Title: Fighting With Myself

Author: Wibin Fornumen (Wibin stands for "Well it bloody is now" which is my favorite line from POTC and Fornumen is an Elvish term.)

Song: Fighting With Myself by Never on Sunday

Summary: Syd and Vaughn's thoughts on the reappearance of Sydney.

Pairing: Syd/Vaughn Vaughn/Lauren

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters, I don't own the song. People with lots of money own that stuff. I don't have lots of money, therefore, I don't own the characters or the song. Furthermore, if I owned the show or the characters, Syd and Vaughn would still be together.

A/N: I could not believe the irony of this song. That's all I gotta say. And in the first verse with Vaughn's POV, he's talking about Lauren. His other verse he's talking about Sydney. Sydney is thinking about Vaughn.

Vaughn's POV Sydney's back. I'm married. That's really all anybody needs to know. And the fact is, I still love her. She still loves me. I think we both understand that. We also understand that we can't be together. I love Sydney, but I love Lauren too. Not in the way I love Sydney. Not as deeply, not as sincerely. Lauren and I don't have the connection that Sydney and I do. She doesn't understand me like Sydney does. She can't understand it.

"Why do I lie to myself?

Looking in her eyes I can see

You're not what I thought

You are not a part of me

And I know you could never be ."

Sydney POV

Of all the bad luck I could have had, this had to happen. Let's recap: First my Mom dies, then she's back. Then Vaughn almost dies, then he's back. Then Vaughn and I are together but it turns out my room-mate isn't actually who I think she is and she almost kills me and Will. Then I'm missing for two years and when I get back the one man who I truly loved is married to this Barbie-like woman. I really do love him!! He knows that, I know that. She knows that too. I can see it in her eyes. That animosity towards me. She can see it when I look at him. She can see the connection. She doesn't have that with him. She's jealous. But that's her bad luck.

"How do you live with yourself?

Putting my heart on a shelf

Nothing left to say

Nothing left to do

But go

And I wish, I were someone else"

Vaughn POV

I still can't sleep at night. Even when she's home. I know that I'm not the one she runs to for comfort anymore. I'm just a guy who set her aside and married someone else. I hate myself for that. We should be together!! Not the way we are, where all we can share is longing looks across the office before Lauren comes over to tell me something else I did wrong with my job. Sydney would never do that. She wouldn't care. I love Sydney. Not Lauren.

"I'm fighting with myself

to try and forget you

I'm struggling to hold on

To this broken dream

I'm fighting with myself

To keep on believing

That one day I'll be free

From this pain you're causing me

Fighting with myself"