Summary: As a four year old Bella has to keep a secret no one should ever have to keep. With rich and successful parents who are still together, life seems pretty good for the little girl. But under all the façade and pretence, Bella is emotionally and physically abused. Her only escape is her imaginary world, but then she meets the Cullen's and secretly learns to live and love through them. But secrets can become tangled and lies are hard to hide. What will happen?
Background: Bella is a four year old girl at this point who has just moved to Forks from England. She comes from a rich family and Charles and Renee are still together. Feel free to ask further questions but I may not tell all as all will unfold as the story goes on.
Prologue:
BPOV aged 4
I was sat on the window seat in the sitting room.
The window was in front of me and the red velvet curtains were drawn behind.
The sky was grey and it was drizzling.
I looked out over the huge lawn which went on and on until it reached the forest.
The forest was dark and very green.
I began to imagine running off into the forest and finding the fairies that I had read about in books and then I would grow wings and wear a beautiful dress and I could fly away with them and we could play all day and then at night I would go and lie down in a tree trunk and they would all sing me to sleep and watch over me and I would be safe and happy and no one would ever, ever hurt me.
I wanted to run out there.
I wanted to find the fairies.
I never wanted to come back.
"Bella!" yelled Mummy. "Bella, get here right now!"
Her voice scared me and I quickly turned around and slid off of the seat, moving the curtain aside as I did this.
"What on earth are you doing, hiding from me?" She was stood at the door of the room. I looked at the floor. I didn't know what to say. I knew whatever I told Mummy she wouldn't believe me. She didn't believe a lot of what I said. She told me I was a liar. I was a liar because I could never tell Mummy what I was doing behind the curtain, or when I didn't hear her calling me, or when I went outside. If I told her about the fairies Mummy would laugh at me and tell me I was stupid. I didn't want her to hurt the fairies. They were special and as long as they were in my mind she couldn't hurt them. If I told her the truth she would be mad and if I lied she would be mad. So I didn't say anything. This made Mummy mad anyway but at least she couldn't hurt the fairies. She marched over to me and bent over so her face was nearly touching mine. She grabbed the top of my arms and held them tight. That hurt but I still didn't say anything. She would get mad if I told her anything.
"Look at me" she said quietly. I lifted my eyes and looked at her. Maybe she wouldn't be mad if I did what she told me to do.
"Why were you hiding from me?" she said in the same voice. It was a scary voice. I shook my head. I didn't know what to say.
"Don't lie to me you dirty piece of shit" she yelled. She shook me then and my head snapped back and it hurt. I tried to get my arms out of her hands but she had a really tight hold on them.
"Don't you ever hide from me of you'll get what you really deserve," she shouted, "you worthless bitch. I made you, you do what I say." She let go of me then but snatched my wrist and yanked me up so she was almost lifting me off the floor and dragged me out of the room. She marched upstairs and slammed open my bedroom door.
"Now you stay in here until I tell you you can come out, you hear?" but I didn't get to say anything and she pushed me inside and pulled the door shut. I stood there for a minute and let my aching arms rest. I didn't cry. It did no good to cry and if Mummy came back it only made it worse. I went and picked up a book off the floor by my bed and went and sat in the corner. I hugged my book to my chest and looked back into my bare room. I watched it melt away and called for the fairies to come out to play.
This is just the prologue so the chapters will be longer from here on out.
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