Summary : Longing. Pain. Tears... The truth is it would be better if I was the one who DIED

It's a revision of The Last. There aren't a lot of change but I hope you like it. please review

Disclaimer : OHSHC doen't belong to me so does the poem (I got that poem from a really good novel)

The Last

The sun shone so bright that day. A girl or a woman. Yeah, she had been a woman. She walked there, to that silent place. She brought flowers in her right hand and some papers in her left. She walked slowly yet elegantly. Then she sat beside him and propped up her head.

I miss you so much…

"Ohayo gozaimasu"

She said and gave him the flower.

Ohayo. Wow, roses! My favorite. Thanks

"Gomen na. It's been a long time since my last visit. I got a little busy. I hope you're not mad at me"

She smiled

I'm not mad at you. Your smile make me can't stay mad at you. Don't worry! I'm glad enough with your coming today

"Oh, I almost forget about it. I have letters from our friends. I'll read it for you"

Hn… our friends… How are they doing? I miss them

"Here! Kaoru and Hikaru said they were having a fashion show in France and would back here next month. And.. this one is from Honey-senpai. He said he would back from America next week with Mori-senpai. And they all said they would come here to see you after they had got back"

Okay. I'm looking forward to their coming

She took a deep breath

"I think something weird in me. I don't know why, lately I always remember our memories. Remember our high school time. Remember….. when and the reason you left me. I remember everything about you"

Her eyes grew teary

Don't cry! I always remember about you too. You are the first and the last woman in my heart, in my life. I'm sorry I left you. But I really had to do that. I don't want them to hurt you

"You must had thought I would be fine if you gave up your life instead of mine, right?"

Of course

"You must had thought I would be alright when you saved me by substituting my life with yours, right?"

Of course

"Wrong"

She began to cry

Pardon me

"YOU ARE WRONG! I'M NOT OKAY WITHOUT YOU! YOUR THOUGHT WAS REALLY STUPID!"

Sorry, I don't get the point

"The truth is it would be better if I was the one who DIED"

No! I couldn't let that happened. I couldn't see you in pain

"You know, I felt guilty for years, even till now. Guilty for letting you SAVED ME!"

But… but I don't blame you

"You said you loved me right before you saved me. Was it even true? NO! It was only a BULLSHIT!"

No, it wasn't. I do love you. It's the truth

"IT WAS A LIE"

I didn't lie to you

"You're a LIAR! If you do love me, you won't hurt me! You won't leave me! Even, you haven't heard my answer….."

……

For something which comes late…
For a love that release in the middle of the pain…
I really wanna met you again…

I really want to tell you…
How I love you so…

She drew breath

"That's it! It's enough! Whatever I say, it won't change anything. In fact, you can't hear me anyway…"

She stood and started walking out of that place. Kept off him...

Haruhi! Haruhi! Please! Please listen to me!

She didn't turn around kept walking...

Okay… That decision belongs to you. I just want to say what I said at that time was the truth. I do love you.Really love you. At least, I can rest in peace now. For I know he's better than me. I'm sure he won't leave you like I did and he'll always protect you. I wish… you're always happy in the rest of your life…. with him. Yeah, I know it and I'm glad hearing your wedding plan with him, with my best friend, The Shadow King….

Unfortunately, she didn't hear what he said. She walked out of that place, leaving him. Left the marble tombstone of SUOH TAMAKI