While walking up the stairs i am thinking about our relationship. It is a very weird one i must say. We see each other every day, but barely even say hi. But we talk so much at the late nights, when we're alone. Not as much as we used to, obviously. We used to talk every single day. Back when i didn't realized i loved you… But i now do. Was that that ruined it? The fact that i love you..? No… no no no, you assured me it wasn't anything like that. You especificaly said that we'd continue the same, and that you cherished my feelings… but you don't feel the same way…. Well, you never really said that you don't feel the same way… you were just so busy calming me down, when i was about to cry when i told you about my overflowing feelings. That's funny, I used to be the one calming you down..

I laugh a little bit. It was a silly moment, i even blushed a little.

But we eventually feel apart after that… it was inevitable, I guess. Things would soon become weird if we kept the same relationship….. Wait, no! What am i thinking? That's not it. It's just lack of time. That's it, just lack of time.

I remembre that we met 2 years ago, the same gap as our age difference, we used to be the best of mates… It was so easy to talk to you, even though I didn't really felt like entering your living garbage can (a.k.a room) after practice and/or punishments. You know the kind, you have them yourself. Now i have to make up silly excuses, like helping you with homework and inviting you to grab a movie, or you'll just look stressed and refuse... wait. 2 years ago. I could barely even remember that he was there anymore with so much things to worry about, when I was his age… but you always manage to talk to me… every single day… you care. You still care. You love me more that I love you…. You always find a little time to make me smile or confort me, and you still insist that i never once bothered you, even after all those nights that we stayed up til 5am just trading words and ideas..

You are going down stairs. I stop my thoughts and I look at you. You turn to me and say a faint 'Hi there'

I am surprised, it's been a while since you said that face to face.

'Hey..' I reply, with a surprised expression on my face, gazing at you.

I snap out of it and smile again, after you pass me.

'You also love me, don't you?' I whisper

You turn back to me.

My heart skips a beat, i didn't thought you heard that. Even now I'm not sure if you did.

'So.. wanna pass by my room and grab a movie?'

I blush a little.

'Yeah, sure... But clean you room, it smells like shit' I joke

'Cool!' You smile 'Later then!

I keep walking. James Adams... you're extremely curious, mate