Bella's POV

After breaking up with Jake, my whole world fell apart. All I could feel was the worst heartache ever. I loved him so much. Our relationship hadn't been easy. Specially because of all of Jacob's problems. He lost his mum when we started dating 3 years ago. Since then I was the one who hared him and hummed him to sleep some nights. I wasn't only his girlfriend. I was more than that. Or at least that was what I thought.

Since his mother died he hadn't had the easiest times, to say. He was very attached to her and losing her broke him in a way that was really hard to know. Only he knew how deep his pain was. So since that happened I spend most of the time trying to be there for him and trying to help him not to fall apart. My mum used to say that it wasn't my job to do that, that if Jake was so depressed he should go to a doctor or something. But the truth was that when he wasn't depressed he was a very funny guy and that was I liked the most about him.

The last 6 or 7 month he had improved. He didn't cry that much and I though that he was getting better until he broke up with me. That made me understand that he didn't need me anymore and that all I have been for him was his "medical help". And the worst part was that I couldn't even feel relived. I was somehow happy that he didn't need me any more.

But all that was all gone, I needed to start packing my things so that I could go to New Haven, which I hope was going to become my own personal haven. A place where I could start all over with no old boyfriends on the sight or anything that remind me of all those things that I didn't know I love that much.

On the other hand I was really very much exited about going to New Haven and starting my degree in English literature; it was what made want to wake up every morning since my final conversation with Jake. Specially because it meant a new start.

My mum Renée wasn't that happy about me moving out to the other side of the country. We had been together all by our self since I was 4 when Charlie, my dad, died while he was on service. He was a police officer. The first few months my mom cried for him every day. But she could recover very well. She has a very strong and juvenile spirit. That was what made her move on and the fact that there was still me.

Since then I had been her reason of existence. Since then it had been just us. So me moving out was a very big step for our relationship and a very big change in both of us lives. Anyway she still had Phil. He was her fiancé and he mad her very happy. I was 100% sure he would keep her feed and will take care of her and all the things that I did when I wouldn't there. He was moving in after I leave. That was the only thought that kept me calm every time I thought of leaving Renée alone.

I left my suitcase near to my door after I finish packing my things. Tomorrow would be a long day. I had a not that short flight to Connecticut and then all the unpacking thing that was the worst part of arriving to a new place.

That night, during dinner, Renée gave me the whole "when you go to live by your self" speech and asked me to caller right after I got to my room in campus like 100 times. I could see that she was terrified but at this point there was nothing else I could do but try to convince her that I would be ok and that my life there wasn't going to be that different from what it was in Phoenix. Of course I knew it wasn't true but at least that would keep her calm. I had also used the "It'll make me forget about Jacob" speech like 3 or 4 times and that was her favourite and mine also. Apart from me she was one of the persons that suffer the most when Jacob broke up with me. Of course she hated seeing me crying for over the last 2 months.

When I went to sleep that night all had in my head was how was it going to be being in my new place and how much longer would it take me to finally get Jacob out of my head. I really wished it wasn't that much longer. It wasn't in me to get that depressed, specially over a guy. Like my mum I had a really strong mind, but somehow I just couldn't help it and I really heated it.

I woke up trying to get mentally ready for a two-day-long trip. It was the cheapest and more direct flights that we could get. I had 2 stops, one in Denver and the other one in Detroit. The airport in Phoenix was really crowded so it took Renée and I 30 minutes to get to the gate I was supposed to walk in. That only gave us 10 minutes to say good bye, promised I will call and all that kind of things that people do in airports.

When I finally got to New Haven I felt like if I've been travelling along the country sited on a wood chair instead of a plain sit. All I wanted to do was lie on my bed and sleep until Monday. So I walked into my bed room and saw that my roommates had already got there. Of course, I though, I bet they didn't have to sleep in the airport of Denver.

"Good you're here. How was your trip? Was it long? What's your name? I'm Alice Cullen and she's Rosalie Hale. We were waiting for you so that we could choose our bed." All I could though was "Hi I'm Bella Swan. Can I have the bed with the window?" "Sure, the bed with the window it's yours."

Edward's POV

After breaking up with Tanya I swore I would never had any other kind of relationship with any other girl. She was always so needy, so impossible of satisfy…hm… She really was a pain in the ass most of the time. Even I was surprise I haven't dump her before. She was the worst pain in the ass I have ever had.

I was also very happy that it was finally time to go to college. I had got into Yale University and was very prude of it. Not that I was the first in my family to get there, not at all. My dad study medicine there, my elder brother Emmett was there too and my twin sister Alice had got in, just like me. But the truth was that I wanted to get the hell out of Chicago as soon as possible so I didn't have to see Tanya's face anymore.

The night before Alice and I leave to New Haven, our mum, Esme, cried during the whole dinner. If it would have been someone else I would have slapped her on the face after the first five minuets. But she was mum and I adore her just as much as she adores all of us.

Only she and my dad knew how hard it was for her to conceived Alice and me even though she was very young. It took her 4 years after Emmett. So we were her "most precious gift from heaven" as she like to call us.

It was specially hard for her to les us go. We were still babies for her and, what was most important, after we would leave, she and my dad would be alone again. We 3 had already promised to get back home for thanksgiving and Christmas holidays but still... It wasn't the same that having us there all the time.

The only thing that would leave my siblings and me relived was the fact that she was going to start working again, after 23 years. She left decoration right after she got pregnant with Emmett and we all knew that she missed it but, as she always said, we were the most important thing in the world for her and she wanted to be there for us anytime we needed it.

My dad was a different story. He always supported us but he also let us made our own mistakes, like with Tanya. He thought that the best way of learning some things was like that. He was also very proud and happy that we had all gotten into the same university than him. That was the only thing that he kind of obligated us to do.

That night, Esme went to my room, still crying, to kiss me goodnight like if I were 5 years old. I couldn't help to tell her "Mum, please stop crying. It's getting on my nerves. I promise you we would be just fine. I would take care of Alice like I always do and I'll try to get Emmett into more study. So please cut it out."

She hugged me still with tears in her eyes and whispered to my ear "I know you will, honey, you have always been the responsible one. I love you" "love you too, mum".

Al about 3 AM Alice came to my room "Edward, are you awake?" "What do you want, Alice? Can't you let me sleep?" "Sorry, I just couldn't sleep" I sit on my bed and saw her heading the door "Alice, what is it?" She turn and, spite of the little moonlight that came from my window, I could see desperation in her eyes. So I tapped my hand on the bet letting her see that she could sit there.

She almost run to my bed and started crying while she hugged me "Shh, babe" I couldn't help being sweet with my sister. "What is it?" Did you see mum tonight, Edward? I couldn't bear to see her face. Almost made me wanted to stay." "No, Alice. You already know her. She's all too emotional. She will be fine. As soon as we're out of here she will start working again and that will keep her head busy. You don't have to worry about her." "Are you sure? ...Yep, you're provably right. Sorry I woke you up" "Sure, no problem. Any time" Couldn't help being sarcastic and as soon as I did it I regretted it.

Suddenly Alice looked at me like when she had discovered something and I knew I was screwed. "You weren't sleeping. You couldn't sleep either because you're exited too about leaving to college. I knew it. You know you can't hide things from me. I know you like if I were your twin." She always joked like that and, yes, she always knew what was going on in my head. I doubted that someone would ever know me as well as she did. But I knew her as well too and always made me feel a little better. Sometimes was like if I could read her mind. "That's why you've been avoiding me lately. You didn't want anyone to know. You were acting all like if you didn't care but you do. I knew it Edward." "Ok, ok you got me. Now go to sleep and let me catch some too. Tomorrow will be a long day and we need to stay awake. Ok? Beside how are you gonna let your poor roommate deaf if you're to tired to talk?" "Ha, ha. Fine, I'll leave. But you will pay for that one bro. See ya."

When Carlisle came at 6.30 AM to wake me up I felt like if Alice had left 5 minutes ago. She was right: I was exited about going to college gut I was also exited about not seeing Tanya anymore.

The flight wasn't that bat. After mum cried until having no more tears and dad hugged us for the 1000th time Alice and I got to our sits in the business class. Mum wanted to buy us first class sits but I convinced her that it wouldn't be necessary. After all, the flight wasn't that long.

We got to Yale in the afternoon and went to look for our rooms. I preyed for my roommate not to be an ass. That was the last thing I needed. I waved goodbye to my sister and headed to my room. When I got there and open the door I saw a blond head looking out through the window. He turn to see me and said with perfect southern accent "Hi my name is Jasper Hale. I was waiting for you so that we could draw lots for our bed." While I shook his hand I knew we would get ob really well.