My Diabetes Poem

To wait for normality is to wait forever,

A binding promise to never be broken,

But to never be carried through,

Until Kingdom does come.

Not until you have parted with the chain,

The string of forever,

Does normality begin to come,

But it is not normal,

As you have never experienced it before.

Would normality come if we had been doing the

Same thing,

For seconds,

Or minutes,

Or years?

Or maybe normality comes from the moment you are born,

Or behind your year of screaming with tears,

When fresh water has sprung to those whose eyes have survived,

And others who are put to rest,

Under ground forever lie.

I normality in forever from the first moment of the Earth,

Or from before our galaxy,

Before it's birth?

Perhaps we shall never ever know,

Perhaps we already do.

So normality is nothing,

But still I must say,

That if normality you seek,

Than you'd best stay away,

From many things,

Such as my disease.

Though better than Cancer,

Yet worse than the flu,

It will tear you apart,

If it grabs hold of you.

A life long thing it will be,

And if you have it,

The world will make things,

Quite different from things,

Normally,

Usually,

Always.

Away from the others,

Always picked last,

Something you may never have known,

But once this is yours,

A gift you do not seek,

You'll find others,

Deterred,

And you,

Will fall through,

The many cracks laid out,

By our dear Lord,

That have brought us to him.

We fall through, we fly up,

And we are never heard from again.

It's like losing another person inside,

That we had once known.

We loved them and cherished,

But then they were perished,

And we will realize we are quite alone.

To speak is to fall,

To let our hearts say it all,

All the wind blows for,

And the grass grows for,

And the world shines and lives and breathes for.

But it shall never arrive,

No not until,

You leave prying eyes,

And the bird's constant call,

Not until the day you die.