October 2, 2009

Favorite Place

We were laying on the forest floor, surrounded by pink flowers, and endless trees in the tiny town of Forks, Washington. I don't know why this was my favorite spot after what had happened here, but it comforted me in a weird way. On the other hand, maybe it was because I am lying in the most perfect person's arms, my fiancé, Edward Cullen. I wasn't really serious about any of my relationships, but something about him makes me know he's the one I've been waiting for. Well, that sounds a little funny put in those words, but I mean for the few years that I've been a teenager that he's the person that means more than anything to me. I've dated so many guys that it's easy for me to tell if they really like you, or if they're dating you for benefits. With Edward , it was easy to tell that he really likes me and always will be there to save me when I get in trouble, or just so happen to trip over nothing in particular-like oh, say a line on the floor. Something about him that makes me wonder why he would stay with me; of all the girls, he has been with me for the past two years. We've had our good times, and bad just like any other couple. But laying here in this meadow would bring back memories that any person would kill to forget. I'm sometimes ashamed of myself for not letting these horrific thoughts go, but I can't help it. Every time that I look at Edward or think of this meadow I wonder what would have happened if I had listened to him and stayed hidden behind the trees. But, at the time I had no choice; when someone that you love is about to be killed and they're laying on the ground breathless it's common sense to help them and try to stop the madness.

Thinking about this I winced and Edward pulled me closer into him in what seemed like, and probably was, an unbreakable hold. This was his way without words that tells me 'Nobody will ever hurt you in any way as long as I'm around'. Even though he never told me this, I pieced it together because when something bad happened he would do this. I try so hard to push out the bad memories of what has happened over the last two years that I seem to have no good ones of us that aren't in result of something bad that has happened. With all things considered though-I'll take it, no Edward er how painful a memory is, Edward is always there to heal my wounds, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Thinking of this makes me feel like Hallmark card-the one that you would be embarrassed to give someone. I can't control my thoughts though because we are both in love and would do anything for each other. Ugh! One memory that keeps invading my thoughts is about how we first met. It was absolutely crazy, but led up to the events that happened in this meadow. All of this stuff that happened on the first day seems weird because I just met Edward and didn't know anything about him-but don't you believe in love at first sight? I will warn you now that getting inside my head for two events (how Edward and I met, and what happened in the meadow) may not be pretty because they are extremely emotional, painful and downright insane. So, prepare yourself to enter the most heart wrenching memories of my past; that even I have trouble thinking about.

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