Title: The Things We Leave Behind
Chapter Title: Confrontations

Author: MyGeekSide-101.
Disclaimer: I do not own Rookie Blue; I can only wish I did. Everything else belongs to their respective owners. Same goes with all songs mentioned in the story :)

Rating: PG-13
Summary: S/A. You sallow, and bite your cheek to stop the tears at seeing your mother for the first time in fourteen years. Screams, slamming doors, pleas of "don't leave me!" and sobs invade your senses, you feel another wave of anguish and abandonment hit you with a staggering force.

A/N: So I've read one story by Coppers Mama called What We Do For Family (her other stuff is amazing btw!) where Andy's mum comes back and it's all intense and emotional. Of course, its Sam/Andy, I mean how can you not ship them? But yeah. I really like the idea of her mum coming back and stirring everything up, so I'm so going to give it a shot. The next thing I want to say is that for the big portion of each chapter, it's going to be very one person POV orientated, but after I've written that it'll go to third person POV, does that make sense? And one last thing, I'm guessing that Andy is probs around 27 to 28? So her mum left her when she was around 13? My writing has sucked lately, so please bear with me for this. Uh, reviews are love! Flame if you must, but constructive criticism is best! Now that I'm done rambling, let's get on with the chapter!

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It happened in a second. One tiny, little, insignificant second.

Your assignments had been dulled out, wanted man on the loose, if found take extreme care and precaution – possibly armed.

Then the shit hit the fan. Your Sergeants assistant said "McNally, someone out front for you. No name, said it was important."

You cast a quick look over to Sam and Boyko, whose nods are firm and you get up quickly and head to the waiting room.

"Did they say who they were?"

The assistant shakes her head, gestures where the person waiting for her was and retreats behind her desk. Andy shoots a nod in her direction, and walks over but stops suddenly.

The hair is the first thing to get to her.

The long, deep chestnut brown coloured hair, the exact same colour of your hair.

The second thing that gets to her is the eyes. Those bright, sparkling, twinkling green eyes that you wanted as a kid.

You sallow, and bite your cheek to stop the tears at seeing your mother for the first time in fourteen years. Screams, slamming doors, pleas of "don't leave me!" and sobs invade your senses, you feel another wave of anguish, pain, hurt and abandonment hit you with a staggering force.

"What are you doing here?" You whisper.

Your mother's hair flies around at the sound of your voice and a startled gasp leaves her lips. She swallows nervously, smooths the hem of her dress down.

A wave of disgust and jealously rips through your stomach when a glimpse of the designer label catches your eye.

"What are you doing here?" You whisper again, putting more force behind the words.

"I-I wanted to see you." She tries for a small smile but a frown etches upon her face.

"Why? It's been fourteen years, and I'm only just getting over my abandonment issues." You demand. Tears begin to prick the corners of your eyes and the urge to run and never look back churns within you.

"I-I-I'm sorry about that. But I couldn't stay there. Not anymore."

"So you leave? No note. No goodbye. Nothing."

"It was easier." Your mother cries.

Suddenly, you feel on display. The hot gazes of your friend's burn your back along with the curious stares of the detectives, but only one gaze really matters because in honesty it's the only one you can feel.

The concerned gaze of your TO sends shivers down your spine, and sob bubbles up in your throat.

"Leave." You say. There is no venom in the word, no malice. Nothing.

Your mother sighs. "It's not that simple Andy."

"No. You don't get to come here and demand to know me! When you left, I thought I'd I would never be the same again. I thought that when you left, that it was only a matter of time before Dad left too. You left ME. You chose your new, bright and shiny family. You broke me. And I'm all glued back together now. I make NO apologies for how I chose to repair what YOU broke. YOU DON'T GET TO KNOW ME." And with that, you turned around and shoved your way through the gathered crowd of the 15th division to find the nearest broom cupboard.

You're so distraught you don't hear Boyko telling the one person you want to be around to go after you, make sure your okay and take as much time as you both need.

Apparently he's familiar with abandonment issues.

xxx(A?N: now it's going to be third pov. get that?)

Andy storms into the broom cupboard, the beginnings of a panic attack laps at the fringes of her self control.

Her back hits the wall and she slides down, tears running down her face and a sob comes out of the rookie's mouth. Andy's breaths are quick and fast, on the verge of hyperventilating. A sob makes its way out of her mouth.

The door opens and Sam walks in and he moves to sit beside Andy.

"I-I dont, I can't, I don't, I just- just- I don't" Another sob racks Andy's body and tears pour down her face. "I can't- I-I-I I don't want to-to know h-her."

More violent sobs begin to shake the young rookie's body.

"Shhh, deep breaths. Take it easy." Sam whispers. He sits down next to her and wraps an arm around her as Andy begins to cry harder. "Slowly, in and out. Deep breathes."

Blindly, he reaches around looking for a paper bag and brings it down to Andy and she grabs it, her fingers shaking.

Breathing into the bag, Sam continues to whisper into her ear and slowly the sobs fade away, the tears dry and her breathing is under control.

"I'm okay." She murmurs now.

He nods and smiles at her. "You need some rest. Come on."

Sam helps her up and wraps an arm around her shoulders, pulling her close. "They will stare but focus on your breathing okay."

Andy nods and burrows her head into the crook of her shoulder as they both brace the outside world.

The rookie doesn't even notice the stares, she just focuses on Sam.

A/N: Okay, it's now 12:45 am and the first chapter is complete. If you want to know what the inspiration behind Andy yelling at her mum its was from a Grey's Anatomy episode in season two. The breakdown scene was also from Greys and here's a video if you want to know what Andy's breakdown in the cupboard really looks like: youtube(dot)com(slash)watch?v=6cY-EgyIEI0.
Hope you enjoyed the chapter, I already have an idea for what the next one will be like :) and as usual, I don't own Rookie Blue or Greys Anatomy.