-Disclaimers Note – I don't own any of the characters or ideas, these are how I think Theresa in episode 21 (The Goodbye Girl) would be feeling and what she would be thinking. In addition, I don't own any of the lyrics.
-There's nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothing to gain
But the days don't seem to change- lyrics to Nothing to lose by Billy Talent
I'm so scared
I don't know if I really love Eddy
I think I still have feelings for Ryan
Ryan and I have shared so much together
He was my first kiss
I love Eddy
I just don't desire him or love him the same way I do Ryan
Ryan knows everything about me
Eddy is just learning
Running away from him was just the easiest thing to do
I really need time to myself were I can think
But I guess being in Newport doesn't really help since Ryan's presence is so strong
Every where I look I think of Ryan
I could go on for hours fantasizing about him
I don't want to settle for the next best thing
Eddy offers security and love
Ryan doesn't offer anything but passion and love
Ryan lacks security and right now a future
I need a future
Ryan has probably many more years of school and I can't afford not having someone to support me
Maybe I should go back to Chino
I don't belong in Newport
Anyway, Marisa isn't going to give Ryan up without a fight
After what she did for me tonight, I'm not sure I want to stand in her way
Ryan deserves her more than he deserves me
I'm dirt
I'm not good enough for Ryan
I'm good enough for Eddy
But is Eddy good enough for me?
-Today I don't feel pretty,
and I'm tired of trying to fit right in,
Reality is truly scaring me- Lyrics from Line & Sinker by Billy Talent
I'm going home
I can't keep running from Eddy
I'm tired of competing with these Newport girls
I'm tired of trying to fit in with them
Back in Chino I can be me
Back in Chino I am truly loved
Back in Chino someone is waiting for me
Back in Chino Eddy is waiting for me
Back in Chino I can be me
And that is worth losing Ryan for
