What the hell just happened?

A couple more steps and I would have been gone

Home free; away from his presence

Now I'm in this room, this closet with HIM

His lips slammed down on mine

I could barely breathe

There was no gentleness, no love

He was kissing me but I could feel his anger

He held my face tightly, keeping me in place

Had he forgiven me? Did he really miss me?

No, this was not my Fitz, this was someone else

I could smell the alcohol on him

This was not someone who wanted to love me

This was someone who wanted to hurt me

It took all of my strength to push him off me

I was not going to let him humiliate me again

I was done with all of it

How dare he think I would go for this?

Slap.

He was definitely shocked by that

He staggered back from me in disbelief

I didn't care; I was not his to use

His right to me had been forfeited 10 months ago

I was about to unleash all the pint up anger I had

I had him cornered and he was about to hear it all

Then I looked in his eyes and I was torn

I saw a glimpse of the Fitz I loved

He was lonely, tired, unsure and afraid

I could feel his need for me

And I desperately wanted to be with him

Even now I was missing his harsh touch

To connect with him made me feel alive

And he felt the same

Our eyes spoke the unheard language

That only we could understand

It was frustrating to hold myself back from him

I still loved this man

After all the hurt and anger

It was only him that I needed

The battle to hold my defenses was losing

Without a second thought, I hurled myself in his arms

He almost staggered backwards from my kiss

I had never kissed him like that before

I was the aggressor

I was gripping him fiercely

I deepened the kiss so he could barely breathe

He would know how much I wanted him

I knew where this would lead and I didn't care

For whatever time we had together

I would imagine that he was mine again

I would focus on the love we once had for each other

It was only a fleeting thought

This is a mistake. It won't end well.

But I suppressed it.