Sesshoumaru sighed as he stared up at the sky. It was dark, and he had alot on his mind. He wasn't doing well in the fight to obtain Tetsusaiga, and lately nothing else was going good for him either. He raised a clay drinking mug up to his lips and slowly tried to clear his mind as the warmth of the liquid inside it soothed his throat (along with his conscience). Thoughts drifted in and out of his mind in a mildly peaceful manner, but he ignored them.

"Lord Sesshoumaru?"

There was a voice behind the statement.

"My lord, are you okay? You seem to be acting a bit more strangely than usual..." Rin voice trailed off. "If something is wrong you can tell me, you know that right? Because I'm here for you if you want to talk and I'll listen to you."

Sesshoumaru opened his mouth, but no sound came out. He tried again, this time sentances formed in a rough, hoarse whisper.

"I'm fine."

"My lord..."

"I'm fine," he protested, a little more loudly.

"You know you aren't."

"What happened doesn't bother me. I'm fine and I will be."

His follower was silent for a moment. Then she spoke up.

"It is perfectly normal to be scared of what you don't understand. But if you keep surpressing your emotions, you'll drive yourself insane."

The closest person he had ever had to a friend stood to leave. Sesshoumaru took another sip of the coffee and looked down at the wrists he had so carelessy slit open and watched bleed. Then he realized-- maybe he wasn't okay. In fact, maybe nothing was okay. And maybe he was scared that that was the truth, and he would never be able to forget being unable to change it.

Alright, a bit depressing, yes, but lately alot of my writing is. i AM working on some humor fanfics though, I think you'll really love one of them. I'll have to wait untill at least Monday to put up it's chapters 16-19 and up though, my friend chelsea has the notebook they're in. Review please, Ja ne! Mizu Akuma