Title: The Perfect Time
Anime: Ouran High School Host Club
Pairing: HikaKao
Chapter 1

Kaoru… why did we have to be so stupid that day? It's like we haven't grown at all. We're so out of touch with reality, that even though we're fifteen, it's like we're like children… that our minds our that of five year olds… or seven, at best.

When we were five, we liked to go night exploring. We did that our mansion until we realized that we had explored all of it. When we grew up, they habit never changed. Exploring and finding new places was fun, but we didn't explore old places unless they were extremely interesting.

Today, we are visiting family with our parents. Finally, we managed to escape to explore with each other, going where we've never been.

Our uncle's mansion is enormous. It's five stories high, and we've already explored just about every floor of it, going up a floor once one floor has been thoroughly looked through. We're bored. There's nothing cool here…

"Let's check out the roof, next. I bet it has an awesome view." Kaoru suggested. I agreed, and walked with him up a winding staircase to the top. We're both sweating from the trip. If there isn't something special up here, we're both going to be highlyticked since that was a wasted effort.

This is better. Kaoru's right… the view is amazing. The sun is setting. It's really beautiful. There's a large amount of space to cover up here.

"It'd be really cool to find a secret room up here." I say, smirking. I figure the secret room could have lots of perverted stuff in it. How nice would it be to have someone to blackmail? It's been far too long since we've ruined some jerk's life…

"I agree." He replies, his face mirroring my expression. He probably has the same ideas in mind.

We once found a perverted room at our mansion when we were eleven. It had sex toys everywhere, whips, chains… the works. Kaoru admitted that he wouldn't mind owning a room similar to that one. I agreed, but he was more enthusiastic. The only thing that I could say to him to keep him from touching anything was that it was probably the property of our parents, and that turn him off of the idea immediately. Yeah. We don't want to touch germy parent objects…

We discovered that this roof goes even higher than we thought, and again, we're climbing stairs. I hold back a groan. Stairs have been around forever… I'd love to go back and kill the person who invented them. I could tell them why escalators and elevators are a thousand times better… but I have no idea how to make them. Maybe I should just ignore the cramping in my legs and keep my eyes on Kaoru. He seems fine. I'm jealous…

Thinking of that perverted room our parents own, I see some blush on his face. I wonder if he's feeling overworked from the stairs, or has the same thoughts in mind. I'm sure he still wants a room like that. He might even want more hardcore stuff than what we saw. He was very interesting in the things that go inside of girls. I've never told him that I think he prefers guys. I'm letting him figure it out on his own. Actually, I'd rather that neither of us ever married or got a relationship. It would only lead to heartbreak and sorrow. Marriages never last, affairs happen, and really, nobody cares about each other. We care about each other, though. We can protect each other forever. I never want that to change.

We reach the top. There isn't much up here, but we can see our uncle's entire estate. The land around is like that of a dream… it's like a world so beautiful, unrealistic, and perfect that I could picture us here forever if only it weren't for the fact that this place doesn't belong to us. A soft wind gently blows against us. I can smell flowers. Kaoru probably can, too. The orange and pink sky really sets the perfect mood. It's the perfect tranquil fantasy.

I see him climbing over the railing so that he can stand on the ledge. He looks peaceful, and it looks cool, an all, but this isn't okay.

"Kaoru! That's dangerous! Please don't stand on such a dangerous place!" he ignores what I said and says,

"Isn't it beautiful here? It's the perfect place… the perfect time, for me…" his honey-colored eyes are closed and he leans back against the rail that he's holding onto.

"Kaoru, please come back here where it's safe—"

"Hikaru," the way he said it caught me off guard. He was now turned towards me, leaning on it.

"Kaoru…" I walk closer to him, slowly so that the situation doesn't become more dangerous for him. I couldn't stand the idea of him falling more than five stories… he may not live. He glances over his shoulder at something far below us. I think he's looking at a stream, or possibly the two trees nearby the mansion. He then looks back at me.

"I wanna tell you something." He said as I reach him. It felt like it had taken forever just to walk a foot.

"Yeah?"

"It's the perfect time for me." He says quietly. I strained to hear him, and wondered what it meant. I leaned in closely to hear him talk, wondering why he looked down when he said it. When he leaned up, he pressed his lips to mine, catching me off guard completely. Me? Kissing me? Is this what he meant? He broke it off. He eyes looked so sad… as though he were going to cry. His lips were curved into a sad smile. "I love you." He whispered before turning quickly, launching himself from the building, intending to fall all six stories to the hard ground below. I screamed his name. He landed. He wasn't moving.

These stairs don't matter to me at all. I run down them, the adrenaline giving me strength. My brother… my baby brother… my twin that I could never live without… why? Kaoru, WHY?! Tears streak down my face as I reach a tree nearby the mansion, leap onto it, and climb down until I can jump down to him from a safe distance. I realize why he had been looking in the direction of these trees and the stream: it's where he'd aim for when he jumped.

He's bleeding, and he's obviously broken bones. I don't know if he's breathing. I take out my cell phone, breathing hard. I can't control myself… what will I do without him? I call our mother and tell her that he fell from the top floor before I could save him. I just don't have the heart to tell her that he had tried to commit suicide.

'She'll call an ambulance.' I thought, praying that they could make it here before it was too late. I hold him close to me, crying my heart out.

Kaoru… why?