-Disclaimers Note – I don't own any of the characters or ideas, these are how I think Theresa in episode 21 (The Goodbye Girl) would be feeling and what she would be thinking. In addition, I don't own any of the lyrics.

-There's nothing to lose

When no one knows your name

There's nothing to gain

But the days don't seem to change- lyrics to Nothing to lose by Billy Talent

I'm so scared

I don't know if I really love Eddy

I think I still have feelings for Ryan

Ryan and I have shared so much together

He was my first kiss

I love Eddy

I just don't desire him or love him the same way I do Ryan

Ryan knows everything about me

Eddy is just learning

Running away from him was just the easiest thing to do

I really need time to myself were I can think

But I guess being in Newport doesn't really help since Ryan's presence is so strong

Every where I look I think of Ryan

I could go on for hours fantasizing about him

I don't want to settle for the next best thing

Eddy offers security and love

Ryan doesn't offer anything but passion and love

Ryan lacks security and right now a future

I need a future

Ryan has probably many more years of school and I can't afford not having someone to support me

Maybe I should go back to Chino

I don't belong in Newport

Anyway, Marisa isn't going to give Ryan up without a fight

After what she did for me tonight, I'm not sure I want to stand in her way

Ryan deserves her more than he deserves me

I'm dirt

I'm not good enough for Ryan

I'm good enough for Eddy

But is Eddy good enough for me?

-Today I don't feel pretty,

and I'm tired of trying to fit right in,

Reality is truly scaring me- Lyrics from Line & Sinker by Billy Talent

I'm going home

I can't keep running from Eddy

I'm tired of competing with these Newport girls

I'm tired of trying to fit in with them

Back in Chino I can be me

Back in Chino I am truly loved

Back in Chino someone is waiting for me

Back in Chino Eddy is waiting for me

Back in Chino I can be me

And that is worth losing Ryan for