of the door I could hear him almost whispering. I knew he had run after me. I knew he was outside sitting on the floor just like me. He was trying to convince me to open the door so we could talk and figure things out… Honestly, I didn't feel like talking now, I ran to bathroom exactly to avoid talking. But this was Deeks…
Deeks pov
"Kens please open the door. Let me in… just…open the door Kensi please. Let's talk and figure this out." I tried to get her out of the bathroom but she wanted to be alone.
God, what did I do? I ruined my chances of ever be with her… I screwed up!, I thought to myself. Sitting there outside the door I couldn't help but think how good the night had been.
Kensi was so worried about me, I thought she wasn't even enjoying it but then I reassured her I was not in pain and she seemed to relax a bit. I have to admit I wasn't completely comfortable but I didn't mind because I was with Kensi. And it was worthy because in the end of the night I could lay down and hold her in a way I hadn't hold any other girl before. I think no one else in the world had hold like that before, not even Jack, and I'm glad I could show her how I feel.
The last thing I remember is falling asleep with my fingers intertwined with hers, our hands fitting together as perfectly as if they had been made for each other.
But after all this little moments, the last thing I would expect from Kensi was a nice talk. Honestly I knew she was going to freak out. So now that she did freak out I have to make her talk, make her understand that I love her, that I'm in for the long run if she's with me. I want her for myself, I can't let her try to find happiness with some other guy when I know I can make her happy. I can.
"Kens, we have to talk, please let me talk to you…" I tried once again. She has to give me a chance, it's not like she can ignore me forever, right?
Still, I had no answer. Instead I heard her moving inside the bathroom and realized she was getting dressed. Then I heard the door being unlocked and I jumped out of there and stood waiting for her as I leaned against the wall.
Kensi opened the door (finally!) and got out. She looked at me and without saying a word I knew she was scared. I saw her mismatched eyes red from the tears that were still sliding down her cheek. "Can we talk Kens?" I stepped forward and tried to hold her hand but she wouldn't let me.
She looked at the ground and mouthed, "I'm sorry Deeks…" Again with the apologizing…I had told her she didn't need to be sorry about us, because I'm not either. But then I understood why she was saying sorry. I understood when she let my apartment running in her high heels and her beautiful black dress that she had worn on one of the best nights of my life. Fuck., I thought.
Now I needed to wait for her to clear her head before I could try to talk to her. I guess I needed to clear mine as well so I decided to go to the beach and surf for a while.
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Kensi pov
Finally I managed to get home in little time and I ran in to take a cold shower to try and clear my head. It felt great after these last hours. I don't know how long I was there but when I got out I looked in the mirror and my lips were purple due to the cold water.
I put on my sweatpants and one of my tank tops. I felt like I should talk to someone, maybe Nell, but I couldn't call her now. After last night she must have gone home with Eric. Their nerd dance was too steamy for them not to enjoy it after.
My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of my phone. For a moment I thought it was Deeks trying to talk to me about last night but when I took it out of my purse the caller ID was Nell's. What the heck?
"Hey Nell, what's up?"
"Kens, it's so good to hear you. I think we need to talk…" She said and I could feel she was a little more than worried.
"About what?" I asked.
"I-uh… I went home with Eric last night." Nell almost whispered. "And now I'm freaking out! I came home now and I left him there with his mouth agape. Can I come over your house?" She asked. Where have I seen that before?, I thought.
"Wow! Yeah, you can come… I wanted to talk to you anyway."
"About what?" She repeated my question from just seconds before.
"Just…come over. Quickly." I almost begged.
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Hey!
So here's the promised sequel to my first story. This is a short chapter, I know, but I promise (if you want me to continue) I will post longer chapters.
Your thoughts will be welcomed,
Rita
