Not Worthy

From an outside perspective, I watch him watch her and I see his heart break with every tender touch, the knife plunges deeper into his flesh as her eyes gaze at him in adoration. As one with power, I'm not supposed to be privy to this kind of information, but there are some things that defy what is and what should be. What is, she is with him, happy and in love, what shall be, she will be with him, hungry for his love and lustful takings.

She is not worthy of him, she doesn't appreciate what he does for her. I've watched them for so long, the dance, the denial, the hate borderline love. I know what he has done for her, what he has done to her, she has hated him, she has liked him, she has been afraid of him, she has not been in love with him, that part of her hasn't awoken yet.

It was his plan to sacrifice me to stake a blow to the enemy, to show the other side that we are weak, so they will prey upon his. She saw his act as callous, his demeanour as one that didn't care, one without emotion. But if anything, every action on her behalf is full of emotion, devoted to protect her. He is her protector, he loves her, but he stays off to the side so that righteous one may stake claim to her. He puts his feelings first and amuses himself with others for now.

Even unconscious, dead to the human world, I watched from a celestial plain as she confronted him, slapped him, accused him of not caring. I envy her, she has someone who loves her and she doesn't even know, if she did, would she care?

Time will tell...

I've known her for years, she is not a selfish person, but she is stubborn and sees what she wants, when she is wrong, she will apologize, but it is rare for her to truly believe that she was wrong. When she slapped him, she felt power, that once again he was up to his tricks, using others and manipulating them. But one day, she will be wrong and he will not choose her and she will have lost, how much longer will he be there in the shadows awaiting her heart to recognize him.

One day, perhaps soon, perhaps far, but for now, she is not worthy of him.

He is no Prince Charming, but he has heart, courage and he believes and as he said, "I will choose you, in the end, I will always choose you."