BRAVE

by Minela310

Hi! I'm Jude Harrison aka First Instant Star. Can't believe it's been almost 11 months and I will be turning 17 in two months. Officially. Got my license too. Can you believe it? Of course you can't. You're a camera and I'm completely losing it. Sorry, I'm a little nervous. Now I'm apologizing to a camera. Jude, get it together. I don't really like being on camera. Ironic huh? Maybe it's cuz I'm in my pjs. Anyways I bet you're wondering what I'm doing recording myself. Good question. I don't know. My therapist says that I need to find a productive way to release my stress. I can't really talk to anyone so I figure I could always talk to myself. Right? Ok so I might as well tell you about my day today. Ugh. It's not easy being Jude Harrison. It all started at G Major…..

"Jingle bells, jingle bells" UGHHHHHH, if I hear one more Christmas song I'm going to scream. Seriously, Christmas just passed three days ago and the radios have been playing these songs for over a month straight. "Good Morninggggggg" who other than Jamie would be singing at eight in the morning? "Morning" I more grunted than anything. "Coffee?" he was handing me an empty cup. I assumed he would pour the coffee in afterwards. And in walks Quincy. If I didn't know any better I would say he didn't bother making his hair this morning. That's my cue to leave or at least get out of his view. Any time Tommy doesn't pay attention to his hair is a time you don't want him to pay you any attention either. I could swear I heard Jamie howl. Tommy of course walked passed us just nodding for me to follow him. Oh no, this wasn't a good sign. He never goes to the studio without his morning coffee. And it's even worse when he just nods without any words. The English vocabulary has hundreds of thousands of words; I know. I've flunked it the class and had to take summer school but we'll get to that later. He could use ONE or maybe two words. I have a feeling this is going to be a long day.

Jamie shrugs his shoulders at me and smiles brightly. Ahh how I love him. Seriously, who else beams like that this early? And how many times did he save my ass this week only? If it wasn't for him, I would oversleep every day and than I'd have to get lectured by the Grinch himself. ANYWAYS, without any support from Jamie, I bravely make my way to the studio and breath in deeply before opening the door. I deserve a metal for this. I mean who else in their right mind would walk into the lion's den? I spot Tommy at the sound board. He's not even turning around to face me. This would be day 23.

23rd day of what you ask? Well that would be 23 days since I last kissed Tommy. 23 days since I last touched him in any unprofessional way. 23 days since he actually smiled at me. Can you believe he hasn't smiled at me in almost a month? I mean who can go for that long without a little grin? I'd take anything at this point. But I knew Tommy wouldn't give in. I had made a choice. Not one of my best ones I'll tell you. I should have handled the situation differently. Maybe he would be nicer to me now. "Are you just going to stand there or are we gonna get any work done today?" see?? He was EVIL. He doesn't even bother to be a little nice to me. And I was in love with this idiot. I swear one of these days I am going to…going to. I DON'T KNOW but I will do something. "JUDE, get in the booth." He almost raised his voice at me. One of these days, just not now. Not while he could bite my head off just for looking at him the wrong way. What was I suppose to do? So I did the same thing I had done for the past 23 days. I sucked it up and did as I was told.