What the hell just happened?
A couple more steps and I would have been gone
Home free; away from his presence
Now I'm in this room, this closet with HIM
His lips slammed down on mine
I could barely breathe
There was no gentleness, no love
He was kissing me but I could feel his anger
He held my face tightly, keeping me in place
Had he forgiven me? Did he really miss me?
No, this was not my Fitz, this was someone else
I could smell the alcohol on him
This was not someone who wanted to love me
This was someone who wanted to hurt me
It took all of my strength to push him off me
I was not going to let him humiliate me again
I was done with all of it
How dare he think I would go for this?
Slap.
He was definitely shocked by that
He staggered back from me in disbelief
I didn't care; I was not his to use
His right to me had been forfeited 10 months ago
I was about to unleash all the pint up anger I had
I had him cornered and he was about to hear it all
Then I looked in his eyes and I was torn
I saw a glimpse of the Fitz I loved
He was lonely, tired, unsure and afraid
I could feel his need for me
And I desperately wanted to be with him
Even now I was missing his harsh touch
To connect with him made me feel alive
And he felt the same
Our eyes spoke the unheard language
That only we could understand
It was frustrating to hold myself back from him
I still loved this man
After all the hurt and anger
It was only him that I needed
The battle to hold my defenses was losing
Without a second thought, I hurled myself in his arms
He almost staggered backwards from my kiss
I had never kissed him like that before
I was the aggressor
I was gripping him fiercely
I deepened the kiss so he could barely breathe
He would know how much I wanted him
I knew where this would lead and I didn't care
For whatever time we had together
I would imagine that he was mine again
I would focus on the love we once had for each other
It was only a fleeting thought
This is a mistake. It won't end well.
But I suppressed it.
