Hey Ya'll, this came to me in inspiration through a song. It's based on Kelly Clarkson's "Behind These Hazel Eyes" and I think it shows how Squirrelflight felt when she was fighting with Brambleclaw. I changed hazel to emerald, because Squirrelflight has emerald eyes. I also changed a couple words to apply to cats, rather than people. This is my first songfic so be nice. Disclaimer: I do not own Warriors: The New Prophecy or the song.
Squirrelflight's POV
I looked at him, feeling as if I saw a side of him never seen before. How could he be so one-sided toward kittypets? My father started out as a kittypet and look at the great leader he is now. Clearly, he didn't care about the people he stepped on to make himself look better. In that moment, I felt as if we could never be together and it tore me up inside. I needed to go on a walk by myself and try to clear my troubled thoughts.
I looked out at the shimmering waters of the lake in the last moments of the sunset. I couldn't bring myself to move from the bank. It was so peaceful here, where I knew I wouldn't be able to avoid confrontation if I went back to the camp. On the other hand, I knew that some cat would come looking for me, or at least me worried that I wasn't back yet. Right now, I didn't really care. If a cat could cry, my eyes would be red and swollen from endless crying by now and it wouldn't have stopped yet.
I knew I needed to get my feelings out of the way. It would only give him the satisfaction of knowing how he ripped my heart out and stamped on it, to leave it there without picking it up.
I have absolutely no idea why, but in that moment I started to sing.
Oh, uh, oh, oh
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
You wrapped around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Care tonight and pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these emerald eyes
I told you, we're the thing
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now, all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be,
So together
But so broken up inside
Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Care tonight and pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these emerald eyes
Swallow me, then spittin' me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
No, I don't cry
On the outside
Anymore
Anymore
Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Care tonight and pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these emerald eyes
Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Care tonight and pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these emerald eyes
I let the last notes linger and they seemed to echo off the water. I knew now, that I could go back. I could face him and show him how strong I am, stronger than him. I took a deep breath and turned around. I could do this.
