What Are You So Scared Of?

Chapter one

Flash backs of the Yule party came flooding through her subconscious jutting her awake, just like last night. In fact, Tamsin hadn't had a full nights sleep since that magical evening a week ago today. She had returned from her trip a new person. She wasn't afraid of her feelings anymore, she was just afraid she wasn't enough for Bo. The legendary unaligned Succubus. That said how anyone thought they could be enough for the Succubus was still a mystery to her. Definitely not Lauren, that human that refused Bo of proper healing. Not even Dyson, the strong, handsome, loyal, loving wolf. If he wasn't enough for her, how could she ever be? Still she wasn't afraid to admit she had feelings for Bo anymore, and thats a good step in the right direction at least!

Tamsin was still crashing at Bo and Kenzi's shack. She still hadn't found a new place since her last place was her truck, and besides, Kenzi has kind of adopted her in a strange way. No point in leaving now right?

Realising sleep was voiding her for the next while at least she left the sofa to grab a class of water from the kitchen. When she sat back down she pulled her needs up to her chin and rested her head down. Thinking. Thinking how she could express how she felt about Bo. That every time she looked her at she could feel the butterflies in her stomach, and every kiss, etched into the back of her eyes, replaying over and over again, made her feel grounded and like she was flying all at the same time.

"where do you get off being so perfect Succubus? you still never answered me the first time" Tamsin whispered to herself. before grunting in exhaustion and throwing her head back and resting her eyes.

She was brought back to full consciousness when she heard movement coming from upstairs. Had she really fallen asleep for that long and now its morning?

The thought ran through Tamsins mind…."nah" she said before checking her phone to confirm her theory. It was 3:48am… and someone was awake upstairs. She was hoping it was just Bo or Kenzi getting up to go to the toilet or something like that. Not an intruder. No one could have got past me, even when sleeping, surly? Tamsin thought to herself. Her eye sight quickly shot back to the stairs when she could hear descending footsteps. She had no weapons within arms reach so she grabbed her glass of water, ready to chuck it over the possible intruder and smash the glass if need be. As the food steps became closer to the group floor, Tamsins grip on her glass lessened and she relaxed with her trademark smirk on her face. It was Bo. Who had been out heavily drinking that night/morning and was apparently already feeling the affects.

"wussup Succubabe" said Tamsin, smirk never leaving her face.

Bo jumped in shock of Tamsins greeting, she assumed she would be asleep as she was only sneaking downstairs for a glass of water. Once she managed to gather herself she looked over at Tamsin, trade mark smirk on her face. It good to have the old Tamsin back thought Bo. She decided to play a game seeing as the Valkyrie was so content sat there taking the piss out of the hungover state Bo was in. Without a word, Bo continued to the kitchen and pored herself a glass of water, she kept her back to Tamsin but she could feel her eyes burning into the back of her head. Conveniently there was a window in front of Bo which she could only just use as a mirror. Only just, but enough for Tamsin not to notice Bo could see her obviously checking her out.

Involuntary shivers started to shoot through Bos body. Was that just because I'd caught Tamsin looking at me? she thought. Nah, can't be, Im probably cold, not really wearing much. She answered herself silently while realising that she was currently still in front of the blonde in just a part of pants and a tightly fitted vest.

Tamsin could tell Bo was winding her up, so she made no effects to communicate with her, luckily she kept her back to her, giving the blonde a perfect view of the perfect figure in front of her. She watched Bo shiver from what she assumed was coldness before she watched her get lost in her thoughts. Tamsin decided to make her move. Silently leaving the sofa and tip towing up behind Bo.

Bo could see Tamsin coming up behind her, the Blonde was obviously still oblivious to the fact the widow was there. She pretended to be lost in her thoughts and let the blonde get a close as possible without making it obvious that she new what she was doing. Tamsin was now no more than a meter away and looked like she was about to pounce on the brunette. Bo took this as her queue to quickly make her move. Its go time Bo thought silently before smirking. As she could see Tamsins arms reaching out she spun round and gently but forcefully pushed her up against the wall.

Before Tamsin could register what was happening she had been pinned up against the wall by Bo. her hands held above her heard. She looked round for signs of how she could have been caught, she new she was being silent, she was well trained to move without a sound. She quickly clocked the window and looked back to find Bo smirking in amusement. She could help but get lost in the Succubus's brown eyes as they sparkled playfully.

"Are we gonna stop the silent treatment now Succulette?" Tamsin said sarcastically.

Bo simply nodded her head and let go of Tamsins arms before heading over to sit down on the sofa. Some how her hangover feeling had disappeared, probably due to the fun she was having with the gorgeous blonde that was still stood up against the wall in what looked like confusion. Bo motioned her over and she came and sat next to her on the sofa. Bo decided to start the conversation off this time.

"How come you're awake so late Valkyrie?"

"Couldn't sleep" replied Tamsin sarcastically, earning a soft slap on the knee from Bo.

"Because?…." Bo pushed

Tamsin thought back to what she has been telling herself earlier, that she wasn't afraid of her feelings anymore. That being said, she hadn't actually confronted Bo about it, even if it was just to inform her. She decided now as as good of time as any. It was quiet, they were alone, perfect right? Here goes Tamisn thought while taking a deep breath. She realised she been looking down this whole time, she she lifted her head and looked at Bos eyes, she could see a hint of concern so she smiled before saying what she was about it say.

"I was just thinking about Yule's Eve" She kept eye contact with Bo the whole time so she could try and judge how she was going to take it. and possible move out the way before getting a slap. She has spoken quietly, but loud enough for just the two of them to hear. Tamsin searched Bo's eyes for any signs, so far nothing, it was like she had frozen in time. Cautiously she rested a hand on Bos leg, careful not to push it too much having still not had a reaction. She felt goosebumps appear on Bo arm indicating that she was intact still alive and hadn't frozen in time. Tamsin decided to speak again.

"When i first saw you that night, I kissed you, you asked me what it was for. I never got to answer because I assumed you'd forget it… Remember that?"

Bo finally moved, she dipped her head and it looked like she was blushing. No, really? the almightily unaligned succubus blushing because of me? Tamsin thought. Bo's face now wore a beautiful smile, her hand had moved on top of Tamsins which was still on her leg and she smiled at the contact. Tamsin put her other hand onto Bo's cheek and lifted her face so they had full eye contact. Tamsin could still see the sparkle in Bo's eyes, but this wasn't playful. This was something completely different that she had never witnessed before. Regardless, Tamsin continued.

"You wonna know what it was for?" Tamsin paused quickly and started to speak again before Bo could answer "It was for every time, I tried to hurt you and take you away, every time you were there to prove me wrong, every time you were there by my side. For the time when you saw good even in someone like me, and for when you stopped me from killing what is now more precious to me. Every single thing you taught me made me want to be a better person, made me not afraid to be myself and confront how i feel, because its okay for me to feel, and you taught me that" Tamsin stopped. She could see the tears welling in Bo's eyes and she could feel them starting to appear in hers too. There was still a smile on Bo's face which she just got lost in for a few seconds before Bo spoke up.

"and what do you feel? right now, right this second?"

Tamsin took a deep breath and braced herself for what may or may not be about to come before answering.

"You. Every goose bump under my skin, that smile makes my stomach do flips. those eyes that i could get lost in for days and still not have enough time with them." Tamsin stopped shyly and looked down a second before looking back up at Bo who was now crying. "I just, i don't know what it happened, i don't know how, ever since you fed off me when we went to look for Kenzi i've felt this pull. i couldn't put my finger on it till BrazenWood and once i did all i wanted to do was run. But not anymore. I know you probably don't feel the same and even if you did i know I'm probably still not enough for you. But i just needed you to know, and hopefully i'll get a good nights sleep now" Tamsin laughed to herself and Bo laughed back.

Bo was speechless. She had been feeling everything the blonde had just described but she could figure out why. not suddenly it all makes sense. she processes this new information for a minute before looking back up at Tamsin who was watching Bo with concern. The Succubus smiled and a couple more tears fell from her eyes as she started to laugh. She looked at the Blonde and smiled happily before speaking up.

"you just spoke about how I taught you and everything, you've just enabled me to figure out a feeling that i've been having for weeks"

Tamsin looked up fast, kind of fox like, making sure she'd herd correctly. Bo hadn't flipped out or even moved from there closeness so she assumed all was good. her hand was still on Bo's face and she started to stroke her cheek. Tamsin felt Bo lean into the contact before she felt her hand being removed from Bo's face and placed on Bo's shoulder. She moved the other hand that was still on Bo's leg to the other side of her shoulder and attached her hands behind Bo's neck. Bo has snuck her hands around Tamins waste and began to pull her closer until there was no space between noses and the smallest amount possible between lips. Tamsin leaned in to close the contact completely, kissing Bo with someone she'd never felt before. She couldn't quite put her finger on what it was but it was returned by Bo. The kiss quickly became more passionate as Tamsin ran her tongue along Bo's bottom lip asking for entrance, which was quickly granted. They fought for dominance until air became an issue and they had to break the kiss. both keeping there eyes closed and leaning on each others foreheads. Tamsin didn't know what this was, she was still terrified that she wasn't enough for Bo, but for know all she wanted was to lay down with the Succubus and fall asleep.